You've Already Labeled Me

I am: A little bit of loneliness, A little bit of disregard. A handful of complaints, But I can't help the fact... That everyone can see these scars. I am: What I want you to want, What I want you to feel. But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you... To just believe this is real. So I: Let go, watching you. Turn your back like you always do. Face away and pretend that I'm not, But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got. I can't feel... The way I did before. Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored. Time won't take, This damage anymore. Don't turn your back on me... I won't be ignored. I am: A little bit insecure, A little unconfident. 'Cause you don't understand- I do what I can. But sometimes I don't make sense. I am: What you never want to say, But I've never had a doubt. It's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you... For once just to hear me out. So I: Let go, watching you. Turn your back like you always do. Face away and pretend that I'm not, But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got. I can't feel... The way I did before. Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored. Time won't take, This damage anymore. Don't turn your back on me... I won't be ignored. NOW! Hear me out NOW! You're gonna listen to me, like it or not. Right NOW! Hear me out NOW! You're going to listen to me, like it or not. Right now... I can't feel, The way I did before.. Don't turn your back on me... I won't be IGNORED I can't feel... The way I did before. Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored. Time won't take, This damage anymore. Don't turn your back on me... I won't be ignored.   home | profile | guestbook Bow down before the one you serve You're gonna get what you deserve recent entries | past entries acidtears :: 2010 6 January :: 7.08am :: Mood: cranky Early. Well, it's early, and I didn't sleep very well last night. I slept in the recliner. Talk about uncomfortable. But my plan for today is to call my doctor's office, check out the results of my ultrasound, and make another appointment. I am so happy to have this routine back. Doug back to work, Kids back to school. No one here to bother me, yell, scream, fight, whine, or nag. So, that's good. Luckily my pain level has gone down a bit, I can now stand up straight. I'm not all hunched over like some old woman. Still can't lift anything heavy, or stretch. I miss stretching in the morning, it's nice. But it hurts too much, so I don't dare do it. But most of the pain is now in my left side, and its the exact same pain I get everytime a new cyst appears, or bursts, or both at the same time. Ugh. But I better go wake Ava up for school. Bye. -Samm Rip it Away acidtears :: 2010 3 January :: 8.36pm :: Mood: content :: Music: "Say(All I need)" By: One Republic djfsmgnsdjkfgjsilagk! I love you facebook, but if you don't stop being a bitch, you're gonna die. 1 Stole It | Rip it Away acidtears :: 2009 22 December :: 7.56am :: Mood: bored :: Music: "Sometime around midnight" By: The Airborne Toxic Event And it starts... Sometime around midnight Or at least that's when You lose yourself For a minute or two As you stand... Under the barlights And the band plays some song About forgetting yourself for a while And the piano's this melancholy soundtrack To her smile And that white dress she's wearing You haven't seen her For a while But you know... That she's watching She's laughing, she's turning She's holding her tonic like a cross The room suddenly spinning She walks up and asks how you are So you can smell her perfume You can see her lying naked in your arms And so there's a change... In your emotions And all of these memories come rushing Like feral waves to your mind Of the curl of your bodies Like two perfect circles entwined And you feel hopeless, and homeless And lost in the haze Of the wine And she leaves... With someone you don't know But she makes sure you saw her She looks right at you and bolts As she walks out the door Your blood boiling Your stomach in ropes And when your friends say what is it You look like you've seen a ghost And you walk... Under the streetlights And you're too drunk to notice That everyone is staring at you And you so care what you look like The world is falling Around you You just have to see her You just have to see her You just have to see her You just have to see her You just have to see her And you know that she'll break you In two Rip it Away acidtears :: 2009 18 December :: 10.09am :: Mood: calm Yeah! We finally have our internet turned back on, and a new number and all that comes with it. So, that's good. Today though, not much internet time, I have lots of cleaning to get done. People from Amway who adopted our family for Chrsitmas are coming over to drop off food and christmas presents. So this house has to be spotless. Better go get started. Bye. Rip it Away acidtears :: 2009 8 November :: 11.07pm :: Mood: content You can block comments? Me too. How do I start this? This is not the first time you have blown me off. I stand by, making sure I do not have plans, for YOU. I make sure I don't leave the house because YOU are supposed to be coming over. Fuck that, I'm done. Everyone knows that it's just common courtesy to call and say "Hey, I can't make it" or at least answer a goddamn phone call. This has happened so much, it's ridiculous. This is the reason you have to fill your life with new voices, memories, and laughs. Because the old ones are sick and tired of your shit. I'm stepping up and finally saying what I have been thinking for quite some time now. No more defending you, No more keeping your secrets, No more pretending I think it's okay that you sleep with a new guy every other week. DONE. I don't care if you don't answer your phone, because I won't be calling anymore. And if you call me, expect the same thing. I'm tired of your bullshit. Which is why I won't be answering my phone. Rip it Away Woohu.com | Random Journal