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2003 31 December :: 10.07am
:: Mood: . none .
:: Music: . hoobastank . out of control .
hahaha. i cant believe im filling this out
epitome of wasted-time loser-ness
PT. I
1) Using band names, spell out your name
e (eazy e)
m (mad at gravity)
i (incubus)
l (lenny kravitz)
y (yellowcard)
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?: steffan wrote one for all of his friends a few years ago. lucass wrote a ton about me but ive only heard a few.
3) What song makes you cry?: most of them.
i think . simple plan . perfect . AND . good charlotte . hold on . make everyone cry, even if its only mentally.
4) What song makes you happy?: . hot hot heat . talk to me, dance with me . or anything techno
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?: silence
PT. II
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5 2
AGE: 17
HAIR COLOR: currently chocolate brown w/ faded reddish and my natural blonde-ness popping through. i need to re-dye it back to blackish brown very badly.
SKIN COLOR: winter = pale
EYE COLOR: blue
PIERCINGS: ears twice, cartilage, belly button
TATTOOS: no thanks
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: blue fuzzy pj pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: . brand new . sic transit gloria .
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: oatmeal with a hint of the soymilk in it
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: all i know is no snow. therefore, its not worthwhile to go outside.
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: i plead the 5th
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yea. but its always nice to have marcus drive me home at night. the whole falling-asleep-while-driving thing has freaked me out. (plus then i get to see the best view of downtown GR as we drive through the s-curve on 131 north)
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: trading spaces/what not to wear. i am a TLC junkie
CONDITIONER: amplify
BOOK: the things they carried by tim o'brien. best fucking summer reading *ever*. totally reaffirms why vietnam (and war in general) is so horrendous.
MAGAZINE: B&W (black and white fine photography)
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: diet coke
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: sprite/smirnoff raspberry twist. but shots of bacardi limon or a nice deucer are also high up there.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: wander downtown. coffee lounges (yes, even the gay ones), purple east/little bohemia, thrift shops, ice skating. <3 downtown GR
BAND/GROUP or SINGER: lots. im a fan of pop-punk, alternative/mainstream, techno
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: si
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: touchy subject
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: lots. but not since i got busted...
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: haha. yea i was a silly little girl when i was a kid
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: revoltingly disgusting. however, hilarious when johnny knoxville did it.
USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: every day. saving my stash for beer cups at MSU next year. (lol)
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yea, but only a few classes at a time.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: no. kinda hard to fall asleep while standing, dont you think?
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: in grade school
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yup, thats what its good for.
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: yes, sir.
GIRLFRIEND: no
CHILDREN: i have 70ish of them... in my gymnastics classes lol.
CURRENT CRUSH: the lead singer from justincase. sooo too cute. hahaha. but johnny rzeznik (goo goo dolls) will always be my true love.
BEEN IN LOVE?: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: uh, the name brad comes to mind. lol.
BEEN HURT?: obviously
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: being myself
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: umm.. brad told me he loved me the first time we hung out. intoxication makes ppl insane. i think we became official like a week later ?
HAVE YOU EVER GIVEN/RECEIVED ORAL SEX: umm... yea, maybe you should have asked this question when i was 11 and could still answer negative lol.
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yup. ive worked for GR parks and recreation as gymnastics lead instructor/lifeguard since april 2001. great schedule, awesome pay, never see a boss/supervisor during the school year. yayness :)
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: car = no doubt - the singles. room = thrice - the artist in the ambulance, 19 wheels - jawbreaker, linkin park - meteora.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: emo black. with a hot pink swirl down the middle :)
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: productivity/control, perfection, dancing, peppermint patty (mint/mocha espresso drink from Discussions), live music/mosh pits, racey yet sophisticated fashion, people watching, natural views that make your jaw drop, sunshine on your face and wind through your hair, crude humor, followed by "oh my god, that is so awful"
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: marcus. stuss, m.lo and l.jo also rock my world.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: im fixing to burn another techno cd :) or maybe trapt
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: in all honesty... only marcus.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: what the hell kind of question is that?
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: last night when gerald and my mom threw out my turtle hash pipe from spain.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: except for stupid junk mail... was that week in early december when i found out my grant to make West Catholic's lab laptops wireless was accepted, got my acceptance letter into MSU's honors college, got my new ACT score of 32, and UofM's letter saying they lost my ACT score and transcript (fucking failures at life lol). that was a good week.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: i get like 45 junk mails a day, and about 4 actual ones... from the haiti committe at church, delia's, etc. no one writes personal ones to me. ever.
THING YOU PURCHASED: uh, went up to meijer's last night... got stuff like VO5 hot oil for my hair, crest whitestrips, mascara, picture reprints, storage bins, etc.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: 100 sexiest rock stars on VH1 for like 4 minutes. after being so disgusted that gavin rossdale was only 74 or something like that, i turned it off.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: mona lisa smile. amazingly good movie. yay for progressives :)
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: homocide. i devote a huge chunk of my life as a pro-life activist. lol im actually wearing a rock for life shirt right now.
TEENAGE SMOKING: horrible for you, but sometimes you just need a smoke.
SPICE GIRLS: hahaha.
DREAMS: i admit - im a hopeless dreamer.
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2003 30 December :: 4.00pm
being 18 rocks.
i'm slowly becoming addicted to scratch off lotto tickets. Poor, Very Poor.
been working like cray-z but gregory works con me so its all gravy.
saw mona lisa smile, i liked much. saw elf con sr. Selinsky, that was fun.
still have 80bazillion people to see and soooo little time :0(
Ms. Jennifer slept over last night, we talked till almost 5 (and i work up at like 2)
ummmm saw my favorite Soy guy & talked Vonnegut (whitney i have to show you the post)
ummmm saw Big Ben & his crazy MIT friends.
Dennys for some raw chicken.
leaving on Jan 1st sooooooo everyone has to hang out before then!
oh yeah... heidi, alex & dom came to visit yesterday <3
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2003 30 December :: 1.00am
"hold on love" rocks my world. so does andrew.. dare i say. why the fuck are so many people online tonight. i'm out.
love always and rock out.
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2003 26 December :: 3.47pm
i'd like for things to be easy again... unconfusing... but, things change. i thought maybe a simple new year would be just the thing for me, but now with leslie trekking to louisiana, i find myself with nothing to do but head out to that party of dennis'. i know the traditions, and i know what will go down there, but i need some social interaction. so i've planned an escape i suppose. i'll be gone before midnight. gone before the resolutions and goodnight kisses. gone before anything bad can commence. but still i'm afraid. its been a month, a month since the last time i've seen him. he wished me a merry christmas and all those feelings came back, so i don't know if i can handle wild country tonight... and i don't know if i can handle that new years eve party. i don't know what i will be able to handle. and its getting close to the time when i will have to make my decision whether to leave or not. so i guess this could greatly influence my decision. i don't know anymore... if i ever did.
anyway... i'm tired and have to endure hell this afternoon and early evening so i will depart.
<3 always and keep rockin..
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2003 25 December :: 12.36am
well i guess that all there is left to say tonight is... Merry Christmas to all, and to all a goodnight.
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mle
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2003 23 December :: 5.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: . revis . seven .
. pulling off petals from a flower .
alone
with marcus
alone
with marcus
alone
with marcus
alone
alone
alone
lonely
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2003 23 December :: 1.04am
i don't know whether i'm just lonely or if i'm still in love...
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2003 20 December :: 5.54pm
:: Mood: guilty
:: Music: Jewel-Foolish Games
I think I've come to realize that those times when I need God most in my life I turn off my Christian radio station or refuse to pray. I get scared. It hurts too bad because I know that I've done something wrong or I feel hopeless. But its so hard to tell myself that God is still going to listen to me. and if I talk to Him about it he will still understand although we will both know its wrong.
I know I shouldn't feel helpless or hopeless. It can change soon. It will be ok.
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2003 20 December :: 1.01pm
thank you to everyone who made my birthday wonderful <3<3<3
can't believe i'm 18!!
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2003 18 December :: 5.35pm
i guess its not so bad...
all i need is a pint or 2 and a shoulder to cry on. my best friend comes home tomorrow. i can't wait to catch up. this christmas is gonna be great... i hope. can't wait to party it up and just have a good time. and nothing matters anymore...
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2003 17 December :: 3.53pm
this is because i can spell confusion with a k and i can like it, its to dying in anothers arms and why i had to try it... its to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car where the first star you see might not be a star, i'm not your star...
its... over.
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2003 16 December :: 8.48pm
:: Music: hannah hold on - the get up kids
i never witnessed bitter like this, i think i was shot in cold blood
thank god it will be holiday in 3 days. i can finally sort through my feelings and why i can't seem to sleep a night without dreaming of him. leslie is right... he is not the same person i fell for 2 years ago... but i know in him somewhere that person still is... and i feel as if i wasted 2 years waiting for him all to find that he no longer exists. i don't want to feel this heartache any longer, but it won't go away. and i know healing takes time... i never thought i'd get over eric, but that didn't take long. this is just so much more than that was... this is everything... was everything. and to have such friends and such hope was wonderful, and now that it is all gone, i feel so empty.. so hopeless. nothing feels like it will ever be right again...
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2003 15 December :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: . josh groban . you lift me up .
my two cents on saddam
why i feel bad for the fallen dictator...
discussion between benny hawkins and i:
BENNY: why do you feel bad for him? i kinda do too
MLE:its just a degrading, prideless way to live - in a hole, with lice, no toilet.. i feel awful for that man because so many people in the world blindly hate him.. only because everyone else does. in all honesty, i dont know the horrible things he has done. therefore i cannot hate him. i believe every person deserves dignity and respect, and bush was the biggest cocky bastard to him, showing not even an ounce of respect. if our leader cannot be even the slightest bit compassionate, how can our nation?
BENNY: *tear* thats beautiful... youre so nice, emily
we are called to love our enemies.
i can only pray that saddam will be allowed a fair trial, resulting in his due punishment.
the death penalty is never a justifiable conclusion
mle
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2003 14 December :: 3.46pm
:: Music: "displaced" - azure ray
its sort of strange... all i used to want.. all i used to think i needed... is gone.
it does sadden me that no one calls to ask me to do anything... but then again, the only reason i want to go over to dennis' is to retrieve my camera. i don't honestly feel attached to any of the people that i used to feel so strongly for. i'm through with trying to impress them and be someone i'm not. i don't know why it took me 2 years to realize that none of these people are worth giving up being myself.
well, <3 always and keep rockin'!
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2003 13 December :: 8.21pm
Sometimes i wish i wasn't so fucking curious. I'd be so much more happy.
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