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| polishpimping (profile) wrote, on 4-5-2003 at 4:02pm | |
| Current mood: With Shaken Control... Music: QOTSA - "No one knows" |
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| Sigh. I see all possibility in my happiness slipping away. I’m sorry, but it’s like I can no longer talk to anyone anymore. Everyone has there own issues, and they make mine look so trivial. Sure I’m having girl troubles, but who the heck isn’t. If I ever come to any of you with some crybaby issues, you have my permission to do “woopdy do da shit”. Talking with Jeremy the other day, it occurred to me what I really want in a relationship. (Not that Jeremy drew it out of me, but in conversations where he wont shut his mouth, it gives me a lot of time to think.) I just want to be comfortable. I just want to be able to bare all about myself to some one, and not be afraid of the possible repercussions. (And it would also be nice if I could hold her tight while watching a movie.) I don’t see that happening in the next few months. Time for me to shut the heck up, and deal with it. |
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| Anonymous | 04-05-03 9:21pm Hey, why wont anything ever happen between you and this Melissa girl? In reading just a couple of your most recent entries I can tell your crazy about her. |
polishpimping | Re:, 04-05-03 10:20pm There in lies the trouble. The feelings aren’t exactly reciprocated. She keeps sending me mixed signals. At least I think there mixed. She might just be being polite, and I am always reading way too much into it. All I really know is I told her I liked her once and I still do. But ever since things have been weird. First, we went for a few weeks without really talking, and now I’m not quite sure where we are. I am pretty sure that I am really close to scaring her away for good. |
Anonymous | Re: Re:, 04-05-03 10:47pm You havn't scared me away. I'm your friend and I'd like to remain that way. However, I don't think dating is a good idea. I like you Mike, but I'm not together, and I don't feel as though I am ever really myself. I'm more of a mental case than people think I am. I'm sorry, but it's just not a good time for me to start a relationship. I'm also sorry if I've been sending mixed signals. I'm trying to be your friend without leading you on. As you can tell, I'm not very proficient with that. I'll try to do better. I hope you can understand. -Mel |
polishpimping | 04-05-03 11:32pm I am not together either, I just feel as though I need to work on it. I am really confused about girls, and you’re the first one I met that actually makes sense at all. When I’m around you, things start to make sense.
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