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| cowboy67 (profile) wrote, on 4-7-2003 at 5:11pm | |
| Current mood: calm Music: silverchair - cemetery Subject: much like suffocating |
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| today is april 7, and it snowed. not just a light dusting, but some big fat flakes. there's like 4-6 inches out there! which is pretty fabulous. i do enjoy the snow. it may be cold, it may turn wet, it may cause you to slide around while driving... but it also makes for a pretty sight, and helps people appreciate the other seasons. or so i would hope. humans can never appreciate what they actually have, they can only appreciate what they don't have. it will never make sense, but it will always be that way. i went to a retirement home today after school for NHS. it really made me sad. i can only imagine how frustrating it must be when you get old. the feeling like you're worthless and just a burden. i don't even feel right living here and i'm only 18. i was thinking about how i'd feel, if i was old, lost everyone close to me - my parents, sisters, friends, etc. - and had to live all by myself and couldn't take care of myself. looking at younger people; watching them write, lift things, push heavy carts, play sports, and other stuff like that, and thinking, "i used to be able to do that, too." when i'm 80, will i regret the fact that i never went rock climbing while i had the chance? how lonely of a time it must be. one of the saddest things i've ever seen was an old woman, sitting all by herself, watching a little girl jump around and be cute like little kids are, and i saw the look on the old woman's face. i couldn't handle it. i knew exactly what she was thinking, i was thinking the same thing too. but then i started wondering what else the woman could have been thinking about... childhood friends gone, parents passed away, siblings dying from terminal illness. and how she missed the simple happiness that comes along with being an innocent little child. i wish more people could be appreciative and respectful of old people. they know so much more than us. they don't need computers or dvds to have fun. there is so much we could learn from each other, young and old, and use it to better our lives. we're all gonna be old one day, why not value the importance of old age now? some days are just right for feeling. there's the right amount of coldness, and cloud cover, and sad music. and things just click in your head. the way you stare at an ordinary object suddenly changes. and in that single instant, there is no war, there is no hate, there is no money to create greed or revenge. there is only a squishy, gray organ with nerves and synapses set inside a skull. and then the phone rings. |
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| Anonymous | 04-07-03 6:24pm it's like billy says "youth is wasted on the young" |