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Atman (profile) wrote,
on 3-6-2003 at 9:40pm
Current mood: aggravated
Music: Linkin park...that new one
Subject: band
Always with the band and the playin and usually the sucking. I honestly don't think concert band did so badly, but, I think I was a big factor as to why we got a two...I messed up on exalatation really bad, and yeah...I didn't goof up any A's though, so talk to someone else about that.
Least favortie part about sight reading...the end where the old man tells you what you messed up on...I can't stand it, because I hate to be corrected...mainly on stupid stuff like breathing?! C'mon guys, seriously.
But, all in all, it wasn't a bad day...I've decided that I'm just gonna get out of spuds and katies way...it seems all I do is get in the way, and make them feel guilty...so, from now on, I plan to just leave or whatever when they start doing anything...three's a crowd, and I'm not interested in third wheel pitys, that I don't want/need. They are nice, but no. Not what I need. It'll pain me to walk away, and they'll think I'm jealous or something, but I don't care anymore. All I do is guilt spud, and I'm not gonna keep doing it.

Still, everythings ok...mom had an argument about track. I finally told her why I was doing it, and why I hated it. Not what she wanted to hear. To sum up, she called me a gheed...which isn't a good thing.
Still, times have been harder, so, I'm getting by. Not pissed, not depressed, not happy...sorta neutral, for the moment.
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spud

03-07-03 4:49pm

dude.

i'm telling you.
at least we're comfy enough to do stuff around you.

i mean, i feel bad, because i already ditched on you for katie. and now i get to rub it in your face. we really shouldn't hang off each other in pubic all the time, but still we do. and i feel bad about that.

and my guilty feelings cannot be credited to, nor alleviated by, you. they're my own thing, completely separate from the realm of your control.

and i do realize i said pubic. that was intentional.

actually it's quite a funny story. you see, when we went to fla. with bruce, they had these stores much like great day, or d&w. only they were named publix. but bruce likes to call them pubix.

hey. i thought it was freaking hilaryous. so i stole it.

yeah. so that's exactly why i feel bad, is because you get the shaft, and leave every time all three of us are together. i mean it's always been tense. but last year it worked fine. and i know katie and i both still enjoy your company. and we should be able to incorporate you with that company without being offensive.

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