dont you ever EVER EVER EVER ever come up to me while talking on your cell phone and fucking show me by using your fingers what tanning bed you'd like to tan in. or by pointing or mouthing words or fucking any of that stuff. seriously i'm going to punch this business dressed man who thinks he's fucking better than me i want to kick him in the fucking crotch. god i hope he dies.
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2008 26 September :: 1.48am
:: Mood: tired?
:: Music: mr. deeds soundtrack
^^^no idea why^^^
so yeah. i had class all night. also turned in my app at papa john's. and i locked my keys in the car. dad came and bailed me out, though.
we did an audio interview with a guy in tampa tonight. how many thousand miles away? with 20 to 15000 Hz bandwidth, talkback, and almost no delay. phenomenal.
then i got back and chuck and i watched mystery science theater 3000 - "Hamlet" (the "from the 1960s, german, and dubbed in english" version).
that at least made it a little more worthwhile.
only had one cigarette today. thought that was pretty good.
so I went to toyota city and went on a tour of the factory... needless to say it was boring. All the people there made it fun though. Then we went to the museum where I sat in a lexus I will never own, and sulked.
in other news, Trumpet playing robots!!! Im not sure if I`m enthralled or scared for man kind. It seems like will smith told me that this wasn`t supposed to happen. you could just see that the signature signing robot was about to throw down its pen and say "your soul is mine mortal... Bow to your new Empress!"
Got my friday test back today and I got 95.45%!! which is really good for the intensity of the class. Granted I'm only ichinensei and the test was kind of easy but other people made more mistakes than I did and they have been studying japanese since they started school.
So we went to Kyoto this weekend. Pretty sweet. Our friend Yui pointed out a cheap (illegal) way to get around paying alot for a train ticket. Basically, we left Hikoneshi from a train station farther north and farther in the boon docks. It's about 10 bucks for the ticket there, but we didn't come back until about 8 the next morning, when nobody is at this tiny ass train station. The ticket machine vends a different amount equivalent to the different number of stops. So we just bought the cheapest one and kind of "gate hopped" when we got back. Clever eh? I justify it by saying that everything else is FUCKING EXPENSIVE. TAKAI DESUNE!
once in kyoto we all stopped at a lawsons and got ourselves a chu-hi strongu and sat by the river and talked with everyone. After which we went to some english pub (kind of tacky but they made very large gin and tonics) and watched arsenal win 2-1.
after getting thoroughly sauced up, around 1:30 AM, we hit the club. did a large amount of drinking and dancing until about 5:30 AM. TOTEMO TAKAI DESUNE!
we then hit up a food bar and made a futile attempt to absorb the acohol we had consumed.
then a fun train ride home, arriving back at the dorm at about 9:30 AM.
I guess that makes me a chachi motherfucker. But good times, all around.
tomorrow is a national holiday so we don't have class which means tonight I get to hit up yabu's. The dude loves oberon, and I wish there was a way I could get it to him.
So if anybody can think of a way to get oberon here legally let me know. How is the US?
i know this is getting annoying for you all and i am very sorry i just need to find this kitten a home. i just uploaded a video of her on my myspace... its cute.... www.myspace.com/musicislife7657 this should get you to see it
heh
we still have the kitten.. no one wants her and its sad. i called the vet to see if there was anything i could give here to make her sniffles go away cause i cant afford to take her in and he said to just take her to the shelter, which i said no cause they will put her to sleep!!!NO not letting that happen. so i called my pal cassie for advice and she said her vet told her to give her puppy childrens benadryl to help with its allergies so i went and got childrens tylenol for colds and give her a small small amount and tadaa sniffles going away and shes up and playing again and well being a normal kitten. so pretty much fuck you mr vet man. tj said i can keep her unti i find her a home... so andyone know some one i will be in MI for red flannel and i wiill deliver! i just want to find her a good home...
So, I finally went and saw a specialist (gastrointerologist). I couldn't play last week in band because I was so nauseated and I finally got fed up with everything, so I went and saw a regular doctor at university health services and they referred me to a specialist in town.
I went on Monday and saw her: I'm having an GI ultra sound today at three thirty to rule out any possibilities of enlarged things (like my gull bladder) and I'm having a scope a week from Friday. The scope is where they shove a camera down my throat to look at my stomach and esophagus; I will be asleep when they do it.
For now I'm on Protonix in the morning to help to try to heal any errosion I've had, and Zantac at night to reduce the acid in my stomach.
The specialist said it's probably not an ulcer, but that the medication I was on (over the past year) probably relaxed the sphincter between my esophagus and my stomach allowing acid to come up in my throat. She said there's a strong likelihood that I will have acid reflux disease for the rest of my life if the sphincter doesn't heal.
I can't eat:
gum
tomato based foods
spicy foods
large meals
food high in fat
fried food
alcohol
coffee
caffeine
carbonated beverages
So, there it is. I'll get poked and prodded a bit more in the next few weeks: my follow up appointment is on October third.
so i have decided i totally hate my job at ponderosa, and i need to find a new one. I feel bad, but i have to think of my happiness and working at a resturant just isnt cutting it anymore. It just too unorginezed and stressfull. its sad but i would really enjoy a desk job a simple 9-5. sounds crazy but my sched. is so different that a regular day to day would be a great change of pace.
the kitten is getting better i got her some vitamins and i think she is kicken this cold!! still havent found her a home but it is a work in progress...
THANK YOU MICHELLE I GOT YOUR CARD TODAY AND I TRULY APPRECITATE YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM... YOUR A WONDERFUL FRIEND AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU AT RED FLANNEL.
the kitten is doing much better, after a bath and some food she is up and playing, still congested though... and tj is even letting her roam the house!!! lol my two other cats hate her but im taking her to the shelter tomorrow if i cant find someone to take her so its ok...
So i am taking out the trach at work and this cute little kitten stunmbles out covered in motor oil, dirty, and sick as hell so naturally i took it home. it is currently in my bathroom, sick and i dont know what to do with it cause i cant keep it and i cant afford to take it to a vet and i dont want it to go to the shelter cause he's in bad shape and all they will do is put him to sleep.... god i hate that i am sooooo compasionate at least when it comes to animals and i just dont want to let the little guy go knowing what will happen to it....
in other news my parents came over today, i made cornish hens, green bean casserole and mashed potatoes and it was all soo delicious... mmmmmm. game day so far has been good the colts won and that makes me happy, and the patriots won so tj is happy..
today has been a day of ickyness.... im just sooo confused.
maybe i just need to pay more attention, dig myself out of this hole i have created. i know nothing of what is going on in this world because mine has been so crazy and i just feel shitty about it... i guess i'll just have to catch up.
to the great debate.. to make or not to make that truly is the great question!!!!
I'm throwing myself into a busy week again; classes, work, the fraternity.
I made first chair in University Band for the first time in a year and I get many solos, one of which is a montage of Raisins and Almonds-a song which I played many a time in my youth practicing.
My health is improving. My aciphex trial is almost done, and I'm better, but not totally healed. Going to Wheatland screwed me up a bit: it's always two steps forward, one step back. I think once I'm done I'm going to go on Prilosec for a while to help it heal all the way.
Wheatland pictures to be on facebook soon (whenever Jessie gets them up).
Chicago was fun... dan was funny in his whites. overall it was an ok trip. i just now vow that i will never take derwood and tj on a road trip by myself ever again!!!!!!
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2008 5 September :: 1.16am
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: the alan parsons project - tales of mystery and imagination
i think it's pretty sad that three-beer chris feels more "normal" than no-beer chris.
i guess the solution is to not have beer for awhile. but still. i haven't been functioning up to par without it. and, frankly, i haven't been getting drunk all the time, or passing out. just one or two after dinner or whatever. and it isn't until that point that i feel awake and alert and - well - normal.
i don't know what to make of it. but, either way, i figure it's bad.
P.S.
this made me smile, though:
"hey chris!
we were talking about how great you've been at the station during the meeting today. and we would really love to re-write another executive board position into the constitution. the new position would be the position of technical director. details are still a little vague, but basically the person in this position would be the go-to guy for all questions/problems with the equipment and website. we all feel that you would do wonderfully in this position and we would love for you to accept.
is this something that you are interested in?
thanks so much!
jill"
and i thought they hated me... : )
i sent her my more reserved-sounding equivalent of "fuck yeah!" as soon as i got it. although, now that i think about it, fuck yeah might have been the way to go. oh well, either way, it's cool, and i'm happy.
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2008 4 September :: 12.56am
:: Music: dashboard confessional - swiss army romance
COM 295 ::
:: i haven't even read the excerpt yet, and i already know more than half of them are morons ::
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--Saturday, August 30, 2008 3:55:58 PM EDT
I believe the Greek Mythos differs dramatically from our American Mythos. For instance, while the Mythos of the ancient Greeks stressed the importance of achieving "arete" or excellence in all areas of life, the Mythos of Americans only seems to stress the importance of excellence in a specific field of study, so as to gain employment in the that field, make money, and live a good life.
--Tuesday, September 2, 2008 10:45:11 AM EDT
I agree with your statements and think that you make good and valid points. You also get to the points quickly. Today's simplicity is not what it was defined as before.
--Tuesday, September 2, 2008 9:19:46 PM EDT
America is a system created by the christian religion of living under one god. We put most of our values in knowledge instead of physical strength like ancient Greeks. To be able to move up in out society you must go to college to become sombody. Everything is set in a certain system. We were all raised with these certain standards that need to be met. While knowledge is important I beleive that there is more to life than knowledge such as phyical well-being. In America people seem to think that money can create happiness. While money may help, money is nothing you don't have love and no one knows love till they experience it themselfs. If isn't something to be learned from a book.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 12:21:15 AM EDT
I agree with what everyone has said above me...
American and Greek, both, have a very different view on excellence. During the Greek Era, excellence was more than a detail in someones life. To them it could define a life, like Odysseus and his adventures. Whereas, Americans today view excellence to be a good grade, a prefect outfit, the taste from a meal, etc. Today excellence is many small details in a life and to the Greeks excellence was what made their life whole. To them and that era, it was the bigger picture in life, not the details about the past night.
When you look at life today verses then, life seems ordinary at times. But the Greeks would not allow for ordinary life, they tried for better...they tried for the overall excellence.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 2:41:30 PM EDT
I hold the same ideas as much of the rest of the class.
The Common American Mythos is the system of success. Simply put, from the time we were little in most cases were taught the extreme value of education and how important it is to have one. Parents' shuttle is off to school every day in hopes of preparing us for college and one day in the near future a job so we can provide a good life for ourselves and our family (the American dream). Yet this differs from the Greeks mythos which valued education as well, but stressed the importance of learning life lessons exemplified in such stories like Narcissus and Echo, and Zeus and so on. The Greeks understood that it was not possible for one to learn everything they needed to know from a book, life was a good teacher as well.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 3:26:41 PM EDT
A lot has been said on the common American mythos, which I do believe seems very structured and manufactored ie. going to college to get a good job. However for me atleast there is more to it. I dont want to just succeed I want to look back and see that I have made a contribution to society. This belief and others I find exist outside of the American mythos, however just because they arent used in this society to define success doesnt mean they have no merit.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 6:44:40 PM EDT
I think our common American mythos often relates wealth and power like many others have said. Many put their priorities first and foremost in money. All though some would like to say faith and family is first, it seems as though money and power often overrides the previous two. It is not only about higher education, although this is important. As a nation, I don't think someone that takes over a family business with no college degree is looked down on, furthermore, a wealthy business owner is most likely put on a pedestal than say a teacher or writer with a masters degree. Money seems to be the American mythos. I would say that my personal mythos rank in order of faith first, and then family. However, as an American, I have this idea of wealth, and power and success that is a hard barrier to come up against.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 11:07:03 PM EDT
I very much agree with everyone that posted. Especially on how our American mythos seems to be parallel with wealth and power. Along with that the education of ourselves and our children. It seems that these days the only way to get wealth and power, we need to be be educated or at least have a piece of paper that says we are educated. It is hard to say that I believe this should be true, but as of now I know it is true in our society today. I also think faith and family deserve to be number one, but if we let that happen, it seems we would fall behind our "real" American mythos.
--Wednesday, September 3, 2008 11:33:18 PM EDT
I had a hard time thinking about what could be a common set of beliefs among all Americans. I'm not sure there is one, because we all seem to be so different and diverse, but that in itself may be the American mythos. I think that as Americans we hold strength and individualism with high regard. Take, for example, the "American Dream". The "American Dream" is to make something of yourself and be powerful and strong, persevering despite obstacles, to set yourself apart. So then I would say that the American arete, or excellence, is to make something of yourself, starting from the ground up, and using you're own strength and talents to become powerful. Even though Americans come from various backgrounds, cultures, religions, etc, I think the American Dream is a value we commonly hold.
Personally, my mythos is a little different. Although I do want to become something and possess some type of power or wealth and get a good job, something much stronger than all of that and stronger than me has set my values and beliefs in place. Power and wealth are only my goals as an American, or as a college student. My goal as a person is simply to love. To love God, to love others, and lastly to love myself. That is the greatest and most excellent thing I could do in life, and when I'm gone, I don't want people to remember me as a rich sucessful woman, but rather a loving, faithful one.
"Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins." I Peter 4:8
--Thursday, September 4, 2008 12:12:27 AM EDT
Well.... In my opinion, our common american mythos is not far off of the Greeks lasting idea of "excellence". We are all pushed towards "excellence" from day one, and if we should find ourselves falling short, there usually is someone right there to let you know. Our own ideas of excellence may be different than the others, but there is definitely a standard that we inherently know ( common sense) or figure out along the way. Our mythos is spelled out for us from society, the rest comes from family, values, beliefs, self..ect. I believe that the American mythos is the same for all on some level. We all want to recieve/give love, have a partner in life, have family and friends to rely on and share good times with, money to be abundant enough to pay the bills and maybe some extra for frivolous items that make us happy for the moment, and to be successfull enough to make ourselves and/or whomever it is in our lives that is pushing us proud. That is how I feel in a nut shell about my own mythos as well. I just want to live up to the b.s. norms of society so at some point I can feel " free" and be independent. It all falls back on making money in the grand scheme of things... there isn't alot that you can do without it, but there are some things in life... some parts of the American "Mythos" that doesn't require money like love and family ... so were not completely screwed yet...
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