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| Upchuck (profile) wrote, on 4-6-2003 at 9:07pm | |
| Current mood: creative Music: "Almost Home" Craig Morgan Subject: Have you ever encountered a moment where societies repression was so clearly apparent, yet it seemed equally clear that it was necessary? |
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| No, I have not. Just speaking in broad terms, I get to be a liberal conservative. Two contradicting terms, but who cares. Sometimes we are so busy just living our lives that we forget about all of those things. This summer seems like it could be fun. Living alone, with a job, but still having time for myself. Getting to explore parts of myself away from the crap of everyday life. There is so much in my brain that I can't find anymore. Soemtimes the past seems like a distant dream, that when it was over, was barely remembered. It also seems like that past was so unlikely, that it may have never happened, yet an equally unlikely future could be born from it. I don't want to live my life with regrets that I didn't explore as much as I could, be it anything. Spending time alone may be a challenge for me because sometimes people bring out the best. I mean no one at school does right now because I don't talk to anyone there. Except for Jenny, I talk to her every once in awhile. She probe my mind almost like I'm a mystery to her, and I like being a mystery. But we've had like two serious conversations. That's it, two serious conversations with one person in what, 15 weeks? That really sukcs. I'm surrounded by some of the brighter minds of the state and I have two serious conversations about something. College isn't all it's cracked up to be. It makes you think hard about where you want to fall in society, it teached you things, but mostly it's crap. It's a snobish system where people who have been through the same crap force you to do it too because that is what was done to them, only at much larger and prestigious schools. They have no intention of helping you retain and apply the information, only that you learn it for them, it's like jumpinng through hoops. It fosteres no real discussions or relationships among students outside the classroom. Of course, this is little ol GVSU I'm talking about. There so damned conservative. The people there seem to be really stuck up with barely anyone putting out good ideas. Even the prgressives seem to be conservative. But hey, I can't change the system. In Cedar I thought I could help, I could use my voice to help. But in the big world, you can only help in small ways. Maybe the best way is to help small things in big ways and hope for the best. |
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thelittlekitti | 04-07-03 3:18pm I stopped in to see how you were doing and somehow the entry seemed very appropriate to my mood. Then I realized that your responses were labeled as spits and swallows. Your really are a dirty old man. :) Charlie writes dirty poetry!!! |