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| Viper15 (profile) wrote, on 5-11-2003 at 12:02pm | |
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| I dont know why but today i am extremely depressed, and i dont know why. this week has been pretty good, but all the sudden its started to suck royaly. i had a talk with ari, she seems to be rubbing it in my face that shes turning into a slut. It is starting to hurt again, there was this girl i liked a while back, ive had feeling for her for a while now, but i never felt there was anything back, she was a great friend and a big help to me, all the things friends are, but beyond that i dont think there was anything. Well a while back i had found out she got a bf, i was thinking well thats good for her, but after a while, i see her with him, and i dont know what comes over me, sometimes id just like to walk away, out of her life forever, forget all the pain, just walk away. But it doesnt work like that, i cant just walk away, so now i have to learn to live with the pain. Don't anyone jump to conclusions of who it is, only 3 people know, i dont think anyone else could have a single clue twards who it is. Im falling into this groove again, i feel i need someone to share my life with, im not just feeling well a gf would be cool, its taking over to much of my life. I have to stop because i know that i dont need anyone, it would be nice but i can do without. but the feeling are still there, and i dont know if there going to go away.... -pain sucks- |
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Angel_Bob | 05-11-03 3:46pm I felt the same way last year. |
| starstruck | 05-11-03 7:39pm Hey cmon hun you'll pull through. I've gone thru most of my life feeling that way. I know how hard it is to know sumthin in your head and have your heart pull the exact opposite way. You gotta move on from her as much as it hurts. You never know what will happen, but if you don't prepare for anything, you won't be overly disappointed should you not get a pleasant surprise. This is far from the best of advice you should be getting, but go for another girl. There will be others that you fall for, and when you do, at least you won't be hurting so much over this one. Its a quick fix I know, but its worked quite well for me and I feel like I'm alright alone again. |
Viper15 | Re:, 05-11-03 9:32pm yeah, but Esther, you know what this one has dont for me dont you, its ganna be really hard after being through that. its just hard to let go, but i know that its what i have to do, thank you, thank you both |
| ende | Re: Re:, 05-11-03 11:25pm sweetie, i know it's hard for you. and i'm really sorry it is.
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| Lavitz1985 | Re: Re: Re:, 05-12-03 10:29am Ben... I know it hurts right now, I know how that feels. I went thru it for a long time, remember. Just Saturday, I was so afraid I was going to lose Rachel... and I cried about it. Trust me, you think it's bad now, wait till you get a girl, find out how good it is to be loved, and then think you're about to lose them. It will rip your heart out of your chest and stomp it flat. As to what you should do... Quit talking to Ari for one. She's only hurting you now. I don't know what else to say for now. Maybe we should try to find someone to hook you up on a blind date with. That could help... or it could make it worse. |
| starstruck | 05-12-03 11:04am Of course I know what she's done for you! Pretty much what I failed to do since I was too stupid to even realize there was anything wrong until you told me. Remember how I told you what you have to decide...By this time, and as from what Kristy said, I suggest not saying anything. I don't think it would change anything, but still, treasure the great friendship you two share. I have a question..Who's Ari? Ben, if she is hurting you, please avoid her for a while. Blind dates can be cool...Scary, but still cool. Ray, if you actually have sumthin in mind, go for it! I wanna see Ben happy as soon as possible, and I trust that you'll only help him. But one other thing, you're nowhere close to losing Rachel, and you DO NOT know how it feels.
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Viper15 | Re:, 05-12-03 8:13pm hey, im all for trying a blind date, but guys, dont get a girl thats ganna be all about looks, as u know im not all that handsome lol, but yeah im willing to try it |