:: 2005 23 June :: 11.00 pm

in the keys untill july 1st

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:: 2005 17 June :: 11.07 pm

got my grades....

-FCAT-
reading- 4 - passed
math- 4- passed
Writting- 3.0 - failed ,gay shit as of this year you have to get a 3.5

Algebra 2 - C .. supossed to be a B but teacher lost 5 homework assingnments of mine.
Personal fitness- B
English- D (supossed to be an F.. i dont know how that worked)
TV PRO- B
Biology-B
Colorguard- A
history- A

so i passed even though i missed a total of about 46 days at the least (depending on what class) i also got all A's and B's on my exams

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:: 2005 1 March :: 3.04 pm

last weekend was great! friday i spent the night at Kts and we had a "girls"night but we ended up hangin out w/ these 3 black boys.. and omg they were sooooo funny ... sat (my b-day) i went to my competition then wess picked me up and we got trashed at his house. sunday didnt do anything but go to kts house.. i was only upset i didnt get to see my heather.. for my birthday my mom got me a mustang.............................Hotwheels lol.. were lookin for a car for me so if anyone knows about any nice cheap cars let me know..i almost got a job but ididnt cuz i cant work every saturday.. my mom said if i can get my dad to help w/ the car she will pay for my insurance and gas for a year and i can get a job and save money then.

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:: 2005 20 February :: 6.31 pm

i hate myself
i never thought i would hate myself but i do. i hate the way my life is going.
i miss hanging with my old friends.
i miss how close me and heather use to be . we were together everyday, we knew every little thing about each other.
i miss having my dad in my life. it was better having him in my life even though everything i thought about him was lies i was still happy.
i miss having that guy friend that i could tell EVERYTHING to.
i miss all my old friends,
i miss my old life,
i wish i could go back to any point in time before this school year because ive lost all the things that made me happy and ill never have the people i care most about back in my life the way they were before because they moved on and seem to be happy .

anyways... update...
i got really sick last week and missed a week of school so i am curently failing 5 out of 7 of my classes... next sat is my bday, im not doing anything for it cuz i really dont give a shit about my bday cuz it sucks everyyear anyways. also have a competition at santaluces next sat. hopefully i can learn all the new shit i missed while i was sick for the 2 weeks that way i dont make an ass out of mysef again.. i dyed my hair a blue black i love it! but i might dye it again soon idk... i might just dye it black so theres no blue. i havent really been doing anything.. i mostly hang out with adam now cuz hes always home and wess is always to busy with kt for me. lol i guess thats karma.

life sucks but you gatta suck it up and deal with it

-michelle

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:: 2005 25 January :: 9.18 pm

finally got my computer to work... first aol didnt work for a week then my computer wouldnt turn on for a week....
im so happy i might be gettin my sisters car in a month or 2... but i cant drive it for a while but im still happy ...

ill update later
-michelle

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:: 2005 13 January :: 11.18 pm

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Disown my parents. Get your resolution here.

haha already did that!

-- so my life is shitty and i didnt think it could get anyworse..... well i was wrong... my mom had another one of her episods had had me arrested for no reason literly...it was kind of funny though because i couldnt stop makin jokes and i pissed off one of the cops it was so funny.... and one of the cops was really cool but it sucked havin 3 cop cars comin to get me.. my mom broke all my bottels my room looks so empty... she tryed to say i cant ever see wess again ...but me and her talked today and its all straight.. but noooo 2 seconds after that more drama had to happen.. i swear everyone is trying to keep me and wess from each other and i wont let it happen....
me and wess are gunna kill andy cuz hes a lil fuckin dick
wess hates my mom and wont come in my house anymore
i hate his mom and i dont wanna see her again

i just want to be happy

-michelle

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:: 2005 10 January :: 3.33 pm
:: Mood: confused

grrr i dont know what to do i want Him so bad why couldnt i relize how much i do love him when i had a chance. ive waited to long and now i dont think he can ever be just mine and i dont want to share him. why was i so dumb. i finally know what love is and its to late. he loves me but he also loves someone else and just knowing he loves her and she loves him hurts so bad cuz i want him!

IM NOTHING BUT A FUCKUP

<3my heart keeps falling faster<3
--Ryan Cabrera

-michelle-
..::no one truly understands how i feel inside::..

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:: 2005 10 January :: 1.18 am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: on the way down/ true

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:: 2004 30 December :: 2.51 pm
:: Music: emienm

:: 2004 28 December :: 4.07 pm
:: Mood: ups n' downs
:: Music: eminem

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:: 2004 19 December :: 9.25 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: radio

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:: 2004 19 December :: 2.44 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

grrrr ... i got erik a jersey for chirstmas and idk if its gunna fit him ... when i look at it it looks really big now! but i had the guys at the store trying it on and i guess it looked ok but they werent the same size as him ... im gunna be so mad if it doesnt fit him cuz its no refunds or exchanges but one of the guys said if it doesnt fit i can bring it back and get the right size but when i went to pay for it the guys said no exchanges... i hope it fits him or im gunna be sooo pissed...


ill update about my weekend later

-michelle-
<3erik

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:: 2004 6 December :: 9.27 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: frank sinatra- i wont dance

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:: 2004 6 December :: 1.45 pm

omg this weekend was craazzyyyy...
fridaynight- went to some kids house is the medows.. had a huge party cops showed up twice nothin happend... got wasted! spent the night at heathers house..... sooo many people showed up mike dean and rj and joe were there. matt weeks was there, and damn he looked soooo good !

saturday- went to the rec then josh nesbitt picked up me heather and brittany and we went to this place that was by the railroad tracks and i got soooo fucked up and eric showed up with vincent.. i had 1 1/2 bars and then like sooo much beer i dont remember the cops showin up at alll and i guess erik made shure i wasnt stumbling every where so we went to josh's house and i passed out in eriks car and wow i was sooooo wasted and we had to wait for heathers shirt before we went home so we didnt get home till 2:30 some how me heather and brittany fit on my lil ass bed.

friday- erik wakes me up at like 8 and he comes over and my mom made us all sit on the couch and talk to her about the night before so i was like fffuuuucccckkkk but i didnt get in any trouble and my mom thought it was funny and she tryed to say my curfew is now 11 hahahaha shes funny .. brittany got picked up and went to DD yummm yumm lol brittany was in there.... then erik went and gt vinny and came back to my house and i got in the shower and we droped heather off at KT's and went to the beach and then went to the pool and then to vinnys and me and erik passed out in vinnys bed for like 2 hours then went home and passed the fuck out and my mom couldnt wake me up so i didnt go to school today cuz my mom couldnt get me awake and in like an hour i have to go to the docs! scared shitless .. then have to go to the school for practice till 9 so its gunna be so gay.....

i dont remember half of saturday night i was told what happend and then yesterday seems like a dream and my dreams last night seemed soooo fuckin real!


- michelle-
<3 Erik <3

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:: 2004 20 November :: 12.31 am
:: Music: emenems new CD

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