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Atman (profile) wrote,
on 5-4-2003 at 2:59pm
Current mood: aggravated
Music: GRD
Subject: damn
Another weekend wasted, doing nothing and finding nothing. I've done jack squat. Apparently there was a soccer game yesterday, that nobody except somebody that isn't in soccer told me about. I know longer care for soccer. I don't know what it is, but I find it stupid now. Maybe there is a practice today, but if there is I'm not showing. I've stopped caring about a bunch of other things too, but that one is currently the biggest bitch.

Yeah, I've also managed to beat myself up mentally again, even though my life isn't so bad...I don't know how I do that, but I manage.

I'm still thinking about other things too. Always thinking. Which sucks, because I still beat myself up. Apparently I don't need others to mock me, because I can do it myself.

So, indeed, another shitty weekend...hey, lets follow it up with a bad week too. Then we can have another bad weekend and go through my cycle of hell.
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spud

05-04-03 5:48pm

dude.

you can't do this. being shitty is my job.

in any case. don't beat yourself up about stupid shit. it won't appease anything. so. you missed nothing yesterday. only a 4-0 win and my first goal in years. you cock bastard.

but of course, i'm just kidding.

just promise me you'll have fun this week. but you can't make it fun. you just have to let the fun happen. and it will.

i wasn't planning on having any fun with that track meet last thursday, and that was the best time i'd had in a good long while.

things will come around again man. all in good time.

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spinder

05-06-03 9:02pm

well, being the king of mentaly beating myself up for crap i invent in my head, i have this to say to you...
...............
...... hmm.... ....
................. uh..... well....... ill think of something later. Probably something stupid that is funny while still calling myself fat/lazy/disgrace to society/way worse than you- etc.

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