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:: 2009 22 April :: 4.08pm

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:: 2009 21 April :: 5.44pm

you want that mantra?

wanna drink that kool aid?

gillette

:: 2009 16 April :: 9.23pm

terd ferguson.

its funny cause its big

jes	:: 2009 16 April :: 5.00pm My family lost a lot today with the house burning down. Everything is gone BUT my family and I thank God for that. Please be praying!! We need prayer. ::Yessa..::

tuwang

:: 2009 17 April :: 1.30am

so I'm really drunk....

prime minister Aso gave me 12000 yen today...

while making my poor ass happy, it also made me sad for the people working here.

I suppose they had the right idea in that I will spend it IN japan and not send it anywhere else or save it for America.

good night.

6 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2009 16 April :: 7.52am

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2009 14 April :: 10.47pm
:: Music: OAR- This Town

In the morning wake me up/ And tell me everything/ So I can understand your world/ And you can understand my dream...
who needs twitter? i've got woohu.

:: 2009 14 April :: 9.56pm
:: Music: The Killers- Sam's Town

I�ve got this energy beneath my feet/ Like something underground�s gonna come up and carry me/ I've got this sentimental heart that beats/ But I don�t really mind that it�s starting to get to me...
I don't like playing the waiting game...

Vegas was crazy. I spent too much money (but that's what vacation is for, eh?).

Not a big fan of real life. Still really ridiculously tired.

m&ms487

:: 2009 14 April :: 1.09pm

Rueben is at home and sick. He's not doing well at all.

I'm in band-aides. It's a small help desk/store for the music building. It's staffed by people from my fraternity.

University Band tonight. I practiced last night for a while and got some parts in shape. That's the first time I had practiced in quite a while. Drew, my conductor and my honorary little came knocked on my practice room door and was excited that I was practicing. No one in university band practices much-that's why we suck so much. Oh well.

Another paper down-I think I got it-had a french exam yesterday-barely finished it. I'm sticking with French. I only have one more year and then I'll be done. I'm starting to like it. I've finally figured out how to study for it and consequently am getting better grades.

That reminds me, I have vocabulary cards I need to make...

Au Revoir!

:: 2009 11 April :: 2.55am

killing internet dragons

LIKE A BOSS

getting fat loot

LIKE A BOSS

drinkin moon mist

LIKE A BOSS

:: 2009 9 April :: 4.18pm

my cousin who is about 15 years older than me, my dad, and I had a long conversation about farts at the dinner table this afternoon.

:: 2009 8 April :: 4.14am

James Logan and Victor Creed were NOT related in any way.

:: 2009 4 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Lily Allen- The Fear

And I am a weapon of massive consumption/ And its not my fault it�s how I�m programmed to function/ I�ll look at the sun and I�ll look in the mirror/ I�m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner..
maybe i have a higher purpose in life.

going to vegas on tuesday, and planning on getting crazy.

:: 2009 3 April :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Everclear- Amphetamine

She looks so bored sometimes/ She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes/ She looks like she could have been happy in a better life...
She came out west to find the sun
She lost her name but found a new one
Amy goes to school all day
But at night in the neighborhood
They call her amphetamine

She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like she used to be happy
With the girl inside

She looks so bored sometimes
She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
She looks like she could have been happy in a better life

She came out west just to break away clean
From her family and her friends
Just a little girls dream
All she wants to do every night
Is sit beside my window and listen to the sirens

She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days

She looks like a teenage anthem
And she looks like she should have been happy
In another life

In another life, ooh, in another life
Yeah, in another life

She came out west just to break the spell
After three long years in a marriage from hell
Six months clean, living sober and right
The doctors tell her everything will be alright

Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright

She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like a magazine girl
She looks like a teenage anthem
Like she used to be happy in another world

She looks like a teenage anthem
She is happy with the girl inside
She looks like a teenage anthem
And looks like she could have been happy
In another life

In another life, happy in another life
Ooh, in another life, happy in another life
In another life, happy in another life

Met her at a party and I took her home
She is the saddest girl that I have ever known
She wakes me up in the middle of the night
Just to tell me everything will be alright
Amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright

Yeah, I tell myself the same damn thing
Everyday
Everything will be alright
Ooh, everything will be alright
Everything will be alright.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

8 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2009 2 April :: 2.35am

I've been feeling a strong discontent ... for people ... for humanity

is this how the tyrants start off? do I become what I dispise?

:: 2009 1 April :: 10.02pm
:: Music: Everclear- I Will Buy You A New Life

They might think you're happy/ Yeah maybe for a minute or two/ They can't make you laugh/ No, they can't make you feel the way that I do...
maybe tomorrow brings good news for once?

not hopeful.

5 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

fishyrere

:: 2009 1 April :: 11.20am

I'm back in Cedar again.... I miss my apartment already.

fishyrere

:: 2009 30 March :: 1.14am

It's not fair. It's just not fair.

:: 2009 29 March :: 12.00am

Sometimes you bite the bar and sometimes it bites you.

runningfreak

:: 2004 14 January :: 1.43am
:: Mood: Ugh

Here We Go Again...

My head is spinning cause I have stuffed it with too much knowlege and I really want to go for a walk rather than sit in the class room listening to the professor yap on and on about the government. All though this class isnt half bad I still want to leave.

I am proud of myself because I was prepared for all my classes this week. I managed to almost eliminate the list I made for myslef on the white board. My next great immediate task is to find something worth eating and run. By the end of the weekend I hope to accomplish the amazing task of obtaining Pokey's registration papers from a man that I consider a great asshole and cleaning my car.

Oh and yeah and boys are stupid...

(sigh) So is life...

fishyrere

:: 2009 25 March :: 2.04am
:: Music: Brand New

"Jesus Christ"

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
'cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

Do I divide and fall apart?
'cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark
And the ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands

I know you're coming in the night like a thief
But I've had some time, O Lord, to hone my lying technique
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up

So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try

I know you're coming for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories
We all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2009 25 March :: 1.17am

I wish I loved to run. Perhaps then I would not be so gargantuan. Boo. I cannot sleep. My moms flies in tomorrow.
B

I cannot sleep

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

6 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2009 24 March :: 6.53pm

stepbrothers is a movie about my brother and I, I am convinced of this

m&ms487

:: 2009 23 March :: 11.27am
:: Mood: anxious

C'est Lundi.

It's the middle-end half of the semester and I can't wait for summer to get here. I feel like this semester had way more work than any previous semester. I'm writing over 16 papers, having over 15 exams, and over 2000 pages of reading (one being an 800 page novel entitled "Middlemarch"). Add to that the fraternity and working twenty eight hours a week; it's been trying.

I have class in about a half an hour: political science. It's about foreign policy, which is alright, but not my favorite. I get to take the better classes next year.

I figured it out, I only have three more semesters left, so it'll be four and a half years in total. I think I'm going to do an internship, too, since I'll be finished in December and Grad school doesn't start until August. I was thinking about doing an internship in Lansing with a congressman and seeing where that takes me. Lansing is only a fifty mile drive from Mt. Pleasant, and a few day a week wouldn't be that bad. We'll see!

For now, things are going good. I'm able to eat again and that's making me gain weight back...not too much, though. I'm still much more little than I was. C'est la vie!

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2009 20 March :: 6.10pm

I am so happy and relieved! We have been hoping and praying for this- roman got the job! Which means 3 times the salary, healthcare for both of us when we are married, his school 100 percent paid for and he can pick his schedule. I am so happy and proud of him. Ahhhhh yay this is such a relief for us

:: 2009 20 March :: 12.57am

saw a guy's truck that had a Stroh's license plate today in Cedar.

FUCK YEAH STROH'S

:: 2009 19 March :: 10.19pm

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2009 18 March :: 10.48am

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so i forgot to write this yesterday... i had another dress fitting appointment yesterday and she changed a lot to my dress ... like a lot of things needed to be doen because i was having the whole back of it changed to like a lace up back instead of the just plain zipper and anyway she got the whole back of the dress done and it is GORGEOUS!! i was so happy. it is so flattering now and i just love it. i can't believe how good the back looks, i was so worried that i wouldn't like it. and then she is changing the sash on the front and she picked out a really pretty champagne color for it, it's gonna look so pretty. and i am so happy my mom is coming into town next week and she will get to see the dress. actually, it worked out perfect because i'm going to get a practice run done on my hair and make up as well an then right after that we are gonna go try on the dress so she can see it and the sash and bust area will be finsiehd by then so i can actually get a good idea of how everything will look.

yeah after seeing the dress yetserday i was in such a good mood. i love the lady that did my alterations, she is the sweetest lady ever. ahh so i'm so happy and so excited for my mom to come up and we can actually get a bunch of stuff done. oh and dottie has a friend who custom makes veils so i am going to look at some on thursday and probably get one custom done to match my dress which is awesome and they aren't expensive, actually less than average cost. it would just be neat to have one that matched all the beading on my dress.

and then stef has my shower scheduled for the 25th i believe so that is exciting as well because everything is coming up so quickly!!! ahh i am just very very happy.

jess is now in the wedding which is awesome, i'm so glad she accepted and wants to be a part of it. all my bridesmaids are going to be so pretty in their dresses that i love. i cant wait to get ready together and be all nervous for that first time that i see roman in the church. ahhhhh

okay i am getting wedding fever and being too mushy so i'll just leave it at that but i just couldn't help it- after seeing my dress it got me so excited. i just am so glad i'm marrying roman!
woo!

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

shannonw55

:: 2009 17 March :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: alive
:: Music: Ben Folds - Landed

Finally
We'd hit the bottom
I thought it was my fault
And in a way I guess it was
I'm just now finding out
What it was all about

We moved to the west coast
Away from everyone
She never told me that you called
Back when I was still
I was still in love

But I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye. I tried"
And I twisted it wrong just to make it right
Had to leave myself behind
And I've been flying high all night
So come pick me up
I've landed

The daily dramas
She made from nothing
So nothing ever made them right
She liked to push me
And talk me back down
Til I believed I was the crazy one
And in a way I guess I was

Until I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye. I tried"
Dragging the sea of a troubled mind
Had to leave myself behind
Singing bye-bye, goodbye I tried

If you wrote me off
I'd understand it
Cause I've been on
Some other planet
So come pick me up
I've landed

And you will be so
Happy to know
I've come alone
It's over

When I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's bye-bye, goodbye I tried
Down comes the reign of the telephone czar
It's ok to call
I will answer for myself

Come pick me up
Come pick me up
I've landed

:: 2009 17 March :: 1.41am