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| mle (profile) wrote, on 3-12-2003 at 10:27pm | |
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and if i stay lucky, then my tongue will stay tied and i wont betray the things that i hide theres not enough years underneath this belt for me to admit the way that ive felt (7 mary 3 - lucky) no. i dont think i could admit it at any age. everything is wonderful with matt and marcus. until rikki comes into the picture. so when she got online and my mood came crashing down, i quickly got off and danced again to divert myself. well she im's my phone and is like "im in love :)..." and im assuming. marcus. and i tell you.. i would have shot her dead if she had been in the same room with me. i dont want to hear that. i dont want to know anything about their relationship unless its ending. maybe im being selfish. or maybe im being honest. when i was at marcus's last night, he was like "yay - i have the two towers. and its so sad that neither you or rikki have seen it. this weekend, matt, rikki, you and me should all watch both of the movies. itd be wonderful" and i told him no. im starting to say the things i need to. the things ive hidden. and rikkis not going on spring break w/ me anymore either. but i dont know how i feel anymore. i dont want to be irritated with her. with them. but i cant help it. and i dont want to be a jealous bitch. but its so hard. i went on mle3102 today for a few minutes while screwing w/ AIM w/ marcus... and my profile was "quit falling for my friends". i obviously havent been on it since the beginning of january. at least. that was when i was pissed at matt for falling for all of my friends. and at marcus for falling for alters. and of course, after that he fell for rikki too. hard. and i cant stand it. he makes me happy. even if we're just chillin as friends (which is almost awkward now bc i have to try so hard). but when i get attention from him. it makes me happy. but once she comes into play, it crashes. like how we were just chillin in his room last night - and rikki comes online a few minutes before i leave. well he talks to her the entire time before i leave. im sorry - thats slightly rude. and the fact that its rikki just ticked me off to no end. and im so serious. i cant stand it. if i can only seperate rikki from marcus, even if just in my mind... i will be perfectly fine. stay strong mle, this shit will pass and then youll be stuck listening to both of them bawl their eyes out. mle |
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