.:love:.

:: 2004 14 December :: 8.03pm
:: Music: Acid Rave Mix -- burnt by Jade

Nothing But a Day
To the tune of Something in the Way by Nirvana

My eyes have seen too much
and my
brain has decided not to

My love has called it quits
and I
need a new retreat to

Keep me from myself
and my
self-hating feelings

{chorus}
No one here to stay
But you
Nothing but a day
Yeah
Nothing but a day, here, too
{/chorus}

All my life is void
and I
think null is in order

Hate is all I grasp
and your
love is lighting my needs

My new soul has emerged
though my
encasement is crumbling

I hated all this life
but you
still take time to talk to me

I wish I saw your heart
beacuase
mine is much more open

:chorus:

My love has no more life
but you
could have seen it sooner, too

:chorus:

>>;; YEah, I know, teh stupid ^^; LOVE YOU!

"I wanna say hi!"
"" You've said hi 5 million times!""

For me

:: 2004 9 December :: 5.08pm

Teh Yawn
Mmf.. ._.;; Not done with project quite yet. It's due tomorrow. I think I'll get it done by myself, without that good-for-nothin's help. Mike, if you didn't know. Hehe, today was silly ^^

I got these wife-beater type shirts last night and pulled one on, and ask just about anyone, they're freakin' dresses on me.

Very fitting dresses which I'd never wear infront of people unless it was as a sleepy thing and even then I'd be wearing pants under it, but still a dress.

It's a man's medium, and it just about reaches my knees..

Aren't I a sad, extremely little person? Oh well ^^ COMFEH! Maybe I could finish by seven and go to U Turn! AHHH! I hope so! I better keep working xX; What'd I come in my room for again? LATER!

".. pfft."

:: 2004 7 December :: 10.29pm

..?
0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0

My user name makes a blue font.. Odd. <<

3 hugs | For me

:: 2004 7 December :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: Yey?
:: Music: King Diamond -- Them

Wo0t
Okay, well, it's Tuesday, and I've been good. I'm still kinda tired, and I don't think I should have eaten that Bobka bread Xx;; It was, like, really old.. I haven't done my cards in a while, and I gotta make an icon for this month's layout.

Speaking of this month's layout, how ya like it? Not too shabby, eh? Encorporates red and green, and HIKARU, teh h0tness ^^

I'm missing, like, a lot of my lower eyelashes on one of my eyes.. it's kind of odd. They're really short, for some reason.. Guess I'll just have to wear eyeliner until they grow back.

Now only if I can remember to do that when I wake up.

I went to school in my pajamas today, but I kinda wished I looked at the back of my legs or brought a sweater. We had testing, so I was fucking frozen. Not to mention, I found later in the car home that the backs of my thighs look really gross if I don't shave them right.. So yeah, note to self, do not neglect thighs. >>!

XD

I'm a loser.

I've been playing Neopets and stuff. That's just how I am, I guess.

Christmas is coming up.. I need to know what everyone wants. Leave me comments on that, please? Even you, Keith =p

Yeah. Yeah.

BAI! <3

"... Then God made the rifle for man to fight the dinosaurs.. and the homosexuals"

P.S. I have nothing against homosexuals. Or dinosaurs, for that matter.

16 hugs | For me

:: 2004 5 December :: 6.10pm
:: Mood: Tirrrrred

This Weekend
Well, this weekend was spectacularly overflowed..

Friday:

Got home from school and prepared for the Up-All-Night. Which was awesome. I got there at nine and met up with Jenn and Diego. We played video games and pool, Dodgeball and then Capture the Flag. After capture the flag (it was about midnight) we went bowling until about 2. From there we went to Game Works in Sawgrass for who knows how long, but lemme tell you..

Never go ice skating in the early morning.

You will freeze, catch hyperthermia, and die.

I was SO.. COLD. Even ask Diego! I was wearing his trench coat and everything! On the bus home (well, to Krispy Kreme) I pretty much slept on him 'cause he was heling me be warm T.T;; THANK YOU FOR NOT LETTING ME DIIIIE!

XD; I'm a loser, but it's okay. Sooo we got Krispy Kreme, went back to the church, and mostly everyone was gone by 8 am. Diego and I dissipated at 8:30, 'cause we're cool guys.

Saturday:

After I got home at 8:30 am, I slept until 2 pm (I only woke up 'cause my mom called) so I got up from then. April called, wondering where I was, and I told her that I was going to Asja's birthday and would be there about 5. (I forgot that Asja had cancelled for Saturday)

SO I got up more, did laundry, took a shower, packed a bag, and I was off.

I got there 5:10-isherr and everyone that was going was there, these included:

April (duh, her party)
Laila
Chris
Some-guy-whom-I've-forgot-his-name-but-he-was-ticklish-so-he-was-fun
Igore

Hehe... Igore.. xD I think Igore was probably the hottest guy there and he has the most degrading name because it's linked to Dr. Frankenstein's hunch-backed henchman. Ah well.

We played Uno until we ate hamburgers, from there playing Scattergories and into Monopoly (though Laila and I continued with Scattergories) Then it was time for Man Hunt. Which really sucked, but it was fun anyways. I freaking tackled Chris 'cause I was trying to get to base as he was and Igore or some one was right behind me to tag us and I tripped and BLAM! BODY SLAMMM! XD

So yeah, that all was fun. Then we watched Scary Movie 3 and the boys went home. Laila, April, and I camped in the tent they'd set up for the sleepy place, though we soon learned it would take a while for us to go to sleep. Every little noise sounded odd and uncommon and Laila had to explain each one and what it was to April and I before we could calm down about it.

Needless to say, there was some going back and forth. Bathroom visits and the like. Then we had to close the gates, so we closed the one on the lit side of the house rather easily, though the other side of the house hadn't any lights at all. April's flashlights were dead so we lit candles (old-school, yo) and quickly closed the dark gate.

It was silly.

We brought a radio into the tent and we all went out like lights.

Sunday:

We woke about 10 and I called my mom, she telling me she'd come at 10:30, so i cleaned up the blankets in the tent for April and went inside to wait for my mom with the familyyy.

She came and I went home and changed slowly into the day's clothes, then went bowling, because it was Zach's birthday. I got there a little bit late and they were already playing, so I waited. Zach's birthday crew consisted of:

Zach (of course)
Some-other-girl-who's-in-band
Donovan (who's in band)
Bill (who's in band)
Dustin (who's in band)
Giles (who isn't in band)
Miles (who's in band)

Yeap, pretty crazy. We had fun, though I am and was extremely whiped. Giles kept messing with me, ugh, that English flirt, and we were attacking each other with popcorn. David was bowling with Carl, so when he came around, it was pretty much time to go.

So my mom picked Dave and I up, we stopped by the grocery store, and here I am.

Tired as hell.

Laila sniffs doctors. ^^

BAI!

"... so he tried to say butt munch backwards and said.. CUM TUB! HAHAHAHHAHAHA!"

3 hugs | For me

:: 2004 2 December :: 6.52am

Befo' school.
Ugh.. ow.. T.T;; Midol?

Love you and stuff >>

2 hugs | For me

:: 2004 30 November :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: Yeeey, achievements
:: Music: None ^^

Womgwtmlbbqasgb!
So.. tired T.T;; I got home and helped my mom with some chore-ee things so I can earn a bit of Christmacash. AND! OmG, you're going to be SO proud of me..

I PLANTED SOME GREENERY!

For those who don't know, I'm deathly afraid of bees and just hate outside in general. So being in one place, outside, for more then 10 minutes is just.. amazing. ^^

So yey!

I didn't draw a card today, I guess I can now.. I just need to know where my book is.. Or find my mom's again.

So yeah. Today was good. Not much to tell you about it ^^;;

Anyways..

That's all I have. LOVE YOU, BAI!

".. P.S. Buig Orf"

3 hugs | For me

:: 2004 29 November :: 3.37pm
:: Mood: Ha ^^
:: Music: King Diamond

Love
I have yet to decipher today's card, which I themed Love. It's the Hierophant, the man who dresses as a woman and is praised in a woman's town for his strength, I think. I don't know where my book went, so I'll probably have to steal mom's.

Whatever it is, it was probably very foreshadowing..

Aw, I can't wait, I gotta go get mom's book >>;

~10-20 minutes later~

GOSH DARN! After all that I forgot the book! It mainly said.. that.. Umn.. I forgot.. <<;;

Wow, I'm good.

I have nothing more to say

Do
Underlings
Commit
Kangaroos?
Yes!

All
Sue
Killed
Except
Dan

Moo
ESP

Only
Uteruses
Tell

XDDDDDDDDD If you get it, you win a inter-cookie! LOVE YOU

6 hugs | For me

:: 2004 28 November :: 2.01pm
:: Mood: Blech

Tarot Cards and buisiness
Today, so far, has been an industrious day for me.. More than I've done in a while. Especially without being asked to. I got up, I put in my laundry, I did the dishes, then the cat box, help my mom put up some Christmas lights in my room, and I just finished my laundry.

I drew my tarot cards to see what's happening.. My present said I'd started many things at once. My future said I'll be cautious and hesitant about something bold. My love said that I'm hesitant for something right infront of me.

I think these cards are true.

I believe in tarot because it centers itself around energy.

I think I need to draw more cards.

For me

:: 2004 27 November :: 9.21pm

I ate..

So much for not eating.

:: 2004 27 November :: 8.49pm

Let it be known: Emily is a horrible person

Also know: Her parents hate her

Know beyond this: No one remembers her anyway so she might as well disappear

Thank you.

2 hugs | For me

:: 2004 27 November :: 7.48pm

Emily..
Emily is:

Fat
Slutty
Stupid
Hypocritical
Poseur
Perfectionist
Hurting her friends
Dramatic
Dramatizing
Sympathetic
Talking about people
Indecisive
over weight, even proven by the government
slutty
slutty
slutty
slutty
valuing her friends over family
self-centered
hating herself
crying
feeling bad
cutting her ankle
pain-intollerant
not really cutting
thinking about doing it anyway
talking about herself because she's a self-centered, hypocritical bitch who likes to hurt people's feelings and wants sympathy so why are you reading this? You're just doing what she wants, especially if you're feeling sympathetic, so stop it

Yeah.. thought you'd like to know..

All this.. all this.. I can't even explain it..

I'm like never eating again >>

Somehow, I think that'd be better

You know it

Shit.

:: 2004 16 November :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: Fleeting/Rushed
:: Music: TV

Wow
So much has happened in the last.. how many, 3 weeks? No, four

Let's see..

-I celebrated my friend's 15th
-I finished my costume
-I skipped out on homecoming
-I had a buncha people over for Halloween
-I wandered around some parking lots for 3 hours
-I had my heart broken
-I made new friends
-I found another
-I crushed on some more
-I saw the scariest movie ever
-I wandered around some more parking lots
-I had a boy sleep over at my house
-I chopped off a lot of my hair
-I now often look like a deranged miniature biker >>;
-I'm considering not signing up for band next year
-I tried out for the school play Arsenic and Old Lace

I guess those are the main points. I think I've gained a couple of pounds, which sucks, 'cause I'm almost overweight already.. I should just stop eating <<;

Doubt that'd work, though xD

I'm gonna try out for this girl's band.. I think I'm pretty much in already since I told her I could sing.

Heh ^^; Silly

I need to go do some laundry, you get me, right? Tomorrow's an LTM and I'm planning on spending some more of the night.. reading o.0;; Since I have to be done with this freakin' book by Friday and I'm like.. chapter 15 when there's 30-something chapters..

Poop-chutes.

Christmas is coming and next week is already Thanksgiving o.o;;;;; I have.. A project and a paper due next Monday and Tuesday, and WOMG! I FORGOT THAT.. rEPORT! 0.0;;;;;;;; DEATHHHH

I better try and do that real quick whilst I'm downstairs. Lets see if I got some pants..

Love you, I need milk, BAI!

"Hi, I'm Emily, are you married?"