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| rockon14 (profile) wrote, on 6-17-2002 at 6:13pm | |
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| I\'ve been meaning to write about this for a while, but for some crazy reason it just kept on getting looked over. For about two weeks now i\'ve been taking voice lessons. For as long as I can remember all i have ever wanted to do is perform. Now i\'m not talking about like Brittany Spears perform (shoot me if i ever say that, ever) not even like play my guitar and sing. what i have always wanted to do is musical theater. the one problem that i have always had was that i\'ve never thought that was voice was very strong or very good for that matter. i\'ve been told in chorus that i need to sing louder because no one can hear me and i\'ve been told by my parents that i sound like a dying cat when i sing (part of the reason why i\'m so quiet in chorus.) so i started the voice lessons with the hope that somehow this lady would be able to give me a whole new voice. well, she\'s just amazing. at our last session i was singing, as usual and she just stops me and says, \"I feel like your holding back. You have such a wide high range and such a powerfull voice but you hold yourself back.\" i was thinking \"is she talking about me?\" i don\'t know what it was but that just gave me such a boost of confidence. i just feel so happy all of the sudden. it\'s like even if my step-mom insulted my voice for the rest of my life it wouldn\'t bother me. i just...i can\'t put into words how i feel. now i\'m going to compleltly change the subject. i went to north carolina to see my grandparents yesterday. i got to pull out my grandfather\'s really expensive Martin guitar and play it. i love that thing, it had such a great sound. my grandfather is soooo talented. i just hope i\'m half as talented as he is someday. well i would have really enjoyed our little music frolic, if it weren\'t for my step-mom once again. she was in the other room telling my grandmother all this crap about me. she was telling her how i was so selfish and stuck up and how the rest of the family says i\'m going to be a failure in life. and then she proceded to tell her about the big fight we got into. by doing all this, she simply proved the point of what a hipocrate she is, because when we had fought that day, the said that the whole reason i had pissed her off was because i had told al what happened and that i should not share our family affairs with anyone. i asked her if she ever told anyone what happened within our house and she said no. that just really pisses me off. at least i never said that i would stop talking about what happened in our house because i know that anytime we get into a fight one of the first things that i will do is call al and tell her all about it. at least i know that i\'m right now. it\'s sort of satisfying. i really wanted to say something to her so i could just shove her own wrong ways in her face, but i\'m going to be the bigger person and just be happy with knowing that i\'m right and not causeing a big argument over it. the one bad part is that now my family thinks all these bad things about me thanks to her, but i can\'t really do anything about what they think so i\'m not going to let it bother me. well, if my family is going to think that i\'m no good, at least i have awsome friends and i know that they will always be there for me. okay, well, that\'s all i have to say for right now. bye bye |
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mystickittie | 06-17-02 9:54pm Never give up on singing. I have the dream of being a singer too. I was a very quiet singer because I held back and didn't let it all out. My high school wanted me to sing for this years graduation, so naturally, i said yes. I decided to sing a duet with another girl, but she was way better than me and louder too. she and her mother got me singing louder and I learned not to hold back. i used to sing with my falsetto voice but now I sing with my normal talking voice. I learned to sing like that 2 weeks before the performance. Obvously it sounded great because my best friend and my mother were both crying and covered in goosebumps by the time I got done.
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HipHulaGirl | Geez Bekie..., 06-18-02 12:41am Bekie if you were bad at singing, Crossman wouldn't have put you where she did. Don't let the rents get you down on anything like that. I get it all the time over here. All that about how I'll never amount to anything with my dreams, and how i'll always be a failure... I get it EVERYDAY... just ask Al. Anyway the point is, you are Bekie... you can do anything, and don't take any crap from anyone. Rock on with yo bad self! |