You've Already Labeled Me

I am:
A little bit of loneliness,
A little bit of disregard.
A handful of complaints,
But I can't help the fact...
That everyone can see these scars.

I am:
What I want you to want,
What I want you to feel.
But it's like no matter what I do,
I can't convince you...
To just believe this is real.

So I:
Let go, watching you.
Turn your back like you always do.
Face away and pretend that I'm not,
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got.

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.

I am:
A little bit insecure,
A little unconfident.
'Cause you don't understand-
I do what I can.
But sometimes I don't make sense.

I am:
What you never want to say,
But I've never had a doubt.
It's like no matter what I do,
I can't convince you...
For once just to hear me out.

So I:
Let go, watching you.
Turn your back like you always do.
Face away and pretend that I'm not,
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got.

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.

NOW!
Hear me out NOW!
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not.
Right NOW!
Hear me out NOW!
You're going to listen to me, like it or not.
Right now...

I can't feel,
The way I did before..
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be IGNORED

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.


 

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acidtears

:: 2009 27 June :: 1.33am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: "Waking up in Vegas" By: Katy Perry

News
Well, only a couple people have heard aside from my mom and dad, but I have an announcement. Calm down, I'm not pregnant. Ready? Ok, I'll tell you. I'm going back to school to get my diploma this coming Fall. I am not going to the regular High School though. I hate that school, alot of the staff, and alot of the student body. I am going to CTA. Creative Technologies Academy. Well, we still have to enroll me in August and I hope I can go there, but if they accept me, then I will be happy. There is still that lazy part of me that doesn't want to wake up early in the morning, get dressed, walk to school, do boring work, then come home tired. But, I need an education to get anywhere in life, so I am taking action and going back to school. I have to keep my enthusiasm and effort up, because in the long run, going to school everyday is worth it. And I think that I just didn't realise that when I was staying home and skipping all the time. I need to buckle down, as my dad would say. I used to hate that expression and when he used it I wanted to punch him, but he's right. I need to graduate. So, I just figured I would let you guys know that I am going back to school. But, I have to go. Bye.

-Samm
Wish me luck!

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acidtears

:: 2009 21 June :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: "Wanted" By: Jessie James

Shopping, Surprise Anniversary party, and a cook out.
Well, this was a pretty good weekend. We got to my grandparent's house on Friday night, and just relaxed. Then Saturday morning I woke up at 7:30am, got dressed, ate a bowl of cereal, did my make up then took off with my Grandma. We went to Goodwill, Cato's, Dollar Tree, and Wal-Mart, all in Ionia. I got a couple shirts, A hippie necklace with a peace sign on it(made of wood and hemp), a bracelet, nail art, nail polish, cosmetic wedges, sun glasses(rockstar shades, let me tell you), and one of my alllll time favourite movies, un rated and special edition....."The Boondock Saints". Hells to the yes. So, I am extremely happy right now. I watched it today, and laughed my ass off. My favourite part is when they come down through the cieling, tanlged up in rope, and they kill the mob people, then the brother that bought the rope looks at his brother and mockingly says "What do you need your stupid fucking rope for huh?". HaHa. So, everything went well this weekend. And after shopping yesterday, we went to my Aunt Tina's for a surprise anniversary party for my Grandparents 40th wedding anniversary. And today for Father's Day, we just had my Aunt and Uncle over for a cook out. The only bad part about this weekend was I finished my book so I had nothing else to read, and my Pokemon game on my GameBoy froze up, so I had to start all over. But, today was good. And it ended with the best thing. Being held by Brendon and him giving me kisses. But, better go. Bye.

-Samm

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acidtears

:: 2009 18 June :: 1.10am
:: Mood: Adored
:: Music: "Wanted" By: Jessie James

Wow, this guy is....Amazing.
I can't believe the difference in mine and Brendon's relationship. I look at the times we've tried before, and it just amazes me that this time it's working out, very well I might add. We see each other everyday, we watch movies, play volleyball, other things no one should know about..HaHa. Then I also love that he gets along with ALL my siblings. That's usually pretty hard. Him and Dylan get along great. They play War games together, him and Brie laugh and talk in funny accents. Him and Tanna play ball and talk. And him and Ava play, talk, watch TV together, etc. He's a total sweet heart and I love everything about him. We don't fight or bring up topics we differ on just to annoy each other, we've grown up. I love spending time with him...soooo much. When I see him my heart beats faster, When he kisses me or just holds me I get butterflies in my stomach and it's always hard to contain my smiles when I'm around him. He makes me smile, laugh, feel amazing about myself and everything else. We could be in a war zone, but as long as his arms are around me and he's kissing me on the forehead, I wouldn't care. I'd be smiling. But, I have to go. Bye.

-Samm

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acidtears

:: 2009 1 June :: 2.26pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: none

one word: OMIGOD!!!

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acidtears

:: 2009 24 May :: 7.25am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: "Thinking of you" By: Katy Perry

It's early.
Well, today I am going with Kayliegh, Grandma, Dan, Chase, Derek, and a friend of Chase's choice on a "surprise vacation" thing. Kayliegh will probably be over around 10 to pick me up. I still have some packing to do, although I did most of it last night. I mostly have to just pack my pillows, a blanket, some clothes, and maybe some other things, I'm not sure.But, we'll be gone until late Tuesday. It should be fun. I don't know why, but I am feeling pretty sick to my stomach right now. I just feel like at any mintue I could throw up, nauseous. Or however you spell that. HaHa. I got to talk to Brendon for a couple minute last night, he said camping sucks without me. Well Brendon, you should have let me talk to Ryan directly so I could know the real time line of this camping trip. Unfortunately it wasn't from Saturday to Sunday, it was from Friday to Monday. Yeah, my mom was already having a hard enough time letting me go with boys over night, but 3 nights, no way in hell. So Brendon, your loss. HaHa. But, I better go. I have to switch over the laundry and pack some of my remaining things. Bye.

-Samm

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