So yesterday..
Was good.
I needed that. A good day off with a friend and a bit of retail therapy, before something of a night out. It was theraputic.

I struck out with this kid named Matt on Friday - it was pretty ghey - so I wasn't feeling too good, miriet?
So after school around 5 I walked to Eli's house. His mom wasn't having a good day either -- it was the anniversary of her marriage. She's divorced now. Poor lady. So yeah. He showed me the stuff he got while he was in Japan over the summer. It was pretty great.

I walked home just before 6 and watched gramma make dinner with my mom. What are we going to do when she leaves? Die, probably XD Yuh. So then we ate and then good ol' Gram, ma, and I went to Target.

I saw Heather! ^^ Yeyyyy! She works at Target. Good stuff. So I found a bunch of the CUTEST beads - colored mini dice, animals, stars, hearts, letters, all sorts of stuff - for a buck a box. Totally stocked up. Kandi tiiime. I looked at all the Halloween stuff and sweet god. Do I love Halloween. It's just so.. great. I bought a couple of black metal lanterns - so cute. Omfg. I love them. I got some black and orange tea lights, too ^^! Yeyy!

So we bought all our nonsense and it was 'bout 10, and we were right near Jade's. So I called her, but she didn't pick up. We drove over anyways and I tried to get in, but it was all locked up. Jade was asleep, of course, 'cause she sleeps all the time, but never when one should. =p

Ennnyywaayyys. I went home. I went on the computer for a bit but I was too bored. 'Bout 12 I went into my room and beaded 'til 1. I made a cell phone charm thing =x It has a purple turtle on it ^^

So I woke up 'bout 11:30 the next morning and got dressed. I ate a couple pieces of toast and we went to pick up Naomi. Gram, ma, Na, and I stopped by the Boynton mall on our way home to get to the Hot Topic 'cause Naomi wanted to try and find a purple corset there for her Cheshire cat costume ( since my party's on the 7th of October ) and yuh. She ended up finding a corset and a dress in Charlotte-Russe -- cutest little things ever. She's so adorable. I love Naomi.
I tried on some stuff there, too, but I'm too fat for everything. It's really depressing.

Anyways. We went home and watched Benchwarmers -- funniest shit ever. I loved it. Afterwards we chilled with the family and then left for the show at Boomers at 8. Chris got us in without having to buy bracelets, but we had to hide our wrists the whole time. We finally decided we didn't feel like waiting until 10 for [dot]EXE to play, so we walked over to Muvico and found Andrea and her boi. We got tickets for The Covenant at 10:45 - so we really could have stayed for [dot]EXE - and took some pictures in the booth. Cutest stuff in the world.

The Covenant was fucking awesome. So. Great. And all the actors were really. Hot. And it was awesome. So good e-----e I would watch that again. A few more times.
It was cool because it kind of interlocked with The Crucible - a play about the beginning of the Salem Witch Trials - that Na and I are reading in english. We're just liek "OMFG, PUTNAM BARN" -- it was great.

We got out at 12:35 and decided we'd have to hang out with Andrea more often 'cause it was a lot of fun. She invited us to go out to eat or something 'cause we really didn't feel like going home yet, but knowing my pole-up-her-ass mom she wouldn't let me do a damn thing like that. Especially since that weekend of mass destruction. She was so paranoid about Na and I leaving Boomers to see a movie. She's liek "Are you sure..? Are you sure you're doing that?" and I was just waiting for her to ask if I was lying.

It's hard not to sound suspicious when people are suspicious of you. It sucks.

Yeah. So we went home and went on a walk for a half an hour 'cause we really didn't feel like being pent up yet. Of course, my mom got suspicious about that, too. I might as well just walk around with a lie-detector hooked up to me so she can see if I'm lying or not. Maybe then she'd trust me a bit more.
I doubt it.

Anyways.

We came back and I beaded for an hour or so, and Naomi worked on her play and then we went to bed.

We got up at 12 and Na went home about 3:30 - 4. I made a shelving unit and cleared out some boxes from my room and now Jade and I are talking about self-pity.

I feel really skeptical right now. Or judgemental or cynical or something. I don't know. But not really.. nice. Maybe.. indifferent.

I suppose I don't care..

I don't know.

<3

Omfg. Jade's hint. XD
Jad: The hint lies between that which is not yours
Jad: That's my hint. =3

Em: Between that which is not mine
Em: God, Jade. WOW. THAT. Is deep.

Jad: Are you teasing me.... T--T
Jad: I tried to make a good riddle.

Em: No, honestly, I'm baffled XD
Em: Between that which is not mine. Sooo.. it's between hot-freshman-Matt's legs.
Em: 'CAUSE THEY AREN'T MINE.
Em: LAWL.
Em: Or someone else's legs for that matter

Jad: Eh... I guess it was too vague

Em: 'CAUSE THEY AREN'T MINE, TOO.

Jad: The item is within your possesion

Em: ..
Em: So if I already have it, then why would you get it?

Jad: No, no, no.
Jad: The hint lies between that which is not yours.

Em: .. WHAT?

Jad: And that which is not yours is in your possesion
Jad: Now your hint isn't as cryptic

Em: Wow. Really?
Em: xDD
Em: I DISAGREE, MY FRIEND.

Jad: Well.
Jad: I narrowed it down a bit
Jad: The hint is in your possesion

Em: That which is not mine is in my possession.

Jad: Mmhm
Jad: It's the hint
Jad: You have the hint

Em: That's the hint?
Em: That I have a hint?

Jad: No.
Jad: The hint, whether you realize it or not, is in your possesion.

Em: Oh, so I liek.. know the hint, but I don't realize it?

Jad: No. You might not know the hint.

Em: Wtf.

Jad: Look back.
Jad: Into times long since past.

Em: It's not clothes.
Em: It's my concert ticket.

Jad: No.

Em: Times long since past.
Em: Are you liek.. Gandalf now?
Em: XD

Jad: She is the sun, and the moon.

Em: Juliet.
Em: But the moon is envious of her.
Em: Sailor Moon.
Em: 'Cause she's FIGHTING EVIL BY MOONLIGHT. WINNIN' LOVE BY DAYLIGHT.

Jad: She is the mother.
Jad: She is the creator.

Em: ... The earth?
Em: GAIA

Jad: Unable to be tamed, is this one.
Jad: Alright
Jad: I'm tired of being cryptic
Jad: That's all I'm telling you

Em: Wtf, no, I like when you're cryptic. IT'S FUNNY

Jad: Psh.
Jad: You cracker.
Jad: I wonder if you'll get this when I give you your present
Jad: You should save this conversation

Em: I plan on it
Em: More because it's hilarious

Jad: Why?

Em: It just is

Jad: Mmkay
Jad: Oh, oh, oh.
Jad: My last hint.
Jad: She is The One Who Is All

Em: WTF
Em: XDDD


Any help? XDDDDD

<3

Character List for The Twisted Teaparty
The Twisted Teaparty is the theme for my sweet 16 ^^ It'll probably take place the evening of September 30th, save the date? Here's the character list, taken and not, and some ideas for the costumes. Each character has an alternate for the opposite sex.

<3 Girls <3

Alice - Moi =p
Alice Sister - Amanda
Dinah - Karina ( Alice's cat )
Cheshire Kitty - Naomi
Mad Hattress - Michan ( I have hats you can use. )
March Haress - Gaby
Miss Walrus
Dormouse - Jenjamin
Blanc ( female white rabbit ) - Lonilu
Miss Pillar - Dylia
Tweedle Dee - Anita ( I have hats you can use )
Bell the Lizard - Sexye Melissa

x Boys x

Alix - Vince
Alix's Brother - Victor
Din - Eddie ( Dinah's alter-ego )
Cheshire cat - Warren
Mad Hatter - David W. ( I have hats you can use )
March Hare - Juliano
Walrus - Eli
Moze ( male Dormouse ) - Villex
White Rabbit - Evan
The Caterpillar - Josh
Tweedle Dum - Ryan ( I have hats you can use )
Bill the Lizard - Bill

CARD SUITS
Hearts:
King: Diego
Queen: Jadera
Ace: Adrian

Spades:
Queen: Natascha
2 of Spades: Ducky
Ace of Spades: Gabe

Diamonds:
King: Nick
Queen: Lindsay
Ace: Kim


Clubs:
King: Chris C.
Queen: Nox
Jack: Uh.. Rachel's date
Ace: Rachel



THERE YOU HAVE IT?! People who KNOW me, have met me, been to my house before ARE INVITED. Leave a comment if you know who you want to be and you'll be added.

<3

OMFG, EDDIE.
Eli: HE'S SO HAWT OMG
Eli: OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

Emleh: I KNO RIET.
Emleh: Lmfao.

Eli: HIS SHARP FEATURES
Eli: CLOTHING
Eli: AND DARK SKIN TONE
Eli: MAEK THE MOST EROTIC MAN MIRITE?

Emleh: AND SUPER GREAT EMO GLASSES.

Eli: YEAH
Eli: FUCK CONTACTS

Emleh: AND GELLED HERRS. OF GREATEST AND DEEPEST NOIR.
Emleh: AMAZING.
Emleh: SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL.

Eli: URITE
Eli: AND HE'S SO AWESOME MIRITE?

Emleh: URITE.

Eli: I JUST WANT HIS BIG FAT DICK INSIDE MY ANAL CAVITY MAKING ME BLEED

Emleh: XDDDD
Emleh: I KNO RIET.

Taking the joke too far? XD Well. There was my eventful after-school-ness. I suppose. I spent like.. two and half to three hours on homework. I listened to my P!ATD CD like.. four times. xDD S'gewd. And I can sing to it. And I like that.

School's good. I like it so far. I know. You're liek "YOO LIEK SKEWL?! SHWAT." but hey.
People watch. Constant friends. Eh, reasonable amount of eye-candy, gets me out of the house.

So there.

Lmfao, I got invited to go to AUSTRALIA this summer. It sounds like a shit load of fun an all, not to mention the credits, but we'd be outside like.. the whole time. I'd probably die. Kthnx.

It probably costs a lot too.

So there.

<3

Scribbles before bed last night.
Yes, so, well. Hmn.

School is starting in two days. And I'm in for it. This will probably be a hard year. And I don't even know what to major in in college. Paranormal sciences? Art? Language? I don't know like.. anything. I'm lazy and self-centered. Indecisive. But perhaps I'm absorbing these things into myself to have limites.

I limit myself a lot.

Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should change. Maybe I'll like it.

Maybe is the key word. It shows my doubt of these new hypotheses. At the same time, it's trying to weaken my limitations. I've already weakened one - my limitations towards other people intimately. And one might supposed that's the first step..? Perhaps I'll meet some one who will break down my other barriers.

I've met people, but apparentally they weren't the right ones. Though I wanted them to be. I thought they could help due to their experience with substances, though I guess - ultimately - I'm attempting to give into peer-pressure by hoping to break these 'barriers'. It's expected of me to abuse substances, not really by my friends, but by the youth of society.

But I can't say I am what people expect.

<3