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| christini (profile) wrote, on 3-29-2003 at 11:21am | |
| Current mood: sad Music: the used- buried myself alive Subject: emy :0( |
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| i dont know what to do..yesterday.. i got home and he was on.. and i know it wasnt his mom or anything cuz he had his away message up .. and he came back so i tried talking to him but he wouldnt respond and he left.. so i was like.. uhh.. and then when i got home, at like midnight, i checked my away message, and he left a message to email him when i get back, and that was it, so i did, and he didnt write back yet, and hes been on for a while, so i dont know what that was, and then this morning, i had this whole message up for him for his bday while i was sleeping and he was on and he didnt say anythign to me... and he was away when i got on the computer, so i tried calling him, 3 times it rang busy, then like 2 minutes later no one picked up and i got the machine.. so i know someone was home so i think he just didnt wanna talk to me, but then he came on and we were talking and he was all sad or soemthing and i tried to find out what was wrong but he was like " i dont know" and he said some things that really hurt me but i kept reminding myself that its his bday and he shouldnt be sad so i TRIED to make him feel better but apparently it had the opposite effect, and he was like, at one point, i said that id do anything for him, and hes like no i dont think u would, and i was like why not, and hes like, i just dont, and im sorry, but that just really really really hurt and i just broke down in tears, but again , i couldnt let him know that cuz its his bday and even though mine was a living hell and everyone made it horrible and he didnt even say happy birthday to me, and i was crying the whole day, and he didnt even seem to care, but i wanted him to at least have a good birthday and all he could do was tell me how sad i was making him and i dont get it because weve been so good for a long time like no fights no nothing and its been so amazing and im so in love, and today he was just like, i guess giving me the cold shoulder, and all of a sudden hes like oh im sorry im going outside ill be back later im sorry i was pissy thanks for putting up with me, im sure ill feel better when i come back i love u, like, from one minute making me so incredibly sad, the next hes like all happy, i dont get it, w/e, its his birthday and i dont wanna ruin it for him.. if i havent already. | |
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Lizzy | 03-29-03 12:23pm aw christini i'm so sorry :( that sounds horrible, just stick in there and i'm sure he'll explain or whatever. feel better...luv ya! |