:: 2006 2 October :: 8.35 pm

i can't take this anymore. i have to get away. i seriously can't just sit here anymore. and i dont totally and completely mean just getting out of this 3 hour long LEGL 101 class that i'm sitting in right now.

i mean i think i'm gonna go do something drastic..

you've been warned.

BIATCHES!

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 2 October :: 7.10 pm

im drifting so, so very far away from woohu.

i hate being too busy to do anything you actually want to do. if i keep living like this, i'll surely die soon.

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 25 September :: 8.52 pm

ughhhhhg i do not like to NOT get along with teachers but seriously it's like everything i say, or every question i answer, this teacher disagrees and they re-word it just a TAD BIT and say that THAT way is correct. no. sorry. that's what i just said. didnt you just hear me? i just wanna be like hello?! thats the answer i just gave! where were you? ugh it is pissing me off so bad. does anybody else have this problem?

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 25 September :: 7.18 pm

so it is true. lesson learned. dont trust anyone.

god dammit i am so pissed. due to a stupid person who i thought was okay to trust, i am getting a zero. that is ridiculous. i am so mad.

okay so ulitmetely it's my fault but i am still so angry.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 25 September :: 9.58 am

wwow wanna know what i hate?

when bitches lie to you and then ditch you AND THEN ARE TOTAL COWARDS AND CAN'T EVEN PICK UP THEIR DAMN PHONE. AND THEN WILL PROBABLY MAKE AN EXCUSE AS TO WHY THEY DID ALL THAT


PRAISE THE LAWDDDDD@!

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 23 September :: 12.57 pm

so something has been happening to me and i am allergic to something or something i dont know but my eyes feel like they are on fire and they are all red and itchy and UGLY. and right now i'm doing okay because i got some eye drops but they are so dry and ow they hurt and


i'm not doing that great right now. in fact i'm pretty angry. should i be? probably to some extent. ughghghghhg

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 21 September :: 2.58 pm

god i hate work so much. i hate the new menards. i miss the old people. i hate work so much, i skipped it yesterday. and if they ask me for an excuse i think i'll just shrug because i do not have one other than the fact that i hate it. but i dont know if i should look for another job or what.. it's realy good pay and i can usually get 40 + hours if i want them. (god this lady behind me, i'm at the library, will not stop fucking talking to her self .... shut up!) i sreiously think i contemplate skipping work every single day i am scheduled to go in. i hate it so much.

i have been trying to get switched into a dept but nobody needs more people and thy all just laugh when i say i hate being a cashier because "all cashiers wnat to be switched into a dept." seriously i hate it. i've htought about going back to waitressing but that is never sure money and i dont know if i want to go back to it because you have to be so nicde. i like working at menards only because if i'm mean, i dont lose my tip... .because i never had one .... you get it.

but yeah i really can't stand working there and i'm even changing my availabilty so i only have 4 available days to work instead of 5. how bad is that?! i mean, it will help with me being able to get school work done easier too but other than that im pretty much just doing it because i can get by without that extra day, i'm can pick up hours if need to because peolpe are always asking people to pick up shifts and most of all I HATE WORKING THERE!

i think maybe ij ust get like this with every job i have.... it's like after 6 months i cna't take anymore. waiiiiit a second, i worked at arbys for a whole year. ugh what am i doing.

i dont know what to do. i would love to work at a day care maybe or something... but i dont think i could get 8.20 and 10.60 on weekends. not many places can beat that.


blkaj;lkdfja;lskdfja;skjflakjsflkajs;fkjas;lkfj i have to leave for work in like 25 minutes. i hate menards so freaking much. i've worked there for over a month and still i dont feel like i know anyone there. nobody is like ...easy to approach. i think i'm scared of like all of them. ughghghgh they are dumb! and i hate it!

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 19 September :: 4.09 pm

so seriously, i have the best boyfriend in the world.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 18 September :: 10.09 am

i really hate stupid college girls.

just like i hated stupid high school girls.

god dont be in school if you're an idiot.

6 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 11 September :: 11.44 am

it's 9/11

and i just kind of wish i had been older when it happened because i really want to do soemthing....as
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and any way some people here (at college) are SO STUPID but i


yess

oh and i seriously love this new going out all the time lifestyle that roman and i have created.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 6 September :: 11.28 am

so i had my first class just a minute ago and the professor is really nice and funny. and it all seems okay. it just pisses me off that so many of these kids don't have jobs.

lazy asses. ugh

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 23 August :: 6.44 pm

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DOES SOMEONE WANT MY CAT

HIS NAME IS ELVIS . HE IS BEAUTIFUL AND FUN AND FULL OF LIFE AND WONDERFUL AND I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF HIM AT MY APARTMENT WITH WORKING AND SCHOOL AND I DONT WANT HIM TO BE TRAPPED IN AN APT. AND MY PARENTS DONT WANT HIM

PLEASE SOMEONE WHO WILL BE A GOOD KITTY PARENT.

PLEASE
2315809564 IF YOU WANT TO...

9 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 20 August :: 1.54 pm

okay so just a little update on my life

i wake up with roman
go to work
come home
do dishes, clean, maybe go for a run and get yelled at
make food
go to bed witih roman

never get on the internet

and go to the beach alot.

hooray

ookay so i went for a run the other day and this guy driving by yells at me "IF YOU DIDN'T EAT SO MUCH, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO JOG, BITCH!!!"

How fucking mean is that?

so then i cried and went home.
and i'll never run again (not really)

dickhead.

but in all seriousness, the thing that made me the most upset hearing that was that people can say stuff like that and honestly not feel bad.

take a look at yourself people. honestly.

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 20 August :: 1.34 pm

bomb! this is the first time since moving i've been able to use my lap top. i found wireless at the hojo (howard johnson) hotel on 28th street, about 5 minutes from my house so awesome... yay.

um anyway, i gotta do some stuff so just wanted to say, hello woohu. and now good day.

ps. life is pretty good.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 17 August :: 3.12 pm

sooooo wow.

i still dont have any internet at the apartment... haven't been able to steal anyone's wireless. so now i'm at the wyoming library. which by the way is so cute. it has a little water fall thingy in it. has anyone ever been here? it's so cool. it must be brand new. it even has a little cafe in it. ahh it's so cute. but my main reason for being here is using the internet.

ughhhh money is stupid. i'm getting mad over it even though i really am fine. but whatever.

anyway. i'm still alive. and that's it. that's all you get.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 10 August :: 2.15 pm

sooooo i'm at the davenport library right now. i haven't been able to update in a long time.

i had the photoshoot thing at davenport today, hence why i'm here. i also got lost on the way here since i was coming from 28th street. yeah, that wasn't fun because i was alreayd stressed enough about this. but it ended up being a nice time.

i haven't been able to update like i said, but i ended up moving in on tuesday. roman actually came tuesday too because of work crap and he was just able to take the day off. so that was nice because then i didn't have to lift all the heavy stuff.

living on your own is weird. its nice being with roman but unpacking was stressful and annoying. and i miss my mom. lol i had to call her yesterday because i missed her.

we are finally almost totally unpacked and our apartment is SO CUTE. we have stuff hung up and our cute walls painted. ahh it looks so nice. there are ducks that are outside our balcony in the pond every day and it's just so adorable. i love our decorations and it's just so cool.

we went grocery shopping yesterday.... we found out that we wll be shopping at ALDIS from now on. it's so cheap. and they have good cereal so yeah lol.

i think tonight we'll finally go down the trail by our house. it's so cute. and we haven't had time because i keep having to get up early for things... yesterday was my makeover thing and today was the photoshoot.

jess was supposed to come over last night but hmmm dont really know what happened with that.

but beans was so great and helpful and packed everything in to her car and then tuesday night came over and helped us bring it upstairs . thanks beans i love you!

so yeah... living by all the busy streets is nice exccept for the stoplights. it's nice being like 5 minutes from the mall.

blah blah blah..... so i got the lettinga scholarship which means i have free school here at davenport but the thing is, i also receieved the Buger King scholarship which i applied for a long time ago. soooooooooo then when we got the check in the mail , i t was made out to davenport and not me, sooooooooooooo i'm waiting here for a woman to talk to about how i'm gonna get that money. because if it goes to the school it's pertty much pointless because my school is free anyway.

they were telling me i oculd use it on my books but i already got all my books cheap online so i only have one more book i need to get so i'm doing that with my 1000 dollars.

grr.

anyway. i guess i'm gonna mosy around the interent some more before i have to go... my wireless i guess can't find a connection to mooch off of yet while i'm out in the a[partment. hopefully i'll figure something out soon but for now i duno.

well, peace out.

jess

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 8 August :: 12.33 am

slight change of plans ....


im moving in tomorrow

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 7 August :: 12.06 pm

AHHHHHHH OH MY GAWDDDD

I LOVE MY APARTMENT

i love it!!! shannon and i went to see it this morning. it's all painted. i was so afraid that the colors would look bad and that i wouldn't like it but i seriously LOVE it!!! i love it.

the red walls in the living room the purple bedroom and green bathroom. yeah it sounds so scary but it is SOOOOO fricken cute. AHH i love it. i'm so excited. i wish i was moving today. it's so cute.

oh and we got a brand new refridgerator . it's stll in the packaging. brand new! and our air conditioner is right out of the box brand new with a remote. it's so neat. ahhh i'm just so excited i can hardly stand it.

wooo hoooooooooo . hanging out with dani and beans today, tomorrow have to finish painting the chairs with gramma that she's letting us use and then pack pack pack. wednesday i have my "Pamper and Indulge" Premier Salon apointment thing that i won and that after that i move in. so around 3 oclock in like two days.

hooray!!! so fricken excited am i.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 4 August :: 9.43 pm

so stef and paul are getting married tomorrow.

tonight was the rehersal and i thought it went well and it should be relaly cool tomorrow.

OMG i can't wait to move in.... WEDNESDAY!!! YAY

i have to finish packing and everything. ahh it's hectic.

okay so thursday the 10th was gonna be my last day at the comstock menards and then i dont start at wyoming till monday BUT

this guy from Davenport called me today and he said that they had selected TWENTY out of the ONE HUNDRED FIFTY scholarship winners to come to a photo shoot and be featured in their 'best and brightest' section in the Admission Brochure. Or at least that is my understanding. Well, no, i am sure. IsNT THAT SO AWESOME so i'm gonna be in the little brochure about davenport that thousands of kids will recieve. how COOL!!!!!!! Also, I get a t-shirt or sweatshirt of my choice and a $25 or more gas card and lunch there. AHHH i'm so excited!!! it's on thursday

i was supposed to work a four hour shift and then go to the dentist but i called and cancelled the dentist appt. today and then i'm sure or at least semi sure i can get someone to cover the four hours on thurs. Otherwise seriously i just wont go to work and i'll just suffer a write up. or possibly a suspension cuz i dont know how many i have..... hmmm oh well!!

ahhh i can't wait

please leave me a note.

peace out

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 2 August :: 11.45 pm

dear gunnie

i noticed.

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 1 August :: 10.20 pm

So i guess the plan has changed. my dad was gonna be gone for a long time and wouldn't be able to bring the trailor and my parents wont let him drive the car and sooooooooooooooo

I'M MOVING IN ON WEDNESDAY instead. so now it's like 8 more days.... annnnndddd i'll be staying there by myself for 2 nights ahhh

but i think jess is staying the night. so yay

wooooow i can't wait!! hooray

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 31 July :: 9.39 pm

I FUCKING HATE LIVING HERE.

also it'd be nice if my 'friends' that i ask if we could hang out all the time would maybe return the favor once in a year or something.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 31 July :: 9.06 pm

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggh

....

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 30 July :: 10.31 pm

remember to call wyoming about hours

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 28 July :: 11.32 pm
:: Music: brand new girlfriend.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 26 July :: 11.02 pm

JESSICA MICHELE WILDE:

You have like fifteen days until you move into your new home.

DO NOT spend any money (except for gasoline to fuel your vehicle) (and perhaps gifts) for two weeks.

Please.

Thank you.
Love,
Jessica.

8 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 26 July :: 10.52 am

omg like almost justtwo weeks until we move innnnnnnnnnnn

i'm so fucking excited. ugh i still have a lot to pack i'm realizing.

::Yessa..::

:: 2006 25 July :: 6.33 pm

omg. band camp is next week. it makes me want to CRY. i miss band so much.

justine, who is instructing pit and how is it going? If you are instructing, GO YOU! and good job. but either way go you and good job because i'm sure you're as awesome as you've always been.

and ps. what music are you guys doing?

god i'm so sad!!!! i might stop in to see you guys sometime

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 25 July :: 4.24 pm

so i'm feeling slightly good. no work today... bought all but one of my books online for discounted prices. seventeen days until we move in.

stef's wedding on the 5th. got the rehersal dinner off by trading hours. still dont get out until 7:30 on the bacholorette party day because menards is dumb.

only one thing really bugging me because of a person who bugs me more than anyone on the planet i think.

now if only i could lose this weight.

oh well, one thing at a time right. g'day

stef i got your signs done and i think they look pretty good so let me know what you think, i'm gonna try to email them to you

4 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2006 24 July :: 11.58 pm

okay so i went to "bed" at 6:30 because i had nothing better to do and i had to get up at 6 today and i was tired and then it's so hot in my room because i'm still used to sleeping in the cold basement and i just felt crappy and then i wake up at 11 something and i feel horrible... really really sick and so i go downstairs in the basement to sleep where it's cold and i can't sleep because i still feel like crap so i go into the bathrroom and then start puking my brains out. UGHGHGHG i HATE THROWING UP. it is the worst feeling ever. ughghghghgh. and i was just throwing up like 2 weeks ago too. ugh i just hate it and then i want to call my boyfriend and talk to him and his phone is dead woohoo.....

well whatever. that's my story and i still feel like shit.

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::