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:: 2005 22 April :: 2.01 pm

X's are true
[_] I am bisexual or homosexual. (it doesn't count if you're drunk!)
[_] I've smoked weed.
[_] I've gotten high.
[_] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've attempted to run away from home. - when i was little ha for like 5 seconds
[x] I've lied to my parents regularly about where I am. -blehhh
[_] I've failed 2 or more classes in one marking period. - haven't failed them yet, but getting there. :0(
[_] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[X] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[_] I am for Bush.
[_] I listen to political music.
[_] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I open up to others easily.
[_] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[_] I own an iPod.
[x} I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[_] I am a sucker for blonde hair/black hair/blue eyes.
[_] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[_] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[_] I am a sports fanatic.
[_] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[_] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[_] I love Spam.
[_] I bake well.
[X] I would not wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[_] I sneak out of the house often.
[x] I have a job.
[_] I love Martha Stewart.
[X] I am in love
[X] I love someone, significant someone.
[_] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[_] I think Napoleon Dynamite is overrated.
[x] I am self conscious.
[_] I smoke a pack a day.
[_] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[_] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[_] I win people over easily.
[_] I eat fast food weekly.
[_] I have many scars.
[_] I've been out of this country.
[_] I believe in ghosts.
[_] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[X] I see a therapist.
[_] I love white chocolate.
[_] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[X] I bite my lip a lot.
[_] I think Kill Bill is the greatest movie ever.
[_] I'm an otaku because I watched DBZ.
[_] I eat cookie(s) regularly.
[_] I frequently listen to heavy metal music.
[x] I think rap is great.
[_] I think rap sucks.
[_] I am a goth.
[_] I love meat.
[_] I laugh at inside jokes, even if I don't understand them.
[_] I know the Russian Mafia.
[_] I frequently play Russian Roulette.
[x] I fear change.
[x] I'm Going Slightly Mad



1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 17 April :: 10.28 pm
:: Mood: in love

jess, keep in mind that i love you a ton okay and just remember YEAH-AWWW!

i am immeasurably happy. so happy.

and do you know why? HA! no, you don't. only we do and I loooooove everything.

the greatest day/night/day ever. ever ever ever. so happy.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 14 April :: 11.13 pm

i've never been so scared in my entire life i cant even breathe and i just dont know what to do oh god please just let him be okay i cant wait until morning.
god why did i ever come up with that sutpoiasdf;lkj god ill just a;lkkkkk i dont know what to do

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 April :: 9.30 pm

i enjoy eminem..some of his music yay hooray.
i love jay-z and sing so loud to 99 problems in my car because i love that song.
i love my boyfriend and it's so fun leaving notes on his car aww how cute huh?
i work at arby's and lazer skate and it's a bitch trying to schedule
i was supposed to work at arby;s at 3 but i was serving a detention until 3:30 and didn't come to pick up my schedule until 4.. OOPS! i thought i would be fired, but i wasn't.
darn.
lazer skate PARTY time! i love lazer tag. hoorah
ya'll better make way
i hate school immensely
so much
i wish i was a senior and it makes me almost cry really really really.
i have 5 hours of detention to serve and if i dont i will be suspended for 2 days.. which i supposedly was already told of but i really wasn't. yeah OKAY
i dont know what the fuck my schedule for next year is going to be... i dont care about school anymore so do i want to take easy classes? but will i be stuck with all the dumbasses? do i want to stay in band? is marching band going to be extra curricular? it'd be nice if we knew this shit.
badunkadunk.
kinda excited about PAAAAROM!
lol i looked sooooo bad today my hair was awful and gross and i had huge circles under my eyes and it was just bad. yuckO
i love my pretty ring
i.... dont remember.

bleh bleh bleh. leave me a comment BIatch

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 5 April :: 9.51 pm

oh my goodness i love roman :) he's my favorite person ever ever ever. yay he makes me so happy.

and i love jess and jess. oh goodness. i can't wait to have sex i mean see you guys again. :) you know, hang out and what not.

jess g i will try to call you soon. i love you.

i love you.
i love it

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 3 April :: 7.21 pm


ugh. running...

is not my thing.

i am a fatty.

but it's so nice outside. hoorah.

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 25 March :: 9.08 pm

i've been grounded for over a month and a week now.

it sucks.

i spent like 50 bucks at rite aid hoorah.

i love my boyfriend sooo fricken much. that's it.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 23 March :: 12.01 pm

All about love, relationships, and sex. Many questions to cure that boredom!

Created by glasswalls and taken 323 times on bzoink!

Your Physical Self
Female/Male:female
Height:5'
Hair color:brown
Eye color:blue
Body type (slim, average, athletic, heavy):bleeeeeeh WANT ANOTHER HO HO FATTY
Skin tone (pale, fair, tanned, etc.):fair
What is your dressing style (casual, girly, preppy, goth, rocker, etc.):girly or casual or whatever
Basic Questions About Your Love Life
Are you single?no
Have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend?yes
Have you ever KISSED kissed someone?yes lol
How old were you when you had your first crush?like 1st grade haha
Do you currently have a crush?roman
If so, why do you like him/her?he's the best
How do you act around your crushes?um nice
Have you ever told any crushes how you felt about them?yeah
If so, what happened?a;lskdf!
Have you ever rejected someone?yeah
Have you ever been called ugly?um................. i think maybe as a joke or probably behind my back
The good stuff (if you've never done these, answer what you would prefer)
Rough sex or slow sex?lil bit o both!?@#4@!L#K$j
Kisses with tongue or without?tongue
Slow, soft kisses or rough and hard?soft
What was your best kiss like (or wish it was like, if you've never kissed)?that one time
Have you ever had any sexual fantasies involving your crush?no
How often do you have them?aaaaa
Do you like to be touched?a;sldkfd
Where do you wish your crush touched you?llllllllllll i dont ha ve to wish baby!
Do you like the classic sex position or do you like to try out new ones?too personal
Have you ever pictured your crush naked?god i am not single. he's not my crush
Have you ever looked at porn?no ACK!
Do you look at it often?noooooooo
How often do you feel horny?ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Your Perfect Guy/Girl and other relationship questions
Do looks matter?you have to have an attraction
If you're a guy, do you care about boobs/ass size?i'm a girl and i care about the size of my ass
If you're a girl, do you care about muscles (buff arms, six pack)?i loooove romans arms
Do you want them to be affectionate?yeah
Romantic?yeah
Cuddly?yeah
Outgoing or shy?outgoing
Talkative?yeah
Intelligent?yeah
Good hygiene?deffinetely
What should they do when you're depressed?hug you and hold you and be sweet
When you're mad at them?roman knows
Should they ask you what is wrong or leave you alone to cool off?roman knows
Are you the type that needs your space or needs them with you 24/7?like... 19/6
Do you want them to put their arms around you in public?sure
Would you want to kiss in public?no
Do you want him/her to make the moves?a;;;;;;;;;;;;
More talk or more sex/cuddling/kissing?ajlsdkfjkj
Would you want to talk to them everyday?yes
Would you want a relationship based solely on sex?no!
How would you act if you were mad at your bf/gf?pissed
Would you want him/her to play an instrument?sure
Do you prefer candlelight dinners or a movie and a fast food dinner?romantic dinners but not too often
What qualities are most important to you in your significant other?politeness, treats others well, sense of humor, caring, smart, clean
Do you care about their wealth?no
What turns you on?stuff
What turns you off?bad hygiene,cockiness
Do you believe in fate?yeah
Do you believe in God?yeah
Would you mind if your bf/gf believed in a different religion?i duno
Qualities you'd want in a bf/gf - yes or no?
Sarcasm:no
Shy:no
Quiet:aja;l
Loud:alskdj
Depressed:no
Smoker:no!!
Drinker:no
Funny:yeah
Sensitive:to an extent
Workaholic:no
Lazy:no
Lustful:no
Intelligent:yeah
Nerdy:dorky a little
Loner:no
Athletic:just not a lazy ass
Creative/unique:creative i guess
Stylish:to an extent
Some final, random questions:
When do you want to get married?yeah
Do you want to have kids?yeah
Do you like little kids?love them
How old are you?17
Do you believe in online relationships?no that's dumb
Do you believe in long distance relationships?they would be really hard
How many close friends do you have?like 5
If you've been in a relationship, how long was the longest one?1 year and 12 days..
How about the shortest?4 days lol
Do you tell your friends about your crush?yeah
For the Girls (guys can participate too): Choose a Guy.
Chad Michael Murray or Brad Pitt?brad pitt when he was in fight club
Jesse McCartney or Aaron Carter?umm neither little baby blonde guys aren't my type
Adam Brody or Chad Michael Murray?cmm
Orlando Bloom or Brad Pitt?OB
Josh Hartnett or Orlando Bloom?OB
Mark McGrath or Josh Hartnett?neither
Ashton Kutcher or Topher Grace?AK
Clay Aiken or Ruben Studdard?neither yuck
Ryan Seacrest or Simon Cowell?RS
Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter?JT
Usher or Nelly?Usher
For the Guys (girls can participate too): Choose a Girl.
Kristin Kreuk or Jessica Alba?jessica cuz thats my name
Hilary Duff or Lindsay Lohan?lindsay is a wench
Rachel Bilson or Mischa Barton?
Hilary Duff or Hailey Duff?hilary she's so pretty
Tyra Banks or Gabrielle Union?
Ashanti or Beyonce?beyonce, she's nice
Carmen Electra or Pamela Anderson?neither
Mandy Moore or Katie Holmes?mandy
Angelina Jolie or Jessica Alba?
Paris Hilton or Britney Spears?Britney!
Ashlee Simpson or Jessica Simpson?Ashlee
Last set. S'more random questions.
How often do you go online?every day when i'm not grounded
Do you enjoy school?hate it
What kind of music do you listen to?everything cept not a lot of country
Do you get along with your parents/siblings?no
Final question. It's been fun, buddy. What will you be doing after this?die. and go to geometry........BLEHALKSJ

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::Yessa..::

:: 2005 21 March :: 4.46 pm

Would you....

1. Give me your number?
2. Have sex with me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Be my bf/gf?
9. Have a fling with me?
10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
11. Buy me a drink if I didnt have money?
12. Take me for the night?
13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
14. Sing kareoke w/ me?
15. Go in the doctor's office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. Do you care about me?
21. Would you cry if I died?
22. Would you dance with me?
23. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
24. Would you hold my hair back at a party if I was throwing up due to intoxication?

4 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 14 March :: 6.31 pm

blahahahaldkfjasd;lkfj i think i lost my mom's cell phone and i am fat and today was okay and i need to take a nap. goodnight.

i am not going to keep two jobs that it stupid. it all sucks.

night.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 11.17 pm

Firsts:
1. First best friend: jess hazen

2. First car: Tina. red grand am 2000 my baby

3. First real kiss:reallllllllllllll. hmm jeez.

4. First self purchased album: goo goo dolls. dizzy up the girl.

5. First funeral: i've actually never been to one.

6. First pet:Ollie the dog and Bea the cat.

7. First piercing/tattoos: My ears in 1st grade

8. First Credit Card: dont have one dont really want one.

9. First big trip: jeez florida i suppose.

10. First music you remember hearing in your house: black velvet... and michael jackson and paula abdul.

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: 6th grade. lol

2. Last car ride: Today from lazer skate

4. Last good cry: like a half hour ago. but i wouldn't call it good. UGH.

5. Last library book checked out: i checked 3 out at the school library thursday.

6. Last movie seen in theatres: i dont remember.... oh that one with will smith...Hitch.

8. Last food consumed: apple it was good.

9. Last crush: um roman.

10. Last phone call: roman called from work. <3

11. Last time showered: like 11:30 today.

12. Last shoes worn: brown cloggish thingys furry you know whatever.

13. Last item bought: pop tarts at the festival for band.

15. Last time wanting to die: i was thinking about it like 40 minutes ago but you know w;alksjdfl;aksjdf;lajksfljk cant

16. Last time scolded: today a bunch for fucking attitude.

17. Who are your best friends: Jess G, Pappy, Roman, DanO, Justin B, Spud, Denee'.

18. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: yessiree.

19. Last person you talked to: my mom i suppose. it wasnt really talking.

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs: no,

2. What kind of shampoo do you use: this stuff with mint in it. or just whatever smells good and doesn't make my hair huge and poofy.

3. What are you most scared of: failing, rejection, the future, merging on highways or driving in really busy traffic, creepy men, whenever any guy or man yells.

4. Where do you want to get married: in Tennessee at the Gaylord Opreyland Hotel in the conservatory thing with the beautiful plants and white chairs and ooh it's so pretty.

5. What are you listening to right now: ashley gearing- can you hear me when i talk to you.

6. How many buddies are online: like 3.

7. What would you change about yourself: thinner- especially in the leg area, better nose, perfect complexion, tanner, not fucked up in the head or insane or crazy, and have less of a temper and be more confident............. yup.

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: pink mostly.

2. Foods: apple crisp, mashed potatoes, bread, brownies, c.c. cookies.

3. Girl names: Kenna, Anya, Ashtin, Audra

4. Boys names: Kaden, Ahstin,

5. Subject in school: english

6. Sports: i duno basketball...

7. Perfume: ae aura.

8. Cologne: whatever roman wears.

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: babies or little kids

2. Smoked: yeah

3. Bungee jumped: No

5. Skinny dipped: no

6. Been in love: yes

7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: not that i remember

10. Cried when someone died?: um ... yeah maybe? i duno/

11. Lied: yeah

12. Fallen for your best friend: well... kind of sort of. (my guy best friend) but that deffinetely didn't last.

13. Been rejected: uh.. yeah? i duno. as in asked out and said no to? no then.

14. Rejected someone: yeah

15. Used someone: No that is horrible.

16. Done something you regret: fer sure.

CURRENT:
1. Clothes: aeropostale cords, my cs hoodie with my drumline hoodie over it and white socks

2. Music: coldplay.

3. Make-up: well i had mascara and shit on but it all came off from crying.

4. Annoyance: not being able to just be with roman. living here. being tired. knowing that i have to go to work tomorrow and i will see phyllis. myself.

5. Smell: nothing

6. Favorite artist: gah i duno

7. Desktop picture: A picture i took of the place i want to get married in Tenn. its so pretty.

8. Book you're reading: i'm about to start "the real meaning of cleavage"

9. Cd in player: elvis greatest hits, crazy for you soundtrack, and a mix of 80's songs. Wow, i'm a loser. HAHA not. Since that music is great.

ARE YOU:
1. Understanding: yeah

2. Open-minded: yeah

3. Arrogant: i dont know

4. Insecure: depends on situation but probably yeah about my looks yeah

5. Interesting: neeehhhh.

6. Hungry: Yes

7. Smart: bleheheh.

8. Moody: fuck yes

9. Hardworking: no not really

10. Organized: meh

11. Healthy: not really i duno

12. Shy: I'm not shy, but i'm an introvert. you have to talk to me first , i wont speak up first.

13. Attractive: roman thinks so yay.

14. Bored easily: yeah

15. Responsible: Most times

16. Obsessed: with...?

17. Angry: Usually

18. Sad: yeah

19. Disappointed: yeah

20. Happy: no not now

21. Hyper: No

22. Trusting: the only person i trust with everyone inside of me is roman. other people it varies.

23. Talkative: Depends on who ii'm talking to and my mood.


yeah so cool.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 10.03 pm

not even my fucking cat likes me. i want to move out.

4 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 9.25 pm

i hate this fucking place i hate it i hate it more than anythign asdkflj;a;sldkkkkkkkkkkkkkja;sldk

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 9.15 pm

i fucking hate my family so god damn much i swear god i am not gonna take this stupid shit any more i am so fucking sick of it and i just want to run away so fucking bad. fucking stupid. igjal;sdkjgl;asdkgjl;asdkgj;asdklgjl;sdkj god its seriously sounding nice. if i could fucking find them. but i can't because i would hurt you so bad ;allllllsddddddddddddddddddddddd

it's so fucking stupid. ;alskjsdf god i just want to go fucking shoot myself in the fucking fuas;dlfkjasdl;gkjasdg;klasjg; head.

god duasd;lfkamsdk

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 8.49 pm

roman is a sweetheart and i like alt codes.
my boyfriend is the best ever. ☻ ☻ i love him he is the greatest. aww yay. a fricken 2 minute conversation with him just brightens up my world.

bleeeeeeeeeh until i realize i'm still at home.

but roman is still the best


gj;asldkgjasdkl;gjasdl;gjsdl;gjsdl;kgjas;dgkjsl;dkgjasl;dk!~


::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 8.43 pm

wtf. this is such a huge load of bullshit. i am so pissed. and i'm right. GADLKajSDFKLSDJAGKL

and i feel like shit i want to call in sick tomorrow but wow i don't see that happening. stupid



fucking dumb.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 March :: 4.33 pm
:: Mood: grouchy.
:: Music: lovers and friends

ugggggggggggggh! i can't fucking WAIT to move out of my house and move on. When i have kids i will teach them the importance of a job and having money but i won't get my priorities in the wrong order. UGH. god. i am never going to be able to keep two jobs. Phyllis called me this morning after tammy already said it was fine and she'd leave a note and i got bitched at by phyllis who already hates me and i hate her in return. she made me cry and i hate her. that's the second fucking time she's made me cry. and i won't ever ever let her act like something that SHE fucked up on, is my fault EVER again. I'm not talking about the situation today, but every time we are working and she fucks up, it's my fault. yeah fucking right bitch. GAWD i hate her. and i had to tell her i got another job cuz she kept asking what was keeping me from coming in and blah blah blah and GAWD i just hate her!!! and now that i have another job and this whole thing happened, she's gonna act like a even HUGER bitch to me and she's gonna cut my hours and probably make me work fry station or backline or something god i hate that stupid bitch and everyone fucking does so why the hell can't we get rid of her? GAWD. keeping two fucking jobs will never work because of all the scheduling SHIT. ughghghgh and hello did anyone remember i have to fucking go to school??? And did anyone remember that i'm a fucking teenage girl with a boyfriend and friends and i would like to keep a fucking social life? have a fucking fun time watching my grades go to fucking shit. oh WAIT they already are shit. well have fun watching me fucking fail my classes. i'm not a fucking genious like other people you know so no, i can't hold two jobs and keep good grades in school sorry bitches you don't have 4 perfect kids. i'm glad i'm the fucked up one and you just let the others do whatever the fuck they want stupid assholes. GAWD all i fucking want is to move out of this stupid ass family and get on with the better part of my life. you stupid fuckers. ASLKFJASDKLFj i fucking swear im fucking going crazy.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUU

i can't fucking wait to move out.

i fucking hate arby's with a passion or maybe i just hate phyllis yeah that's it i fucking hate phyllis and her evilness.

all my arby's buddies please leave a comment supporting me on my HATE for phyllis. Tell me how much she fucking SUCKS. please. because i know i am not alone on this. every single person there does not like her. every single time i work there and phyllis isn't there, at least one person talks bad about her.

ugh fuck off. stupid a;sdlfkjasdl;fkjsl;f fuckers.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 11 March :: 11.01 pm

rueben in case you didn't get my message, i talked to tammy and if you could still work for me 10:30-12 tomorrow that would be super super super. thank you so much and i will make it up to you somehow okay. you are so nice. If this is not okay or you need to get a hold of me for some reason my number is 696-2269 but i'm gonna go to bed but call if you need to okay bye bye rueben and thank you again.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 10 March :: 9.27 pm

today was a good day. and i love roman so much. yay one year tomorrow. loooooove him. so much. he's my best friend in the whole entire world and my strength and the most important person to me. hooray. happy birthday!

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 6 March :: 10.20 am

asrghghghghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhghgghghgh.

alsfkj. 10:20? wtf.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 25 February :: 4.09 pm

uggggggggggh.

shit. i am so dumb. grrrrrrrrrrsdfgsdgdg

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 23 February :: 6.18 pm

ugggggggggggh. what a dumb fuck!!! seriously!


grow a fucking brain!!!!

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 21 February :: 7.07 pm

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh

fucking kill me.

that'd be great. thanks. fucking stupid. guess what i might fucking go


ughghghgh!!!!ADGDFADFHDfh hfsdh fuck you.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 16 February :: 5.37 pm

LJ Friends Meme by

• You must tell 11 people about this game.
• Roman is the one that you love.
• Justin is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about mom.
• jess g is the one who knows you very well.
• denee is your lucky star.
• wedding singer song is the song that matches with Roman.
• anytime is the song for Justin.
• get low is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and ass and titties is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

yeah.. heh.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 15 February :: 10.27 pm

Favorite_____
1. gum: polar ice.
2. restaurant: i do not know
3. drink: cappucino
4. season: summer. summer summer
5. type of weather: warm but not boiling hot with a really light breeze and a not totally blaring sunny heh..
6. emotion: love. being loved.
7. thing to do on a half day: hang out with someone or go shopping
8. late-night activity: sex. ha! jk.
9. sport: hm um.. basketball?
10. city: not cedar. not cedar. not cedar. um..somewhere in tenn. or rockford lol.
11. store: well it was forever 21 but (gasp) last time i went there i didn't like anything they had. can you believe it? but I like american eagle now i think. they have cute scarves and i bought my bag from there and they have cute purses. okay i am a loser.

_______When was the last time you_______
12. cried: like a half hour ago
13. played a sport: ha.
14. laughed: like a half hour ago
15. hugged someone: like 2:45... today ha
16. kissed someone: like 2:45 today....
17. felt depressed: i was sad today. i duno
18. felt overworked: i duno. not for a while
19. faked sick: not for a long time.. probably like 2 years
20. lied: Saturday

_______What was the last_______
21. word you said: time
22. thing you ate: nasty-ass cereal.
23. song you listened to: lovers and friends..
24. thing you drank: water
25. place you went to: um.. applebees tonight
26. movie you saw in the theatre: um.. geez. meet the faukers
27. movie you rented: anchorman and little black book

_______Who was the last person you_______
28. hugged: roman
29. cried over: i duno roman but not over him just cuz i was upset and i duno i guess i was crying over myself.
30. kissed: romannnn
31. danced with: um.. i think my brother. we danced to christmas music in my kitchen
32. shared a secret with: roman
33. had a sleepover with:um jess g haha
34. called: roman
35. went to a movie with: JESSIE G
36. saw: my... dog
37. were angry with: myself and my mom and my sister and yeah.
38. cant take your eyes off: um. roman is cute and i like to look at him............
39. obsessed over: hmm um take a guess. is love an obsession? haha. har har har

_______Have you ever_______
40. danced in the rain: Yes and in the thunder and lightning! that was scary
41. kissed someone: NEVER!
42. done drugs:mmmmmmno. ha
43. drank alcohol: nnnnnoooooo?
44. partied 'til the sun came up: uh no not really
45. had a movie marathon: no
46. gone too far on a dare: no i dont think
47. spun until you were immensely dizzy: sure
48. taken a survey quite like this before: psh yeah a thousand times

_______My life_______
49. name: jessica
50. gender: im a girl
51. birthday: 3/8/88
52. relationship status: taken..
53. nationality: ahhhhh no no no no no no bad memories
54. occupation: oh boy! i work at arby's!

_______Play_______
55. i'm feeling: tired and bored and my eyes hurt and i want to go to bed and i need to brush my teeth
56. i'm listening to: green day
57. i'm doing: this instead of my homework. wow big suprise.
58. i'm talking to: psh no one. what do you think?
59. i'm craving: sleep
60. i'm thinking of: well. starts with a D. ends with a Y. My favorite little pookie knows what I'm talkin about!!!
61. i'm hating: school SCHOOL SCHOOLLLLLLL!

_______Love_______
62. love is: spec-fucking-tacular!
63. my first love: is super
64. my current love: is a sweetheart who does everything he can for me.
65. love or lust: um. love
66. best love song: yeah. like you can pick
67. is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: hmm. i duno
68. when love hurts, i: sleep

_______Opposite sex_______
70. turn ons: curly hair, strong build, nice teeth/smile, humorous, friendliness, musical talent, if they wear cute little hats. ha.....ha
71. turn offs: if they are dirty. full of themselves, rude. mean to people. dirty fingernails or teeth or anything. any boys feet. ever. ever ever. every single boy's feet. i hate feet. lol. and farting or burping. yuck.
72. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: to an extent
73. what kinda hairstyle are you into?: i love love love love love curly hair. i always told myself the man i marry has to have curly hair.
74. what is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you?: well, the sweetest thing roman has done for me is let me cry to him and take my hand after i used it to wipe my snotty nose and then tell me to smile and then tell me i'm pretty. lol i wont forget that
75. where do you go to meet new people?: oh!
76. are you the type of person to HOLLa and ask for numbers?: oh yeah. i totally HOLLa.... yup

_______Picky picky_______
77. dog or cat: kitty YAY pussy.
78. short or long hair: on guys? not long but long enough to run your fingers through it.
79. sunshine or rain: sunnnnnnshine
80. hugs or kisses: both of course
81. summer or winter: summemememmemer
82. written letters or e-mails: lettters
83. playstation or nintendo: playstation
84. car or motorcycle: car
85. house party or club: CLUB lol
86. sing or dance: dance dance dance
87. freak or slow dance: ha neither

_______Lately_______
88. how are you today? extremely moody
89. what pants are you wearing right now?: reindeer pjs
90. what shirt are you wearing right now? hoodie
91. what does your hair look like at the moment: messy pony tail
92. what song are you listening to right now?:bright eyes - lover i dont have to love
93. how is the weather right now? shitty
94. who was last person you talked to on the phone?: my bf.
95. last dream i can remember?: it was bad and involved making out and dirty things. AH!

aw shit. are you seirous i just wasted my time on that? and for what?!


::Yessa..::

:: 2005 14 February :: 10.12 pm

Immature love says "I love you because I need you." Mature love says "I need you because I love you." - Erich Fromm

Even when I glimpse you for a moment, my tongue is stilled as speech deserts me, while a delicate fire is beneath my skin... - Sappho

The hearts that love will know never winter's frost and chill. Summer's warmth is in them still. - Eben Eugene Rexford

Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it. - Keiichi Morisata

Oh my luve's like a red, red rose, That's newly sprung in June; Oh my luve's like the melodie That's sweetly played in tune. (from Red, Red Rose) - Robert Burns

Love is the irresistible desire to be desired irresistibly. - Louis Ginsberg

Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy. - Ralph Connor

When the satisfaction or the security of another person becomes as significant to one as one's own satisfaction or security, then the state of love exists. - Henry Stack Sullivan

The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one person. - Vi Putnam

There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer, no disease that enough love will not heal, no door that enough love will not bridge, no wall that enough love will not throw down, no sin that enough love will not redeem... It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble, how hopeless the outlook, how muddled the tangle, how great the mistake. A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all. If only you could love enough, you could be the happiest and most powerful being in the world... (Emmet Fox, 1886-1951, Irish-born Metaphysician) - Emmet Fox

If words could say all that we feel, there would be no need for an embrace. But language has its limitations, and the heart has none. It expresses itself spontaneously in even the smallest things we do. - Robert Sexton

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship--never
--Charles Caleb Colton

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.
~ Mignon McLaughlin

All love that has not friendship for its base,
is like a mansion built upon the sand.
~ Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Find the person who will love you because of your differences and
not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.
~ Leo Buscaglia

You come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
~ Sam Keen

To live without loving is to not really live. - Moliere

Two souls with but a single thought,
Two hearts that beat as one.
Franz Joseph van Munch Bellinghausen

We are shaped and fashioned by what we love. - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
~Bible~
I Corinthians 13:4-8

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 14 February :: 11.21 am

ugh today fucking sucks.
i hate this. i hate stupid ass michigan and i hate our situation and i fucking hate a lot

ugha;glksjglskgjsgj what a waste of a fucking day. not because we dont have school, i'm happy about that but i can't even fucking go anywhere because my mom wont let me drive.

ugh. and i'm sick of my stupid ass dreams.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 13 February :: 11.40 pm

come away with me

i need my bf.

i can't sleep. i feel like crying and what the fuck? that's scaring me. ugh..... i'm sick of having dreams that seem so fucking real. i hate them. at first some of them were funny and shit but now it's getting really really fucking annoying. every single morning i wake up thinking something happened that really never did. and it's been like.. more than two months now with that. ugh.

ughhhhhhhh i'm a fucking psychopath. a;lksdfjjjjj gonna go listen to my rap music.

@@@#^%^

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 February :: 11.37 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Ashley Gearing- Can you hear me when I talk to you.


Wow so tonight was eventful. I picked up Roman and we went into Rockford. Walked around the dam, it was really pretty and relaxing and fun to just spend time alone together. Then we walked around Rockford and it was so cute. And oh my goodness, Rockford is like a million times better than Cedar. It's such a cute little town, i love it. Their street lamps have speakers that play music. It's just nice and neat. You'd never see people walking around town like that just for pure enjoyment in Cedar. I will not live in Cedar when I grow up.

So we walked to this little Cafe. Ric's cafe or coffee or something like that. it was a really nice cute place and their lattes were good!!! and their smoothies too. And there were some people playing music and it was just a good good night.

Then yay

Then I get home and everything goes downhill. I get in trouble for the detentions and blha blahb lbahlhabhlabhalbhl I end up talking to my parents and leaving Roman in the basement alone watching tv for like an hour. And when I finally come down I look like shit from crying forever and he's about asleep on the couch. So I wake him up. I love him.



i love him. none of you care about this i know. and i dont care that you dont care. i just love him. he's my best friend who will never leave me behind. the best.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 11 February :: 3.53 pm

UGH

my family is so dumb so freaking dumb.

my brother just fucking kicked me in the shin and it hurt like a bitch. i am in just a really really bad mood. and i called him a fucker so OH NO. who knows what will happen.

i think i'm just gonna effing hang out with myself tonight. just me and myself. because i just can't stand anyone right now. not even myself but that's the best i can do. i'm gonna get some stuff done i guess.

ugh. leave me a comment please. if its nice.

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