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| rachel (profile) wrote, on 4-25-2003 at 5:02pm | |
| Current mood: creative Music: my microwave Subject: you're just a dream.... |
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| gah! bacon is so unruly.... i cannot for the life of me make it w/o it being burnt/shriveled up. today was okay.. ashley and andrea are kinda in a fight type thing.. we all knew it would happen, it was just a matter of time. and i dunno.. part of me says too bad.. she deserves it. but then the other part feels bad for her.. because i know what that feels like. so ive decided to try and be friendlier to her because she was my friend way back when, and i am a better person than to just say "i told you so". ive started to write alot.. in my journal and i write poems n stuff.. it really helps he to sort out my thoughts and get them out somewhere so im not thinking about it so much. (thanks celine) oh yea she bitched at me in math... i wasnt even talking to her when i sed it but she was pissed for whatever reason and then sameen too cause he couldnt take a joke so i kinda mumbled to myself that now i have 2 ppl in my row pissed at me and she turned around and bitched me out.... uhh thanks? i understand that u were in a mood and that i might have instigated it but that wasnt quite necessary and a sorry would help. its all good though, i dont hold grudges over things like that... im starting to see why i tend to keep to myself... because when i do open up i am either judged or rejected.. and each time it gets harder and harder for me to want to take the risk of opening up to someone.. for fear of it happening again. today ive really learned what futility is... because even though you know that you will get hurt in a situation.. you cant help but get deeper into it. some people are just like a pill, you know what they can do to you but you'll risk that for a few moments of happiness. eh what the hell am i talking about. im gonna go eat |
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cabinetofcuriosities | 04-25-03 6:39pm i'm sorry!!!!!!! i am i didn't mean to but you were going paranoid. i didn't mean to snap but really stop jumping to conclusions like i do. it really makes you paranoid. uh. yeah i was in a horrible mood. kelso started it. if ya wanna know more just im me. i'd rather not post it cos i bet a lot of people who read this will be like heh yeah aint taht the truth ex. that chick that i hate. if you dont know who that is then really. lol. well see i told you so about the poems! it really does help! until you just cant think anymore and want to write but nothing's coming...ex today. sorry again. i was trying so hard to write a poem in bio to cool me off! :( i didn't succeed. guess who's in my bio class sides kelso. |