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2009 15 June :: 12.51pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Swiss Army Romance
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead/ But man, will they buy all your lines...
Sleep with all the lights on. You're not so happy. You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans, but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds. Dorms unload and you're heading out.
Here is your moment to shine. Making up a history.
It has nothing from the life you lead.
But man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off your bearing your mattress, bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos but you're searching just like everyone and could be anyone.
And those friends you have are the best impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead but man, will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin.
So get out your fake eyelashes, and fake I.D's, and real disasters ensue.
It's cool to take these chances. It's cool to fake romances and grow up fast.
life
my diploma and transcripts finally came in the mail today.
i only made the dean's list 3 semesters out of 8. but i graduated from both the college of liberal arts and sciences and the honors college in good standing, fulfilled all the requirements for the film and video major, and finished with 121 credits and a 3.364 GPA.
which means, basically, that i spent the last 4 years of my life spending thousands of dollars and hours upon hours on 4 sheets of paper telling me ... what?
that i still have to shovel dirt for a living, and not even manage to scrape by without a lot of financial support from friends and family? funny though, the papers don't say anything about that part. They honestly paint what, to the untrained eye, would be a picture of a successful young man with a bright future and a world of opportunities. when in actuality he is just a loser with no real job, a fair amount of debt, not a lot of excitement, and way too many nights - and days - stuck at home to sit and think. that's a very dangerous place to put a mind like mine. it rarely goes happy places. honestly, the only way my brain seems to be able to keep itself happy is when it has plenty of distractions, and people to entertain. otherwise, it just turns dark.
then again, maybe i just feel dark because it's all rainy and miserable outside. i wish it would just fucking storm. that would be a lot more exciting than this drizzly crap.
Dark Knight Plot Hole?
Everyone remembers when Dent says that he is Batman on TV, well why is that people automatically believed him? Was it because the two were never seen in the same place at at the same time? Believable but a very weak argument. But I can nearly guarantee that they have been seen in different places at the same time. Think about it, a politician running for office is bound to go to a few evening fundraisers, and I say a few loosely, whereas Batman's hours of operations are during that same time frame.
So why did Gotham believe him? Well I think it has to do with mass media, and if this was Nolan's intentions well he is certainly one of the most brilliant filmmakers of our time. A well groomed man in a suit with a smiling face says something outlandish on television and people believe it, no matter how absurd it may be. Everyone believes it because they are being told by every media outlet that it is true.
Shadow on the Sun - Audio Slave Read more..
I can tell you why
People die alone
I can tell you why
The shadow on the sun
Staring at the loss
Looking for the cause
And never really sure
Nothing but a hole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned
I can tell you why
People go insane
I can show you how
You could do the same
I can tell you why
The end will never come
I can tell you on
The shadow on the sun
people are fucking pissing me off. i am being fucking taken advantage of and can't say anyting because i dont have a backbone and am so stressed everyday there that i am brought to tears because i know she is taking advantage of me. sucks ass. people are stupid..
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2009 22 May :: 11.18pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- She Ionizes and Atomizes
She ionizes and atomizes/ Then turns to sunlight/ He realizes and itemizes/ Pulls harder than gravity...
i am certain that i am a serious hypochondriac.
Among several other things, I've recently discovered that I have Precordial Catch syndrome.
Freakin sick of going to the dr office like 12 times a month. The girls at Bronson even know how to spell my name, CORRECTLY.
For the first time in my life I can't sleep. This never happens. Like, you don't understand- I normally can sleep WHENEVER , wherever for how ever long I wish. Like when I'm bored, I just sleep sometimes. I have never hjad this problem but for some reason I am sooo tired but I can not sleep. I got about an hour last nite and trying to nap since I left work and I can't. On top of it all, I am really sick and feel like total crap so I really need the sleep. Ugh this really sucks and I look like a zombie. Wtf?
