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2006 7 May :: 10.16 am
everything is shit.
as usual.
and i really realy don't think i can take seven more hours today of just standing in one spot. standing in one spot and listening to beeps. and pushing buttons. and saying the same exact fucking thing over and over and over and over there's your reciept have a good day. hi how are you hi how are you hi how are you hi how are you credit or debit credit or debit oh sorry sometimes it goes right to debit.
i am going insane it is such a mundane job and i can't take it anymore. EVERYONE: never be a cashier! I'm sorry i got you into this beans.
i wish i had said i wanted to work in a department and wear gloves and a toolbelt.
i hate being a cashier!! i hate it!
oh and tra lala off to work i go until 7 oclock . another beautiful day completely fucking wasted.
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2006 5 May :: 11.35 pm
"Goodnight Nurse"
My mom used to say that to us when we went to bed when I was little. it's from a movie or something.
I dont know. All I know is I got up at 6:30, went to school, came home and went to work at 2 pm until 10:15 and I'm tired as hell.
Like I said, Goodnight, Nurse.
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2006 5 May :: 11.20 pm
what a shit day.
work went by relatively fast though. it just sucks. it was so funny though katie and i got to talking and we are like exactly alike. our boyfriends are both 2 hours + away and yada yada and blah blah blah. it's funny. she's cool
i can't wait to work with beannnnns!
tomorrow 12-9. BLEH and barf. and sunday 10-7
i need money though.
wisdom teeth out on the 22nd EEK.\
oh and ps. I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL..
To go into further detail, I realized I enjoy work more than school. At least I get paid for a shit day.
Oh and Beans, I talked to Kyle and he was talking about you and said how you catch on really fast . I was like Yeah, she's really really smart. and oh yeah beans I CANNOT WAIT to show you the huge sign with a big ol' grammatical error on it. lol. YOU'RE GONNA FLIP! Betcha can't find it before I show it to you.
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2006 4 May :: 9.49 am
i hate everyone plus myself and all i want is to go to the park and have a picnic with roman and never go to school ever for the rest of my life because i hate it.
RIGHT NOW!
and i stayed home because i woke up with a bad headache and school is SO INCREDIBLY POINTLESS that i couldn't get myself to go in later... my only two relavent classes that it even matters like 1% if i miss are Brit Lit and Econ and (looks at clock) eh, brit lit is half done and i look like a troll so i'm not going. that's final.
and i've been doing the school then work school then work school then work thing for too long. i CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE DONE so then i can just go to work.
i have to be to rosie's at three and then tomorrow 2-10 at menards and then 12-9 menards and then 10-7 menards sunday and then
finally monday i have a day off. but it's not really a day off because i still have to go to stinky ass school. and then tuesday i'll be at rosies and probably same wednesday AND THEN THE REST OF THE WEEK IS AT MENARDS. HOWDY DOODY WHAT A WEEK.
it probably wouldn't be so bad if i just didn't have to go to school. you know?
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2006 2 May :: 8.47 pm
Hey everyone
i'm changing my email address to jessicawilde@hotmail.com
please add me.
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2006 2 May :: 6.19 pm
I took my "exam" for my college class. i'm pretty sure i failed . i really have no idea what my grade is and I have no idea how to check it. i went on blackboard and there are no grades posted. other than ask my professor, which i will not do, i dont think there is any way to even check your grade.
and speaking of failing. that's pretty much what i feel like. my life is so busy it seems but i never get anything done. high school is absolutely pointless and a complete waste of my time. after school i got to work every day now. The days i get off at Menards, I am scheduled at Rosies. It's good I guess but I just feel like I have no time. I think when school gets done I will feel better but I dont know.
i miss band. is that crazy. I miss playing music. After I finished my exam, I walked across the street to the Music Center where I have never ventured and went into some practice rooms and played piano and marimba. I miss it so much.
I can hardly remember anything on mallets. I wish so bad that my parents would have paid for me to do GLP. I think it would have changed my life. Not that I dont like all aspects of my life. I dont wish it was all different, but I really feel empty. I was so disappointed when I stood in front of that marimba and couldn't remember anything I have played in the past. Ugh.... I think Justine is probably the only one who could understand what i'm saying.
I sucked playing piano too, but I hope that's mostly because of the acrylic nails I have on which make it near impossible to play. But I always wish I could have went further in piano. I just didn't have the time or the good teachers.
Not being able to play piano or any instrument well anymore is like feeling like some of you would if you couldn't play a sport anymore. I just feel ... bad. and clarinet..... I haven't picked up that since I quit band last semester. I can only imagine how bad I've gotten.
I just feel disappointed in myself. And hardly anything keeps me up anymore. I dont know. Ugh. Okay this guy next to me wont stop talking loudly on his cell phone in some foreign language and it's getting really annoying.
yeah I'm in the GRCC library now. i have never stopped here before and now that it's my last class I just decided too. pretty stupid but i just didn't want to go home really.
I really am scared. I never wanted that stupid scholarship and now I'm supposed to go and prove to everyone that I can go to college and be smart and be on my own and have a real job and while I type that my fricken eyes fill up with tears because I really feel, deep down that I know I can't do it. yeah you're not supposed to say can't yeah okay. But I really dontthink I can. I dont think I can handle working 20+ hours a week and taking these hard classes to become a Paralegal. Which is what I'm now going for.
I guess.
I suppose.
Even though I dont think I can. It's like I'm telling myself, 'Yeah I'll try it and if it doesn't work I can just drop out, it's not a big deal because I have that scholarship.'
even though it is a big deal.
i dont know what i'm going to do.
i'm going into this completely blind.
and i know nothing about it and I have no faith in myself.
I want roman.
and ps: I'm not even going to start writing about the other thing that's bugging me.
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2006 1 May :: 10.36 pm
SO! cool things..
i have the greatest boyfriend ever and i love him and we had so much fun on prom and i got to see him TWICE IN ONE WEEK!!! one weekend no less! we hung out sunday again and went to the binder park zoo. it was SO FUN!
ahhhh i love him
and then ALSO today i was called to be told I won a spa package i entered a long time ago at Art Van. How cool is that?
it's worth $195 ... i get a haircut, scalp massage, style, conditioning treatment, manicure, pedicure and either a facial or a full body massage... my choice. i got a huge cool robe, i got a $10 gift certificate to the salon or to marshall fields and i got a bottle of shampoo. HOW COOL IS THAT?! ahh i'm so excited to schedule it.
here are some pictures.....
Read more..
more zoo pics to come lol....
oh and ps... i am really getting chubby and chunky. i keep expecting to just lose it but i dont eat less.... i exercise a LITTLE bit more but not much and eh i duno. my self esteem is lowering. it's like, i can't care as much as i used to because roman's always there to life my spirits and make me feel great about myself, but when he's not there i dont feel good about how i look and also i can't just be fat even if he still loves me that way. so .... i duno.... any suggestions i guess? i just feel UGH and then when i'm hungry i'm like oh, come on, i'm fine...
oh and also... eh, nevermind.
*JESSSSICA*
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2006 29 April :: 10.55 pm
AHHHH so prom was so much fun. we both enjoyed it. roman said he had a blast and thanked me for wanting him to come so bad! lol. it was so much fun and i'll never forget it. i'm so glad we went.
i just love roman and i can't wait for august (yes august now).
and it was fun getting ready at jess's.
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2006 27 April :: 11.23 pm
UGh, i'm sorry. but can i just remind you how much YOU suck and how much you annoy me and how i am like a thousand times cooler than you and i can hardly stand you and AHHH you make me want to pull my own hair out.
ugh
so excited for tomorrow though.
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2006 26 April :: 11.08 pm
i would never ask for someone else or something else but why does everything have to go wrong. i just want ONE day to be free of worries or concerns for us. i hate being so far away,
gonna go cry. again.
i love you though.
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2006 24 April :: 2.09 pm
UGHGHGHGHG
what else can suck.
"it's like he just woke up one morning and was like, bring on the piss!" lol.
ugh how long till you're with me. seriously.
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2006 23 April :: 8.06 pm
I swear, if one more person starts out a sentance by saying "I seen..." or "We seen...."
I will kill them. STOP BEING STUPID. It's "I saw, We saw." Gawd I swear its like you all think it's cool or something to sound so effing retarted.
idiots
ps. blah blah blah i love roman can't wait to be done with school grilled cheese are yummy love dani and went to the casino and cmu and woo woo fun time and yay ayyaayay prom cant wait and bonanza wah hoo. love love blah blah blah.
/jess/
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2006 20 April :: 10.42 pm
it's like just one more aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalkj;lkj;lkj
so no school tomorrow either because of a health event thing.
and everything is okay for the moment.
and by everything i mean almost nothing but more than something.
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2006 19 April :: 10.04 pm
i love how nothing is EVER right
EVER
oh and one more thing
god i fucking hate all you people who get to see your boyfriends everyday.
aslkfja;sldjas;lkfj FUCFK
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2006 18 April :: 9.42 pm
okay so get this
on TOP OF THE FRICKEN FULL RIDE i also got a $1000 scholarship I applied for a long time ago
and my parents say
what you expect us to pay for you books
and they STILL WONT HELP AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FUCKING MOVE OUT AND THEN START SCHOOL AND CHANGE JOB LOCATIONS ALL IN THE SAME FUCKING MONTH
I CAN'T STAND THEM. NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH!!!
WHAT DO THEY EXPECT?!??
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2006 16 April :: 10.55 pm
Everything seems so shitty. ugh, it is.
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2006 16 April :: 7.14 pm
so i worked all day and now i'm finally home.
ughghghghghg what a dumb day.
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2006 14 April :: 11.29 pm
Does anyone have either
a. Some jewelry i can wear for prom ( i know you said you probably did for me erika)
or
b. Some light pink gloves...
my dress is light pink and... um.. i dont really care what it's like if you want to tell me about it... just not like a little chain w/ a jewel or something... something a little more than that.
thanks
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2006 14 April :: 11.06 pm
This one reminds me of people at rosie's and maybe what i'd like to say back to them:
Fairway: Your Source for Vintage Foods
Old woman: No! No! You need to cut from that side of the meat. Last week you gave me a cut from the right side. I want a cut from the left side! Don't you know that I want a fresh cut of meat?
Deli guy: Only way you gonna get a fresher cut of meat is if I take it from your wrinkly white ass.
--Fairway Market, 74th & Broadway
Lol and this one is so funny
Woman on cell: No, I mean, whatever. I cried for that baby when it died and all. Shit! I even went to its funeral and the damn thing wasn't even born! Who the fuck has a funeral for a baby that wasn't even born?...Whatever, that's not the point. The point is, I'm sure as hell not going to a birthday party for a baby whose funeral I went to a year ago. That is fucking morbid...and they had better not be expecting presents.
--14th between 7th & 8th
hahha all these remind me of the other day when me and roman went to applebees to eat and we listened in on this lady (we couldn't help it because she was SO loud and then it got SO interesting) for like seriously an hour about her husband who worked for a school and then she found out he was cheating on her with a student... she had two kids and he left home and she figured out he was at a hotel nearby that they had went to together before and she was able to coax the hotel manager into giving her a key because she had the same last name as her husband and she said she had the kids and didn't have a key and she went to the hotel room and put the card in and opened it a crack because she was afraid of what she'd see and she saw make up on the counter(GASP) and then it all came out that it was a student and blah blah blah... unfortuanttely that was all we got. it was so funny. we hardly spoke a word to each other because we were listening to her story.
Girl #1: I know it smells kind of cheap, but I like it because it's the perfume I was wearing when I lost my virginity.
Girl #2: I thought you were wearing Ralph when you lost it.
Girl #1: No, that was my other virginity.
--60th & Columbus
Woman: Look at all these rude motherfuckin' men! Can't get up and let none of these ladies have a seat.
Man: Having a vagina is not a disability.
--L train
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2006 12 April :: 8.42 pm
i am so tired. yesterday and last night was such a long day.. and then this morning ...and then driving 2 hours just to work 5 more.....
wow
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2006 11 April :: 9.32 pm
I got a full ride scholarship at Davenport.
I couldn't even breathe.
and I have no idea what i'm going to do.
oh, i forgot to mention.. i can only attend one of the grand rapids campuses. not kalamazoo or anything.
so my plans???
are like messed up
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2006 10 April :: 6.19 pm
And in other news... MAJOR apartment hunt today... unfortuatlnleyeyeyeyeye ly by myself because Ro MAN had to work. it was quite a day. driving from 9-4.... i had to stop on the way home and sleep at a gas station for a half hour because i kept falling asleep on the expressway. I think I have it narrowed down to two different ones.... Westchester Woods and our orginal Alpine Village. We will look at them (Hopefully) one final time on Prom day, the 28th because we will not be seeing each other, nor traveling to K-Zoo before that date. It will be another long day.
I need to do some major budgeting and calculating and calling and checking and mailing and faxing and working so that I can do some paying and mailing and giving away money-ing.....
Frustration ensues. But thats okay. Anything to get out of here.
I am pretty sure I am taking a year off. I know that's what Roman is doing. We will be trying to save every penny we can. Then I think I'm going to go to Olympia or Davenport for medical assisting which is not my dream job, but I dont think I have any dream job other than being a mom and the job placement is 99% so I think it is a good idea. If I dont do that, then I think I may actually go to college. I dont know, thats just what I'm thinking. But I'm pretty positive I dont want to do cosmetology anymore. Eh it just doesn't appeal to me very much anymore. Clients and making everyone happy and it's the same kind of shit you have to deal with as a waitress. Acting like you are the nicest person in the world with absolutely no problems just so you can get a big tip and their business in the future. I don't want to do that. I can handle being nice, but OVERWHELMINGLY PERFECT is another story.
I like the idea of having a year where I just have ONE thing going on... WORK. I LOVE the idea of having a year where I can finally enjoy being WITH Roman instead of with him but away from him.
I've never had any time where I could just be with him whenever I wanted. We've always been restricted or away from each other. How great will it be to finally be able to be together every day. Perfect.
*sigh of relief* School tomorrow is not something I"m looking forward to, at all.
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2006 9 April :: 12.22 am
I love this song and it is currently my favorite ever. lol
Yeah, Um, I think ima try somthin tonight that i aint,
that i aint neva did before on this one, lets go
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)
Got a lil bit of Blueberry Yum Yum
and I neva would of thought that it could taste this goooooood
Thank God for the man who put it in my hoooooood
Its got me singin melodies I neva thought i woooouuuuld
Im feelin sorry for the homies that be smokin wooood
Chop Chop, break it down for a playa like me me me me me
Im bout to find me a woman that skeet skeet skeet skeet
Ima keep smokin till i reach my peak peak peak peak
Or till im stuck and my body feels weak weak weak weak weak
headed down to the doungeon wonderin, if they got, some moore
and if they dont then ima have ta settle fa some drooooo
and it just aint cool cuz right on afta, ima have ta gooooo
and continue on my mission fishin for tha Yum Yum but im movin sloooow
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high(lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)
Yes, fire fire got me so tired ima stop drop and rooooooolll
With a wet towel under the doooooooor
Dont pass it I cant take it no mooooore
Somebody take a trip down to the stoooooore
hurry please cus i need some snacks snacks snacks snacks
and how long will it take to get back back back back
Yes indeed ima lil off track track track track track
Off this weed and im full of that yak yak yak yak yak
Get on in that stankin Lincoln crank it up and riiiiide
and it aint enuff room to fit tha other chicks inside
Im so hungry wit tha munchies ima eat everything in siiiiiight
Me and my blueberrys together and everythings all right
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its high (its that fire)
Get the propane, rollin thangs and lets blow this place uuuuuup
You already know whats uuup
I mighta have to pay some extra buuuuuucks
But I really dont give a fuuuuuck
Cuz a brotha feels great great great great great
But im barely awake wake wake wake wake
All bent outa shape shape shape shape shape
So stomp on yo brake brake brake brake brake
If u token good, then all my smokas, let me see ya flame
Dont know what ya got but my bag will, put yo stuff, ta shame
All tha different kinds of otha flavors, they dont mean a thang
You cant compare it dont stare cuz i got the ultimate Mary Jane
Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
.........
doesn't it just make ya wanna?!
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2006 8 April :: 11.58 am
blH BLAH BLAH
yeah so yesterday when i was with roman we put a deposit on an apartment. (Alpine Village, Stef. what do you think?) and it's refundable incase in the end we decide not to go with it.
then we were walking down that street that is the KZ mall and there was this guy playing saxaphone and we gave him all our quarters and then we found out it was the "Art Hop" so we had more to do. And then there was this thing at the state theatre it was Sonny Landreth was there. And we had no idea who it was but we just walked around more and then on our way back to the car, this guy comes up and he's like "Hey do you guys need tickets to the show" and we look at him suspiciously and he says "they're free" and I said "are you sure?" and he said "yeah i get them free from work, Im just gonna stand here until someone wants them. It should be a good show" and so I said "sure" and at first Roman didn't want to, especially since we didn't even know who this guy was but I said come on, it's free, if its horrible we can just leave so we went and the first band J.R. Crew or something was really good lol and the guy came off the stage and we were in the front row and he like sweat on us it was so gross lol but hilarious and then we only stayed a little whie for the Sonny Landreth guy. He was a really great guitar player and all the music was really great but we just had to get going because it was so late and there were so many old people standing around us dancing like freaks. lol man they really like their jazz.
oh but guess who else was there- . yeah , MRS MILLARD. haha we didn't even know who this guy was and Mrs Millard and her husband drove an hour to KZOO just to see him lol. So i said hi and I can't wait to tell everyone me and mrs millard rock out at the same concerts. wow.
Then we got dinner and when we were going home, i was following roman to the expressway and we were at a stoplight and these crazy ass bitches in the car next to me start screaming all this shit and saying stuff.. I dont even know I couldn't understand them but they just kept calling me a bitch and screaming at me and one of them in the backseat like stood up and stuck her body out of the car and was like yeah thats right bitch! and all this stuff and I honked my horn to get roman's attention and then theystarted honking their horn and roman got out of the car cuz he was like what the fucks going on and my window is broken so it doesn't roll down and I didn't open my car door but i should have but I was pointing to the side trying to tell roman to pull into that gas station on the corner and he thought i was telling him to get back in his car so he did. and then the next thing i know i look over and this fat bitch is knocking on my fucking window and shouting stuff. I was like seriously what the fuck is your problem. and then she just got back in her car and as soon as i pulled up a little they started doing the same thing to the car behind me. I swear they looked like a pack of apes. they were like howling all this shit. Crazy fricken bitches.
Yeah so that was my day yesterday for the most part.
lol
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2006 5 April :: 10.43 am
EDIT: I meant to post this 3 days ago lol.
Oh , I'M SORRY....SHOULD I HAVE USED THE CUT TAG?!?!!?!!?!?!?! OOPS.
Part One:
Have you ever had a song written about you? yeah my song from roman on guitar....awwwww.lol
What song makes you cry? i duno. anything if i'm in that kind of mood.
What song makes you happy? my humps
What do you like to listen to before bed? i listen to music all night. right now it's elvis and some other cds
Part Two:
HEIGHT: 5'1 i think
HAIR COLOR: dark brown kinda
SKIN COLOR: eh.. i need to go tanning
EYE COLOR: Blue
PIERCINGS: ears and cartilage
TATTOOS: Not yet maybe later
Right Now:
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Gray sweatpants.
WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? blue sweatshirt .
SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO? where'd you go
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: cereal of course
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: 39 degrees
HOW ARE YOU? well lets just say another shitty ass day down..
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Sometimes in cars
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Yeah
Favorite...
CONDITIONER: dove
MAGAZINE: whatever
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: choc milk
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: long islands
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: be with roman
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Too many but rapper = jay z
Have you:
BROKEN THE LAW: yup
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yup
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: too much
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: all the time bitches GOTCHA
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no only when they let me for their own gas or groceeries
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: too much
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: No.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: kinda
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah
Love: roman
Boyfriend: roman bryan garcia-nastally
SEXUALITY: i like boys not girls
CHILDREN: yeah want em
CURRENT CRUSH: roman
BEEN IN LOVE?: am in
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah kevin lol
BEEN HURT?: yeah
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: probably shoplifting
MADE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no
Random:
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yeah . 2
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: a cd i made and then upstairs is elvis and 2 cds i made
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: sparkle
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being away from daily life
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: roman,easily
Have you ever:
CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: no
WANTED SOMEONE YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE: no
BROKEN A BONE: yeah
DRANK ALCOHOL: Yeah
LIED: Yah
CRIED IN SCHOOL? yeah too much
Yes or No:
You keep a diary: yeah
You have a secret journal: i guess.. i dont really share it with anyone.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: dont use one
You bite your fingernails: i justgot acryillics
You believe in love: yah
Do You:
Take a shower everyday: Almost every day.
Want to get married: Yes.
Think you're a health freak?: Definitely not.
Get along with your parents: no
Favorite:
NUMBER: 2
COLOR: pink.
DAY: sunday
MONTH: duno..july?
SONG: Wayyy too many.
FOOD: edy's mint choc. chip ice cream.
SEASON: Summer
SPORT: b ball .
VEGGIE: duno
FRUIT: apples and bannaasss.
FAST FOOD: arbys prob
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
CRIED? yeah
HELPED SOMEONE? Yeah , kiddies i babysit.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yeah
GOTTEN SICK? kinda
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Yes.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No.
TALKED TO AN EX? No.
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? This one.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU "CRUSH" ON? no
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yeah
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no
WOULD YOU EVER:
1. Eat a bug? 8th grade crickets
2. Bungee jump? yeah
3. Hang glide? Maybe.
4. Kill someone? no
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? no
7. Parachute from a plane? probalbly not
8. Walk on hot coals? no
9. Go out with someone for their looks? no
10. For their reputation? no
11. Be a vegetarian? Probably not.
12. Wear plaid with stripes? .
13. IM a stranger? Maybe.
14. Sing karaoke? yeah
15. Get drunk? yeah.
16. Shoplift? I have before, but I won't again... so no.
17. Run a red light? try not to.
18. Dye your hair blue? no
19. Be on Survivor? no.
20. Wear makeup in public? Yes.
21. NOT wear makeup in public? hardly
22. Make someone cry? on accident
23. Kick a baby? no , moron
24. Date someone more than ten years older then you? no
25. Stay up all through the night? Probably
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: none
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: be w/ roman and not have to do antyhign
When / What was the last...:
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: no idea
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today
THING YOU PURCHASED: new shoes cuz my other fucking ones got stolen..
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: i'm half watching this obese story
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: um i dont rmember
WHOS THE LAST PERSON(s) YOU'VE THOUGHT ABOUT?: roman
I AM: in a really bad mood
I WANT: money
I HAVE: no money
I WISH: a million tthing
I HATE: how my life is right now
I FEAR: i'm never going to lose this weight
I HEAR: stupid girls and tv
I WONDER: whats gonna go on tomorrow..
I REGRET: spending all the money i've made over the years.
I LOVE: roman
I ACHE:
I ALWAYS: eat.
I SING: loud in my car.
I CRY: all the time.
WHICH IS BETTER:
1. COKE OR PEPSI: diet coke
2. SPRITE OR 7UP:
3. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
4. FLOWERS OR CANDY: Flowers
5. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN:scruffy only on roman
6. QUIET OR LOUD: louder.
7. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes
Just to piss all of you off. even more i suppose.
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2006 4 April :: 2.36 pm
omg. i seriously CANNOT stop eating!
honestly. its like i am scrounging around for food like a rat or something. i can't stop. okay. i'm gonna go tie my own hands up so i can't eat anymore.
this is scaring me a little. AH!
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::Yessa..:: |
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2006 3 April :: 7.55 pm
i cannnnt stannnnnd youuuuu..
learn to appreciate what you have at your fingertips. BITCH!
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::Yessa..:: |
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2006 1 April :: 10.57 pm
Yeah, so...
I'm pregnant. What a suprise right.
Yeah.. well I figure I'll just do the ol' abort-0..
that'll take care of it. It's too much to handle right now. If anyone has a say on this, please speak up...
So anyway, I worked today. we were slow ... didn't make much money, I have 3 jobs right now and I need to quit one. it is way too hard.
I get to see roman tomorrow which is yay big fun. I dont know what we're gonna do but oh well.
I'm still not going to prom but i get a big suprise date which should be fun. And what else... I am just work work a workin...
Oh, and April Fools. I'm not preggy. Silly goose!
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