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| silversoldier (profile) wrote, on 5-9-2003 at 10:31pm | |
| Current mood: do I have to have a mood? Can't it just be "nickis Music: "Deadwood"-Garbage Subject: MANIC depression... |
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| I seriously hate recitals... but of course, one of these days I must have a perfect perfomance (wonder how long I've gotta live for that)... yes, well the real point to this entry... I STILL don't know what to do about schylar... because all of the crap that I signed up to do for the end of the year (I'm a feckin eejit) I have to put off things for a while. This week it was the recital that was important... Next week is the NJHS stuff that I'm doing about 20 things for.... so I want to just say no to her, but I know it's going to hurt... but now that I figure she may be reading this, I guess it doesn't matter.... Just things about life that I can't love her... It doesn't have to do with my rep. seriously. Just things that don't feel right about it.... hm... and now I have 2 (and most likely soon to be more) teachers on my back because my grades are dropping a bit.... hmm.... i finally started a fecking social life, and now I'm not allowed to have it because my damn fecking grades can't keep up. Suprized the parents don't notice this sort of connection, but no, I'm just *secretly rebelling*... Fuck it... i've got things to do... like die... so we'll see how things turn out... Ah yes, "Deadwood" has a great deal of relation to what I'm feeling right now.... (note, that's what I put in the music box; what I feel at the moment relates) so bye now... why do I say bye? I'm writing this for myself.... oh, society must have their ways... grr.... |
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| Anonymous | there r so many things that i could say but i wont because it just wouldnt be rght, 05-10-03 6:15pm yes Nick,I do read these.Well,at least now I know.I really dont understand u,oh well though.No,not oh well,but I guess life goes on.......maybe |
Anonymous | Re: there r so many things that i could say but i wont because it just wouldnt be rght, 05-10-03 6:25pm I guess im one of those peices that belong in your' dumpster. |
Jessika | god damn u im bored!!, 05-14-03 11:27pm update ur journal! i need sumtin to read! neither of u 3 have updated ur journal in a few days. i spose i kood update mine too tho.... |