YOU'LL FIGURE IT OUT

YOU'LL FIGURE IT OUT

:: 2004 14 June :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Camile Velasco - Until You Come Back To Me

Opinions
I hate it when I have something all planned out to say something when someone were to stump me in that certain situation, but then when the situation comes up I can't remember how to say it. How do you try to make someone believe in Christianity when they believe that religion is all one big joke. Or when they just refuse to believe in God - even if it was a known fact, just because of what image would be placed upon them.
It's just so hard to talk about without offending someone because they have different opinions. When you believe something, to someone else you are just wrong! I wish there were only facts. I wish everyone would just agree.

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girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 14 June :: 1.35am

"man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has, but Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreampt at all..."
well there were good nights, and there were bad. i guess theres really nothing to do but keep praying and hoping. one day hopefully things will turn out right. maybe someday i will be happy....

i will stay i will stay i will stay...

shannonw55

:: 2004 11 June :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: Usher - Throwback

Woot woot!
Well.. This is just exciting. :D

Either somebody sent in two bucks for me or Andy was just nice enough not to delete my journal. But now I feel bad.. Since I didn't have any money I already made a journal at livejournal and one at Xanga for Sam- lol to figure which one would be the best and stuff. So.... what I think I'll do is just write down my personal thoughts and stuff down here.. right? yeah. I think so. Yeah. I don't think anyone is reading this anymore. HEY TYLER! SHOUTOUT! .. hehe... yeah. he's about it. and possibly Stef. and a smidge of a chance Jess. Well thanx to whoever did something nice to keep my journal. I was distraught when I found out it was being deleted. In fact I like printed out a buncha entries lol. Ya know, what I really like about Woohu, is that it's soooo easy to do everything on it. You don't have to search, or go through millions of steps to edit ur entry, or profile or whatever. It's all on the side. and you can change how it looks without having to pay big bucks. Unlike Xanga, you can use html in the entries. I do love Woohu. It's got a cooler name than livejournal too.. lol. So.. I will write in here later I do suppose.. Comment if ur readin this I guess. :)
Toodle-oo

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girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 10 June :: 11.13am

for a moment all the world was right...

what do i do wrong?

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 10 June :: 12.42am

well i should have known not to get my hopes up. it was just one of those things that only happens once. i thought it was my big second chance, but i'm not so sure. things aren't working out right. but still i love him. this only made it stronger. i just really want to ask him... are we ever going to be more than "just friends"?

and i hope he says yes.

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 9 June :: 3.19pm

you are my only one...
last night was the best night ever. it was fun and amazing and so much fun. i just can't even describe it. the only thing that could have made it better is if andrew had talked a little more. he is so quiet... which isn't a bad thing at all. i will be infinitely happy if we can even just be friends.

wow...

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 8 June :: 12.34am

i don't really know what to do. just listen to the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder who exactly you are driving around with on this monday night. hopefully its shane... but sometimes i doubt it. i've never felt this down... and i don't really know how to make things good again. all i want is for you to like me, even if just as a friend... and we can talk, and hang out, and even play some golf. i don't care... anything. maybe i'm just lonely... or maybe i am completely and utterly in love. i don't know... and maybe i never will... because i had my chance, and as much as i would give for just one more... i don't think i am ever going to get that. .. ...

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 7 June :: 12.27am

"look at me, my depth perception must be off again, cause this hurts deeper than i thought it did..."

i try and i try, but i still can't stop thinking of you....

"could you find it your heart to make this go away and let me rest in pieces?"

i miss you, and i knew i never should have thought i had a chance... but i liked you since the day i met you... since that day we can't even remember...

"look at me, my depth perception must be off again, you got much closer than i thought you did..."

i just want this feeling that ensues every time i see you to go away... i want you to like me or i want you to go away.. and let me rest in pieces.

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 6 June :: 1.45am

can you die from a broken heart?

if it would stop this pain i would right now...

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 5 June :: 2.05am

i don't know much... like how things are going to turn out and such... but i do know some things... and one of them is that i don't like this at all. i don't like the way things feel around here, and i guess i never really did. maybe i was looking for a friend, a love, an escape... and you know... maybe i had found it... but if it was love... its over now... i hate the way some things and people change, but i guess change is the only way things keep going. i knew that 21 changes everything, it did with everyone else, why did i think it wouldn't be the same this time. i guess i never really did think it would work out. too good to be true... that sums it up right there. i was always used to friday nights alone at home... but these saturdays that keep coming without feeling are killing me inside. so, i hate to say it, but i know its true... i miss you andrew... and i wish i could just say that much... but i know you wouldn't understand, because it wasn't much that you gave me, just by being there, but to me it was everything. and i honestly would give up everything i have and ever will have to be with you again, just doing nothing like we always seemed to do. because those were the best nights of my life.

girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 4 June :: 1.12am

i guess kaylle was right...

hearts are broken every day.

mle

:: 2004 3 June :: 6.25pm

. silliness that made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside .
i can't help that i love lucass and i'm going to miss him ridiculously next year.

oh hear you me: i dont think u need to chill out
mle3 102: really?
oh hear you me: i think ur unbelievable drive to always do better is one of your better traits
mle3 102: why thank you, lucass.
mle3 102: no one has ever told me it was a good thing before.
mle3 102: mr young called me obsessive-compulsive today for it lol
oh hear you me: it can lead to stress and stuff, but at its core its a great gift u have
oh hear you me: plus ur so hawt
mle3 102: haha.
mle3 102: yea, that's the best gift i have
mle3 102: except not at all lol
oh hear you me: na ur pretty

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girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 1 June :: 12.57am

love is hell
he's changed i think... i don't know... something about him is different. i don't know... i can't explain it. he's not the same. he was amazing and now he is not the same. i just want my same old wonderful andrew back...

plainmornings

:: 2004 31 May :: 2.58pm

its funny how time and time again everything repeats itself.

i leave August 17th.

i still feel as if there are some holes that need patching up. things shouldn't ever be left this long unresolved... really, thats how you lose the people that you care about the most.

to end an old life, to start a new.

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girlxunnoticd

:: 2004 30 May :: 11.02pm

all the parties are over and the congratulations have all been said. it was nothing special... maybe something to take my mind off things... but it didn't work well. maybe i should have gone on friday night, or maybe i didn't for a reason... i don't even know. i don't even know anything as usual... except for that i miss andrew for some reason. i just miss talking to him and seeing him. again i'd give anything in the world for one more saturday night like then.