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| Janice_2001 (profile) wrote, on 4-9-2003 at 10:27am | |
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| I really don't know about my life anymore.. Some people have told me that I have my life made for me cuz I am with Chris, the one I love. Well, sometimes I don't think I have it made. I went to see my ex-boyfriend last night and I don't know what I am gonna do, because when he seen me his eyes were only on me. He told me he still loves me and still has feelings for me. Well, I don't know what to do or say. I love Mike, he was my first love and I love Chris cuz I love him he is my boyfriend now! Mike was my first kiss, I lost my virginity to Chris. They both mean the world to me. The thing it that I don't know what to do they both want to marry me and they both want to have my kid. I don't know that kinda scared me, but I don't know who meant it more! Ya know? Life is kinda hard for me. When I seen Mike last night I thought I was gonna cry because I haven't seen him in 6 years. Chris and I are in love and I like Mike. A lot of people told me to follow my heart and I am trying to do that. But then I think what am I doing? Trying to choose they guy I want to be with when I have the greatest guy in front of my face. I didn't want to hurt any of them and I knew I was gonna have to. So, I chose Chris. I chose Chris because I love him so much and i want to be with him forever. I want to have kids with him and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He means the world to me. Nothing will ever change that. Not even Mike, he came into the picture 10 months after Chris and I started goin out...He decided to call me on Sunday and talk to me, tell me he loved me and what not! I don't know why but he did. Well, I love Chris and I am not leavin him. This is what I felt. | |
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wildthing | 04-09-03 10:48am aww janice i think you did the right thing staying with chris he loves you so much and you and i both can tell your the world to him and i dont think n e thing should split you to apart because you love eachother sooo much and i can see it when your together so i think you already did follow your heart and stuck with the right one besides i dont kow mike lol n e ways thats what i think and if you need me i am here for you and you know it to ok your a sister to me and if someone is gonna hurt you they are going through me first alright so keep coming to me gurl I LOVE YOU !
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Janice_2001 | Re:, 04-09-03 10:50am What I thought was a good thing. I called Chris at 11:00 and I told Him I loved him. I mean everything he said and if he lost me he would die..well, he won't be losing me anytime soon. I am with the one i love and if i ever need anyone to talk to I will come to you.. |
wildthing | Re: Re:, 04-09-03 2:47pm lol yeah your right he would die lol well n e ways at least you and i know that you can go to me and if there is ever a problem well c ya later |
Janice_2001 | Re: Re: Re:, 04-09-03 9:52pm Thanks for being there for me..I love ya so much you are the only one I can talk to..ya know I love you like a sis. if I made that mistake to go with Mike I would cry after doing that. |
wildthing | Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-10-03 2:42am yeah i know and i dont know the kid so i pry would to!! lol well n e ways yeah we are sisters pretty much so love ya g2g byes |