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2005 17 December :: 11.18 am
"I miss ----, I can't wait to see him when he comes home."
.....hmmm....you think I don't think that to myself quielty every night before I go to bed?
because i do.
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2005 11 July :: 8.52 pm
I HAVE A NEW JOURNAL NOW PEOPLE
I wanted to make a fresh start, leave certain things and memories in the past where they belong, new start, so here ya go, add me, i wont be using this journal anymore.
woohu.com/~jes
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2005 11 July :: 6.10 pm
Just got home from the doctor's, and from getting some soup at big Boy to bring home. I have strep throat. *grrr* So stay away from Jess...
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2004 8 December :: 6.09 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Blink-182 "I miss you"
I don't want this to be too sudden, but thank you. In the very very short time I've know you, all my fears of never finding a guy who isn't an asshole, have completley and totally vanished.
Not only do I feel like I have found someone to fu-full all my dreams and so much more, I've got someone I can rely on and trust which may not sound like it means much, but when everyone you've ever really loved or trusted mostly family, has totally betrayed you, it means the absolute world.
I have only known you for a little while and I already feel like the luckiest girl alive. No one else, and nothing else has, and could compare to this. No one else could ever make me feel the way that you do. You really TRUELY, care. You listened to me, and continue to be there for me when I need you. And it'll only get better from here.
That time that I was with you, and I could be with you a million more times like that and it could never change, except for to get better. There's just something competley different about you, your personality, your smell, your touch, you, you're just different. The way you make me feel is totally different, and I don't ever want to feel that way with anyone BUT you. There's a comfort in your eyes that tell sme it's okay to trust you, and something in your coice that tells me this is for real, forever.
I do't ever want to let you down, I only want to make you happy and give you all that I know you deserve. I know you'll be there, to lcing on too when I'm needy and need you, to re-assure me when the world brings me down, tears us down, too hold on to my hand when I'm terrified, to whipe away my tears from my eyes, to be my everything.
I promise you there's no need to worry because I have the best of your intentions at heart. I would never hurt you. I would never lie to you. I would never mis-use your trust, I would never do anything but be me for you.
Things will only get better than how they are now.
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2004 1 December :: 2.04 pm
Thank you Jess,Jenna, and Jess. You three just made my day so much better you have no idea!!! Before 6th hour I was raging! Thank you! I love you guys , I <3 you~!
<3 Jess
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2004 30 November :: 6.56 pm
The COOLEST Kissing Survey! | Created by xoILuvChrisxo and taken 94 times on bzoink! | | What is your name? | Jess | | Age? | 16 | | Ok, so how many people have you kissed? | Not a lot, not a little. | | How old were you when you had your first kiss? | 5 | | When was the last time you kissed someone? | Last night | | By far who was your best kiss? and why? | Oh billy the fire man, Kate knows what I'm talkin bout dontcha ? ;) | | And worst? why? | hmm tony? | | What is the best kissing advice you have? | Start on a lady's neck,it can hook any girl, then she'll definatly be all over you. | | What do you like best when a guy kisses you? | The neck, duh?? Weren't you paying any attention? | | Where do you put your hands when you kiss? | I think it's sooo hot when a guy puts his hands on my neck when he kisses me,makes me feel comfortable and safe lol | | Do you keep your eyes closed or open? | uhh closed like the rest of us sane ppl | | Do you like to kiss to music? | yeah that's hot | | Where is the best place to kiss? | someone place where people can't see | | Are movie theaters good places? | yeah | | What makes someone a bad kisser? | if they drool on you like a cocker spaniel | | Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? | yeah, I kiss Kate goodnight all the time | | Do you prefer soft pecks or intense make out sessions? | neither, I like REAL kisses | | Have you ever kissed a stranger? | yeah | | Would you ever just hook up with someone just for the fun of it? | What do you mean hooking up? Like sex, cos if that's what you mean no, b/c im still a virgin. | | What is your favorite makeout song? | I think it'd be hot to make out to "I will for you" by Monica and i have it in my purse if anyone pulls a quckie on me ;) | | What is your favorite kissing game? | "Spoil Jess with kisses" It's a fun game you should try it sometime. | | Have you ever kissed someone with bad breath? | can't say that I have | | What is your favorite kissing lip gloss? | sour smackers it's the only stuff i like to actually taste | | Do you think kissing is very private? | yes, very private and personal. To me at least. | | How do you feel about PDA's? | Public Affection?? hm...it's okay as long as your not maken out | | Have you ever practiced kissing on a mirror or pillow? | umm no definatly not | | Do you like to kiss in the dark? | yeah | | Do you like eskimo and butterfly kisses? | aww eskimo kisses are sooo cute so are butterfly kisses | | If you could replay one kiss in your life, which one would it be? | the one in my basment | | Which is better:kissing or sex? | kissing, im not ready for sex, and prob. wont be for along time | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2004 30 November :: 5.04 pm
I just did something really really bad...that might come back to bite me in the ass. Ugh!
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2004 30 November :: 1.55 pm
That makes me so happy. you make me so happy. you dont even understand how much that meant to me. I wasn't expecting it at all, and the fact that you went out of your way makes me even more thankful that I can even...connect with you on that level. You just don't even understand yay!!
I can't wait till the play on Thursday :)
Katie, I love you darlin! You are my sunshine!
I hate Mrs. Schaffer..ughhh dumb dumb dumb.
I NEED A TUTOR FOR ANATOMY BITCHES!
babysitting ahhh...no more. I can't handle anymore.
Ohhhh stand by me lol I cannot believe how dumb I am. Stand by me, stand by me.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh please last please last please last.
<3 Jess
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2004 29 November :: 9.26 pm
I thought today was going to be miserable, but after 2nd hour it wasn't all that bad. It was great. After school me and Kate went over to Nate's then, had to babysit from 3:15 till like 8:30 ughhhhhhhh I smell like baby ...baby....baby. Ugh! Their adoreable, but don't listen at all. Finally got home and called Mitch back, and I'm just so happy right now.I hope it stays that way! I LOVE YOU JESSIE GILLETTE YOU ARE A SWEETHEART! I love you Jess WIlde, you are a BOMB ASS PUSSY! and KATE YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE YOU MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN SKYS ARE GREY YOU"LL NEVER KNOW DEAR HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU SO PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY!!! :) *smiles uncontroablly*
PLEASE if ANY one can tutor me in Anatomy, please please please leave a comment or call me 648-3771.
<3 Jess
Leave me a comment if you love me!!!
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2004 29 November :: 2.23 pm
If anyone is good in Anatomy and is willing to tutor me once or twice a week, it would be greatly appreciated. 10 dollars a session, wherever it's convient for you. Leave me a comment or give me a jingle 648-3771.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 6.43 pm
Everythings a bet and I'm the only one losing because no one else could ever win this bet against me. Because no one understands enough to try. Understands that no matter how hard you try, for others , for even yourself that it never works out it never counts or turns out the way you want it too. That somehow you always screw things up, even when you're trying so hard to make it the secret dream you keep deep down, just wishing and praying to come true. When you won't admit it , but you want something serious more than anyone would ever have guessed.
It's a bet, and I wish someone else would try to win it against me. Just to hear the words, I win.
*sigh
No one even possiably understands at all.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 5.03 pm
I hate you for tearing this too pieces just to put them back together again, and who knows if you'll finish the puzzle.
I hate people who smell bad. I LOVEEEE LOVEEEE people who smell good.
I hate the movie King Pin cos Collin is stupid and made me rent it.
I hate that I don't like Anatomy because then I never pay attention. Why I took that class I don't know because it will never help me because I want to be a teacher slash little kids basketball coach.
I hate that this is still my junior year cos I want it to be my senior year soooooo bad! I would do anything for this to be my last year so I can go to CMU and forget high school. I want to go to college so bad cos i hate hate hate!! high school!
I want someone to have and to hold. without getting involed, scared, and running away from it.
I hate my mom and what a terriable mom she really is.
I hate that I ahven't talked to my pretty pussy Jess in like 3 days. :( Where are you pussy???
I hate that you call at the worse of times.
I hate that I can't find a job.
I hate that I can't drive.
I hate that every time I see you I want to smack you for not seeing how great things really are, and how great they could be for you, but I just don't say anything because the thought of fighting with you, again..breaks my heart.
I hate that I have red hair, boo I'm sick of it. and It's "lucious" curls as Andy perfers to call them.
I hate that I'm ACTUALLY wearing the thongs that Joey got my for my birthday lol. What a faggot.
I hate that I've sold ONE add total in yearbook class, and I know how to do absolutely nothing at all!
I hate that I'm obsessed with Rascal Flats and everytime their song comes on I honestly flip a nut.
I hate that school is back in session tomorrow :( ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I h ate that I'm so upset over nothing and sometimes I get so worked up just for the hell of it, and I can't help it and nothing can stop it or make it okay. I just ugh hate it.
I hate I hate I hate kdjfakjdfkasjdf
No one understands how I really feel about anything...because no one knows. I bet my soul..that no one will ever even be able to understand how I feel about a single thing.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 1.27 pm
I'm starting to feel the same way I did when it happened the first time. I don't want to feel like that again. I just want to be happy, and stay that way for longer than a day or two. So please...either be my everything, or just ...leave. For good. I can't handle any ..one minute im here, the next your not. So just decide and leave it be.
I have to go meet some lady at two, because she wants me and Kate to babysit for her. So that should be fun.
I just want it to snow, and for it to be Christmas Vacation.
Ughh..I hate school I don't wanna go back tomorrow.
Jess
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2004 27 November :: 10.23 pm
Willma...I love you with all of my heart. You are my best guy friend that I have or will ever have. You mean the absolute world to me! I know that no matter what you are always here for me, and that you will always care about me. The days where I think things could only get worse you are the only one who can get a smile out of me and make me laugh. You have the largest heart, and you definatly make sure it gets put to good use. If I could give you everything you wanted to make you happy, I would do it in a heartbeat, and I hope you know that I love you from the bottom of my heart and will always be here for you.
*hug*
I love you will!
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2004 27 November :: 10.18 pm
Please don't do this to me again. I can't handle it. I honestly can't...because I could just whipe it off my mind right now..and just leave things the way that I thought they were and move on, get over it, and possiably find someone else to fu full my needs and wished, dreams, and happiness. So don't even do it if you're not going to take it seriously this time....ugh don't. And I can't exactlly say this flat to your face, because I don't know why you even decided to pop back into my life again. YOu didn't give me an explanation last time wheny ou just decided that was it, or whatever it was you decided, leaving me in pain..but this time...I'm not going to let it happen. I need to know what your intentions are NOW, because I can't take another blow to the heart, because it just might be the last one that I ever can actually handle.
.....just please have g.i's. -jess
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