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moana

:: 2005 28 August :: 1.44pm
:: Music: Hole - Northern Star

It's cold in here, there's no one left, and I wait for you

Funny. Everytime I get my emotional "feet" under me, my family shoots my fucking knee caps out. Then again, maybe it's not all that funny. Maybe you just have to be there.

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moana

:: 2005 18 August :: 10.46pm
:: Music: Rie Fu - Life Is Like A Boat

Of my many fears, and there are indeed many, it seems the greatest of them is that which the majority of the world seeks. I fear love, so much that my inner self finds the concept not only a mere catastrophe to be avoided at all costs, but perpetually foreign and stagnantly repulsive.

I shudder to think that I may one day find myself trapped within the emotional circus my fellow people long for. My experiences in the past have left me skeptical of love and my once fervent search for it ended in absolute disappointment. What's the use of looking for a needle in a haystack? Aren't there a million others searching for that same needle? What distinguishes me from any of them, some more worthy than I, that I out of all of them would be the one to find it?

Best to roll around in the hay and laugh at myself; have childish fun. Who knows what's to prevent the needle pricking me on the way down? Per chance someone will find it caught in my hair and, daringly, reach out to show me that I have found it, that it has been in my hair all along and that lesser fears, such as my fierce avoidance of those who would search my hair for love, have blinded me to it.

And all it took was someone to reach out and pluck it, hand it to me and smile.

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moana

:: 2005 17 August :: 12.59am

Now the time has come to leave you.... Close your eyes and I'll be on my way. Dream about the things to come...

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cowboy67

:: 2005 14 August :: 3.05pm

click-a-roo!

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moana

:: 2005 13 August :: 1.17pm

Talking about getting fat...

Andy: I got a stomach, it's really gross.

Me: I got a stomach too. Even my aunt noticed it and I think she was kinda disappointed. She might have had her eye on me for her son.

Andy: Ew, that's kinda gross.

Me: I know.

Andy: Thank God you're fat.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 12 August :: 12.08am

alyssa
august 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

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cowboy67

:: 2005 9 August :: 2.31am

we are comfortable being uncomfortable.
the thing is, i would rather die because of my body than die because of my brain.

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moana

:: 2005 8 August :: 6.58pm
:: Music: Tears for Fears - Closest Thing To Heaven

Is that Brittany Murphy in the video?

Honey, I'm home.

Feeling good and looking semi-ok.

My headache is dull and my stomachache is fixable and I'm done reading Hitchhiker's Guide and it is funny.

Also, Danielle, I found Reading Lolita in Tehran in Dubai and bought it immediately, although I won't have time to read it for a while. Do encourage me though.

I also found The Rule of Four, which is described as "Da Vinci Code for people with brains" so I like it already.

Movies, movies, movies. Big Fish, Snatch and Gia. All beautiful, some funny and Gia, which I just got done watching, so so sad. I cried. Really.

The plane ride home was interesting. I was sitting next to a girl named Muneera, who didn't like anything I liked and was a generally unpleasant and negatively-disposed person.

And, I met a young father named Hassani at the airport. He was also travelling alone, and was eager to show someone the picture of his new-born daughter, whose name I can't pronounce (it's African). He thought my reading material was too old for me. I agreed. For some reason, it made him laugh, and this is the part where he showed me his kid's photo.

I like that it was a relaxing end to a hectic trip. Somewhere between my aunt being robbed of over half a million dollars' worth of watches and jewelery, my other aunt's divorce, my cousin's wedding and my extreme apathy to most of these occurences, I needed a vacation.

I did manage, however, to steal my cousin Ahmad, the funniest person in my life right now, to go register for my classes. My schedule so far looks like this:

DESI201: Basic principles of 2D design (I seem to have neglected to inform them that I already finished 3D design in my Computer Assisted Design class.)

UNIV101: The University Experience (I know, what the hell is that?)

ENGL101: Composition and Rhetoric (I heard the professor for this course is tough. I'm totally excited.)

DESI204: Freehand drawing I (Uh-oh.)

My fifth course was supposed to be DESI203: Colour Theory, but the only section that isn't already full clashes with my entire schedule, so I'm going to need to sort that out some time soon.

Classes start Spetember 4th. Meep.

After I was done registering Ahmad took me to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Oh. My. God.

Khalas, take me home.

Sooooo, what's new with you?

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cowboy67

:: 2005 5 August :: 2.38pm

THANK YOU

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cowboy67

:: 2005 1 August :: 12.51am

"Until the pain of remaining the same hurts more than the pain of change, most people prefer to remain the same."

- Dr. Richard D. Dobbins

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moana

:: 2005 29 July :: 12.56pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: The Shins - Kissing The Lipless

Well, I'm off to Abu Dhabi for the wedding.

See you in a couple of weeks.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 27 July :: 3.21pm

i had a really bad dream.
it lasted 20 years, 7 months, and 27 days.


cowboy67

:: 2005 27 July :: 11.14am

ATTENTION: MANDI PONZIO
apparently you couldn't see the friends-only entry i posted two days ago that included your icon. allow me to copy and paste:

:: 2005 25 July :: 4.09 pm

MANDI!

okay mandi, sorry it took me a while to get your icon figured out, but my aunt got married on saturday and my other aunt had come in from germany, so we did some family get-togethers and such last week. anyway, you are....

Image hosted by Photobucket.com cathleen the cow! when i saw the cow, i thought of cow country. so, immediately i thought of you, out in rural wisconsin, eating cheese and blue moon ice cream. now, the cow bears no resemblance to your pretty face, so don't get your panties in a bunch. the other characters just didn't cut it -- they were too frilly and silly. i guess what sealed the deal was this part: "She was once in a skit with Telly, who teached her what love means." hmm, i wonder who writes these. "teached"? anyway, i found it rather amusing that TELLY (aka VERSTRAETE) would teach YOU about love. oh, where's an alanis morrisette song when you need it? enjoy the theme, amera.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 26 July :: 2.10am

life and death
if you want to feel.... anything... something.... feel small, alive, lost, or ridiculous.... when you walk outside, before you hop into your air-conditioned, pollution-spewing automobile, look at a tree or a flower or a shrub. notice all of the activity going on around that single plant. flies, moths, butterflies, bees, spiders, etc. are all co-existing on that one area, all going about their business, with no help or instruction from anyone or anything else. these organisms just do. they just are. look at how the world, not the human world, but the earth world - the one composed of lava and rock and limestone and carbon deposits and iron ore and grass and saltwater and pea pods and evaporated water and goats and squid and pineapples and amebas and ants - and observe how everything moves and lives, creates and destroys and re-creates, eats and wastes and starves, flourishes and hangs on by a thread. and these things all just work as they are. they don't need us, or our colleges or our money or our fashion sense or our phone cameras or our jewelry or our drugs.

i was staring at this bee today, and i just relished in the fact that no human being had control over what it did or how it did it or when it did it, and never would. that bee is free. that bee controls so much of its own world and takes an active part in preserving the life around it. all of the creatures around us have continued to adapt to us, the stupidest fucks to ever inhabit this earth, and survive amidst the destruction of everything in their environment. what's the life of a bee like? or the life of a leaf? does a leaf feel it when a giraffe bites down? can a bee smell cigarette smoke?

i find it fascinating. balance. why do people always have to separate gray into two distinct opposites? white. black. why do they have to be opposites? what if they're useless and meaningless things in their ordinary state - but since they compliment each other - when put together, then they become something. what if the sole purpose of white is to create balance with black, and vice-versa? what if black and white are nothing and only exist so that gray can sustain life? it's not about contrasts. it's not about day/night, stop/go, man/woman. everything exists together to create balance, not to create difference or opposition. even while there is day in the western hemisphere, simultaneously, there will always be night in the eastern hemisphere. nothing is ever simply one thing or another, nor is anything ever caused by simply one thing or another; one thing is always a reflection of co-existing complementary things.

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moana

:: 2005 24 July :: 11.42pm

While you are away my heart comes undone, slowly unravels in a ball of yarn.

The Devil collects it with a grin. Our love in a ball of yarn. He'll never return it.

So when you come back, we'll have to make new love.


moana

:: 2005 24 July :: 12.23am
:: Music: Deftones - Bloody Cape

So I was in Zara when...
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last piece, my size, and it's awrinj. i got the message, foofoo.

on other news, look what i found!

http://www.crusadingotter.co.uk/Mr._Fingers.mp3

it's a song about salad fingers! no joke!
want lyrics?
Read more..

oh and i got heat stroke and passed out in the middle of subway!

luckily, barney was there... to drop me.

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moana

:: 2005 22 July :: 10.59pm
:: Music: Jovanotti - Tanto

I just had the funniest conversation of my life with my brother discussing breast implants, hair removal and cigarettes.

*wipes happy tears*

I think once every three or four years you have a laugh this great. I'll cherish this time always.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 22 July :: 1.25am

intay
ilyom ily 3araftich fee kan awal yom ib 7ayati.

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moana

:: 2005 21 July :: 1.14am

If I've ever heard such a load of crap...

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moana

:: 2005 20 July :: 11.45pm
:: Mood: cliffie
:: Music: The Killers - All These Things That I've Done

Yup, it's official.

I'm addicted to Bleach.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 20 July :: 12.18am

the movies danielle has me watch always enlighten me
no life without wife.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 17 July :: 2.00am

YOU make life bearable.





and amazingly fun and beautiful.






thank you.

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moana

:: 2005 14 July :: 12.50am

There are times when I want nothing more than to skip across the globe, giving out flowers and kisses, embracing every sad stranger and singing to every lonely friend.

This isn't one of those times.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 8 July :: 10.30pm

an online advertisement
*background music is cyndi lauper's "girls just wanna have fun"*


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cowboy67

:: 2005 7 July :: 6.48pm

it's odd to feel like you're asleep when you're awake.

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