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lil_bill06 (profile) wrote,
on 4-23-2003 at 6:14pm
Current mood: left out
Music: don't give a shit
So I finally get to update, I've been really busy with school and softball, and Bill too. I have no time to do anything really important. Like just spend alone time by myself. Or hang out with my only friends (nikki and erin.) And I haven't been able to talk on the phone much either because my mom put me and a twenty minute time limit per an hour.
I feel like shit. Everything has been going wrong. It seems like Bill is pissed at me, I can't raise my grades, I suck at softball, I can't say anything right. I hate me I hate my life. I hate this world. I want so bad to give up but I have one person holding me bad. Thats it ONE damn person, but I love that person with all my heart. I really don't know what to do. If any of you have any advise for me then leave a comment.
I want to be alone. I mean completely ALONE. Just for one day. Thats all I ask. I want to be able to stay at home doing whatever I want to and not have to worry about getting in trouble for breaking anything or screwing up with anything. I want to stay all by myself with all the food that I want. To be able to talk to whoever I want, To just run around naked or something. I want to kill myself.
I hate my life. I hate this cruel cruel world. I can't take it anymore. Well that's it for now.
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jim9nin

04-23-03 7:50pm

Katie im not mad at you and if you want me to get off your case just tell me.

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Anonymous

Re:, 04-23-03 9:24pm

i think she just said to leave her alone, dipshit!!

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jim9nin

Re: Re:, 04-25-03 8:48pm

and who in the bloody hell r u??

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unwanted

04-23-03 9:57pm

i'm here if you want to talk to someone, kade. i hope things turn out okay. more people love you than you expect. <3

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Atman

04-23-03 10:04pm

Aw man...suicide isn't right.

Running around naked would probably be excepted at our school. So, if you really wanted to do that, go ahead.

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lil_bill06

Re:, 04-25-03 2:50pm

suicide is right for me. I don't give a damn. I want out.

I don't think that i would have the guts to run around naked.

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jim9nin

Re: Re:, 04-25-03 8:51pm

Kate just remember that i'll love you always(unless you do something) and i'll always be here for you to lean on. LOVE YOU

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