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2006 18 May :: 6.49pm
Yeah, so it'd be wicked cool if anyone wanted to go to warped tour with me this summer...lol!
Tickets are about 20 dollors right now as we speak...!
Think about it...
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2006 18 May :: 5.50pm
:: Music: Daughters - John Mayer
I'm a bitch...oh well...*shrugs*
There's just something inside of me. Just eating me alive. I don't really know what it is either. It's kinda weird I guess. It's strange, I'll feel all happy and junk one minute and then the next I'll be sad and depressed. I don't even know what I have to be sad about. It bothers me. I wish I wasn't like this and I wish it would go away, but I don't know how to get read of it. I really wish I did though. I've been acting so weird lately. Just little things are annoying me. Like, I dont know. Someone looked at me funny today and it just pissed me off completely. I cant fucking stand Lauren. I've been so mean. I don't like being mean either. I really want to try to stop hating people, and to stop holding grudges. It's just not nice and I feel bad sometimes. I think it would make me a better person if I just got read of those nasty little habbits that I have. Habbits was the only word that came to my mind to discribe them. I dont know. I just know I'm not too nice of a person and I really should start being a little nicer. I guess it's just something else I need to work on. Good qualities that I should have to have people not hate me. lol.
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2006 18 May :: 2.55pm
damnit! I wish there was something to do today...
I think I have drum lessons at 7 or something..fuck!
If anyone wants to be cool and hang out till then you can call me lol
yup...
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2006 17 May :: 9.44pm
:: Music: sceaming infidellities - dashboard confessional
I just remembered something...my birth is in exactly one month! =) yay! 17 on the 17th! Golden birthday! We should get trashed...! lol!
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2006 17 May :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: errged!
:: Music: Let It Be - The Beatles
Grow up damnit!
Well I just got off the phone with my sister Janis, and we were talking about college and whatnot. Come to find out you cant apply for financial aid if your parents dont do there taxes...well...my dumbass parents sat there and told me to apply for financial aid and they DO NOT do their taxes...! Now how fucking stupid can you possibly be. I mean, I know I didn't know that, but I dont do taxes. They on the other hand do. And if you do taxes (or in their case NOT do taxes) shouldn't you know everything about it and what happens when you do or do not do them? I'd imagine so. Just think if I were to sign up for financial aid with out knowing that, I could have gotten them into so much trouble. Now, I'm not one to be really sympathedic as most know, but they are my parents and I love them and whatnot. I dont want anything extremely bad to happen to them. But I kinda with the whole saying "What you get is what you deserve". I dont want anything to happen to them, but if they get caught and come crying to me, I might just have to blert out a few "I told ya so"'s or something. Because, that's really stupid. I mean you'd think after 45-55 years of living, you'd decide sooner or later that it's time to grow up. Take life to the next level and just be a tid bit more mature. I mean, I'm almost 17 and I'm starting to realize this with it being our seniors' last day and all, I realize that I'm going to be a senior soon and I'm going to have to start applying to colleges and all and that I just have to get my act together here. I've gotta just stop skipping class and stop procrastnating and all. And I'm still young, my parents have had all of their lives to realize this BUT...they still haven't grown up. Sometimes I wonder if they think they are still young and invinsible...welp, they're not!
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2006 15 May :: 8.32pm
:: Music: Night Drive - All American Rejects
So, we had dance try outs today...I didn't make it. Yeah...fucking sucks. I'm still pretty pissed. But..oh well. Somethings just happen for the best. I'll have more time to work and whatnot. I think I'm going to just take dance classes at that place in Cedar or somewhere maybe. I think that would be alot more fun. I'd learn alot more cool stuff and fancier tricks and whatnot. Yeah...*sigh* I still wish I made it though. Last season was a buttload of fun. I'm going to miss it. But the best is yet to come, or atleast I keep telling myself that...I've been saying that for quite sometime now. Maybe I'll prove myself right pretty soon here. lol.
Yeah, but last weekend was a whole lot of fun, hopefully this weekend will be as well. and then the weekend after if i dont have too much fun stuff planned with mindy or anything I'm thinking of going out dancing with some of my friends, should be fun. And if not, I'll make sure everyone regrets not giving me a good time...lol!
Mindy and I desided that we are pretty comical people. We're going to starting writing down the quotes that we say because we got some real real good ones! lol!
"She's so stupid, it puzzles me that she's still alive!" - Mindy
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2006 13 May :: 3.01pm
Two words that pretty much describe all of last night...
"Fuck It...!"
lol! It was a whole lot of fun. I can't wait for next weekend!
Things really seem to be looking up and I like it...=)
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2006 12 May :: 9.25pm
Oh my god. I'm crying right now. For those of you who didn't think Eddy could cry, Im am now proving you wrong.
My dad brought our dog in today and had him put to sleep. I don't know why. And the worst part is he didn't say anything to any of us, and I've been at school and work and my mom's now, and I didn't get to say goodbye to him. He took him in while everyone was gone. I'm really upset.
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2006 12 May :: 3.12pm
:: Music: On Step Away - Fricken A'
doop doop doobity doo...
Well, it was an okay day I suppose. Nothing too awesome happened.
Hopefully tonight will be a whole hell of a lot of fun. Tomorrow night too. Hopefully I can go. I'm pretty sure I can though. I just have to clean really...lol. But yeah. If I understood that conversation right, tomorrow we're going bowling...? I don't know. I just follow sometimes really.
Shit! I have a paper I have to type before I go anywhere or do anything...FUCK!
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2006 11 May :: 6.40pm
:: Music: Jesse's Girl - Fricken A'
YAY!!! I found my Fricken A' CD!!! =)
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2006 11 May :: 5.04pm
:: Music: Kyle Quit The Band - Tenacious*D
I can't find my Fricken A' CD...=( damnit...
I dont really have anything to say, I guess I just wanted to make sure you guys knew that I was alive still.
Still living and breathing...
"What we gonna do with all the cash? Smoke Hash!" lol I love tenacious d!
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2006 10 May :: 6.50pm
:: Music: One Way Ticket - The Darkness
Damn, I really hate when I get that weird kind of attention. The kind that makes every worried about me. I don't like people pittying me. I don't like sympothy. I do like good advice. But not being worried about...
*emo sigh*
But I suppose that I am the one that instagates it...*shrugs*
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2006 9 May :: 8.28pm
:: Mood: damnit!
:: Music: shit!
fuck!
Don't ask me why I keep doing this to myself. I don't even know...and it's really starting to eat at me...
errg...!
Fuck me!
I'm a dumb bitch sometimes and I hate me for it alot...
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2006 8 May :: 9.42pm
:: Music: Elvis Presley - She's Not You
I'm so happy my Elvis CD works! YAY! Things are getting better and better little by little! =)
Going to the mall tomorrow with Mindy, Kelly, and Kevin. Should be a good time...or else I'll kill you all until you're dead...
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2006 7 May :: 10.09pm
pretty fun weekend I guess you could say...
hopefully next weekend has just a tid bit more excitement...
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2006 7 May :: 5.44pm
Watching 'The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen'. Noticed again the character named "Dorian Gray" Which clicked in my memory the James Blunt song "Tears and Rain". Sample of the lyrics below. I remember hearing that song, and thinking I had heard the name before, but couldn't think of where or what it was. So I looked it up. Good ol' Wikipedia. Dorian Gray is a character in a novel written by Oscar Wilde The Picture of Dorian Gray. It's a really interesting story actually. =)
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
Now I feel like looking up the other Characters
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2006 7 May :: 2.33am
Well, work tonight was interesting again. I had to close by myself for the first time. I don't recommend it. I was getting peeved at people. One guy came up and asked for a whole pizza and I just told him that we ran out of dough, because I did not want to make it. I had not the time nor energy. During closing time I was mopping the floor and Wayne was playing Eminen's "shake that ass" song really loud in the bar. This one guy, with a group of people walks by and says "shake that ass for me" And me, thinking, (more like hoping) he wasn't talking to me, just kept mopping, not even looking up. Then of course, my fear was confirmed when he says "or just keep mopping" To which a girl in the group begins to laugh at hysterically, all the way until they got out of the door. Probably even longer than that, but thank God I couldn't hear her anymore. It really wasn't that funny. I think they might have been drunk, the guy at least, the girl looked like she was only 17 or so. Got a check today that I didn't know I had. That's super cool. My legs and feet are gonna fall off I think. They hurt real bad.
I stink.
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2006 5 May :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: cold and lonely
:: Music: Catholic School Girls Rule - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Brr...
It's cold in my house.
And lonely...
I'm pretty cold and lonely right about now...
I think I'll go heat up my room and watch Wayne's World with my doggies...that sounds good to me! *thumbs up*=)
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2006 5 May :: 7.52pm
Hey guess what everyone?!?! That's right! You got it! More StacySydneyJessicaAmanda movies!!! YAY!!!!!!!
We Hate This Fucking Bitch
The Tape
Whatcha Gon' Do Wit All Dat Ass?
Sorry no updates on the date yet. I know you're all dying to see the next in that series. It's coming soon, I promise!
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2006 5 May :: 3.02pm
errg...my mom is a meany weany sometimes. I can't go to the movies because she's homosexual...::mad face:: grr..!
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2006 4 May :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: eh...confused in some way..
:: Music: Fire, Water, Burn - The Bloodhound Gang
So I got my hair colored today and cut. I kinda dont like it now. I liked it at first but when I got home and looked in the mirror...It's just very very...red! =|oh well...it's just hair I guess...what can ya do?
After gettin' mah hair did...Kelly, Mindy, Eddy, Kevin and I all went to buffolo wild wings or whatever. I wasn't too hungry because Ash and I ate ourselves silly at McDonalds so yeah...Kevin ate and payed for my food...haha!
I skipped golf again today. She's going to be mad at me. Oh well...golf sucks..
I think Gravid, Kelly, Mindy, and I are all going to the movies tomorrow night but I dont know if I can or not. My mama is a bitch every now and then. I have a fucking family reunion on Saturday. Mindy you should go with me! lol! That would be awesome.
hmm...yeah. I don't know. Things are weird sometimes I guess but all you can really do is shrug it off and forget about them...*shrugs and forgets*
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2006 3 May :: 3.19pm
:: Mood: pissed with a passion
AGH!!!
So I just got my first speeding ticket no more than 30 minutes ago...! I was doing 69 in a 55 zone but he only marked me for doing 60. Probably because he saw the look on my face when he told me that my licence plate number didn't go to my car..it went to my mom's old car. And to top it off, my mom never put the new proof of insurance in the car it's still on the refridgerator. I'm so mad. I told my mom that I would pay for the speeding ticket and that was fucking it! I was almost in tears when the cop told me that. I thought right away that he was going to assume that we stole the car and then tow it away...I'm so fucking pissed. I cannot believe how ignorant my parents can be. And they will sit there and tell me for hours at a time how irresponsible I am and how I'll never make it on my own and whatnot. Then shit like this happens that completely shows they can't take care of themselves let alone their 16 year old daughter and they just kind of shrug it off and blame it on someone else. God do I hate that...So now I can't drive until my mom goes to the secretary of state and the court house and gets everything cleared up, IF she's grown up enough to do that on her own....!
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2006 2 May :: 9.07pm
okay, I lied...one more thing to say...
Do you ever just wish very very bad things upon people you don't even know? Like, you've never even met them, but they have something that drives you crazy or something that you wish you had so much that you just wish they would die so it would be yours...yeah, I'm crazy...BIG DEAL!
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2006 2 May :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: Emo-licious
Hmm...I just don't know what to really say anymore. It's not like things are terrible right now, I just keep expecting things to get better soon and they don't so it brings me down and I don't really like the feeling of being down all the time.
I really cannot wait until summer! School is stressing me out so bad..I absolutely hate it. Everything about it makes me not want to go more and more everyday. I find myself getting irritated with everyone that I see. The teachers, the people, and even some of my friends. I can't stand it. I'm on the verge of quitting golf. Noone ever wants to go to the meets or to practice and when I don't want to go to a meet, everyone freaks out on me. It really annoys me when I get yelled at for really gay shit.
I find myself missing people awhole lot lately. Like Brixon. I haven't seen him in forever it seems like. And granted I did get sick of him towards the end, now I miss him so much I don't know how I was able to say goodbye. I never realized how good of a friend he was to me. One of the best friends I'll probably ever have...and I highly doubt I'll ever see him again..and that makes me sad.
I've been missing Sona alot too. Like, it kinda feels like it just hit me that she left though she's been gone a year. It's weird when those things happen to you.
I just don't really know what to do with my emotions anymore. People have told me I don't express them very much and that I should more often but then again, I don't want anyone to not want to talk to me either. I just want everything to get over with so I can just have some time to myself to think about things. I feel so messed up lately. I find myself wanting to beg for former people to come back into my life. And that's just not fair to my feelings or theirs because I know even though that's what I think I want now, it's not going to be what I want for much longer. I just wish I didn't make things so complicated all the time. I frustrate myself. *shrugs* oh well, what can ya do?
I have a hair appointment on thursday. Mindy and I are hanging out and we're getting our hair done. Granted she's scheduled for 3:15 and I am scheduled for 6 lol. But I'm going to get it layered and dyed. I am excited. I need some change around here...
*emo sigh* Well kiddies...that's about all the bitchin' and moanin' I have left in me for tonight sooo...TATA!
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2006 1 May :: 4.11pm
:: Music: Possum Kingdom - Toadies
I realized today that I daydream alot. And alot of it is about things that I want to happen but I know they wont. I need to grow up soon. Just let things go. I hate thinking, but it seems to keep happening and I dont know what to do about that...geesh...
I'm hungry, I love food. I love food almost as much as I love Mindy...lol!
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2006 30 April :: 7.33pm
:: Music: Emily - From First to Last
I just slept for two hours. I feel exhausted now but happy that I did that. I want to go back to sleep but if I do I'll miss Desperate Housewives...and I just cannot let that happen to me. *emo sigh* I woke up, and my pillow was soked...I guess you just shouldn't always sleep with your mouth open or something...lol.
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2006 30 April :: 1.45pm
:: Music: Saints and Sailors - Dashboard Confessional
Well, prom was fun...both of them. The after parties were fun. Friday night was a little too much for me though I guess...lol. John explained to me though, you're stomach is like a dance club. When you get all these clowns, russians, and mexicans in there, it's not a pretty sight. Because they start dancing crazy and fighting and then the bouncer comes in and says "Okay, everybody out..!" lol. I love John...
Welp, that's my weekend in a nut shell I suppose...
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2006 30 April :: 1.09pm
:: Music: The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine
And post-euphoric depression sets in...
You wouldn't care if you ever saw me again, would you.
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