achoo's Journal

:: 2006 11 April :: 9.32pm

I got a full ride scholarship at Davenport.

I couldn't even breathe.

and I have no idea what i'm going to do.
oh, i forgot to mention.. i can only attend one of the grand rapids campuses. not kalamazoo or anything.
so my plans???

are like messed up

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:: 2006 10 April :: 6.19pm

And in other news... MAJOR apartment hunt today... unfortuatlnleyeyeyeyeye ly by myself because Ro MAN had to work. it was quite a day. driving from 9-4.... i had to stop on the way home and sleep at a gas station for a half hour because i kept falling asleep on the expressway. I think I have it narrowed down to two different ones.... Westchester Woods and our orginal Alpine Village. We will look at them (Hopefully) one final time on Prom day, the 28th because we will not be seeing each other, nor traveling to K-Zoo before that date. It will be another long day.

I need to do some major budgeting and calculating and calling and checking and mailing and faxing and working so that I can do some paying and mailing and giving away money-ing.....

Frustration ensues. But thats okay. Anything to get out of here.

I am pretty sure I am taking a year off. I know that's what Roman is doing. We will be trying to save every penny we can. Then I think I'm going to go to Olympia or Davenport for medical assisting which is not my dream job, but I dont think I have any dream job other than being a mom and the job placement is 99% so I think it is a good idea. If I dont do that, then I think I may actually go to college. I dont know, thats just what I'm thinking. But I'm pretty positive I dont want to do cosmetology anymore. Eh it just doesn't appeal to me very much anymore. Clients and making everyone happy and it's the same kind of shit you have to deal with as a waitress. Acting like you are the nicest person in the world with absolutely no problems just so you can get a big tip and their business in the future. I don't want to do that. I can handle being nice, but OVERWHELMINGLY PERFECT is another story.

I like the idea of having a year where I just have ONE thing going on... WORK. I LOVE the idea of having a year where I can finally enjoy being WITH Roman instead of with him but away from him.

I've never had any time where I could just be with him whenever I wanted. We've always been restricted or away from each other. How great will it be to finally be able to be together every day. Perfect.

*sigh of relief* School tomorrow is not something I"m looking forward to, at all.

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:: 2006 9 April :: 12.22am

I love this song and it is currently my favorite ever. lol

Yeah, Um, I think ima try somthin tonight that i aint,
that i aint neva did before on this one, lets go

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)

Got a lil bit of Blueberry Yum Yum
and I neva would of thought that it could taste this goooooood
Thank God for the man who put it in my hoooooood
Its got me singin melodies I neva thought i woooouuuuld
Im feelin sorry for the homies that be smokin wooood
Chop Chop, break it down for a playa like me me me me me
Im bout to find me a woman that skeet skeet skeet skeet
Ima keep smokin till i reach my peak peak peak peak
Or till im stuck and my body feels weak weak weak weak weak
headed down to the doungeon wonderin, if they got, some moore
and if they dont then ima have ta settle fa some drooooo
and it just aint cool cuz right on afta, ima have ta gooooo
and continue on my mission fishin for tha Yum Yum but im movin sloooow

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high(lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)

Yes, fire fire got me so tired ima stop drop and rooooooolll
With a wet towel under the doooooooor
Dont pass it I cant take it no mooooore
Somebody take a trip down to the stoooooore
hurry please cus i need some snacks snacks snacks snacks
and how long will it take to get back back back back
Yes indeed ima lil off track track track track track
Off this weed and im full of that yak yak yak yak yak
Get on in that stankin Lincoln crank it up and riiiiide
and it aint enuff room to fit tha other chicks inside
Im so hungry wit tha munchies ima eat everything in siiiiiight
Me and my blueberrys together and everythings all right

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its high (its that fire)

Get the propane, rollin thangs and lets blow this place uuuuuup
You already know whats uuup
I mighta have to pay some extra buuuuuucks
But I really dont give a fuuuuuck
Cuz a brotha feels great great great great great
But im barely awake wake wake wake wake
All bent outa shape shape shape shape shape
So stomp on yo brake brake brake brake brake
If u token good, then all my smokas, let me see ya flame
Dont know what ya got but my bag will, put yo stuff, ta shame
All tha different kinds of otha flavors, they dont mean a thang
You cant compare it dont stare cuz i got the ultimate Mary Jane

Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)

.........

doesn't it just make ya wanna?!

:: 2006 8 April :: 10.29pm

Cute huh?

:: 2006 8 April :: 11.58am

blH BLAH BLAH

yeah so yesterday when i was with roman we put a deposit on an apartment. (Alpine Village, Stef. what do you think?) and it's refundable incase in the end we decide not to go with it.

then we were walking down that street that is the KZ mall and there was this guy playing saxaphone and we gave him all our quarters and then we found out it was the "Art Hop" so we had more to do. And then there was this thing at the state theatre it was Sonny Landreth was there. And we had no idea who it was but we just walked around more and then on our way back to the car, this guy comes up and he's like "Hey do you guys need tickets to the show" and we look at him suspiciously and he says "they're free" and I said "are you sure?" and he said "yeah i get them free from work, Im just gonna stand here until someone wants them. It should be a good show" and so I said "sure" and at first Roman didn't want to, especially since we didn't even know who this guy was but I said come on, it's free, if its horrible we can just leave so we went and the first band J.R. Crew or something was really good lol and the guy came off the stage and we were in the front row and he like sweat on us it was so gross lol but hilarious and then we only stayed a little whie for the Sonny Landreth guy. He was a really great guitar player and all the music was really great but we just had to get going because it was so late and there were so many old people standing around us dancing like freaks. lol man they really like their jazz.

oh but guess who else was there- . yeah , MRS MILLARD. haha we didn't even know who this guy was and Mrs Millard and her husband drove an hour to KZOO just to see him lol. So i said hi and I can't wait to tell everyone me and mrs millard rock out at the same concerts. wow.

Then we got dinner and when we were going home, i was following roman to the expressway and we were at a stoplight and these crazy ass bitches in the car next to me start screaming all this shit and saying stuff.. I dont even know I couldn't understand them but they just kept calling me a bitch and screaming at me and one of them in the backseat like stood up and stuck her body out of the car and was like yeah thats right bitch! and all this stuff and I honked my horn to get roman's attention and then theystarted honking their horn and roman got out of the car cuz he was like what the fucks going on and my window is broken so it doesn't roll down and I didn't open my car door but i should have but I was pointing to the side trying to tell roman to pull into that gas station on the corner and he thought i was telling him to get back in his car so he did. and then the next thing i know i look over and this fat bitch is knocking on my fucking window and shouting stuff. I was like seriously what the fuck is your problem. and then she just got back in her car and as soon as i pulled up a little they started doing the same thing to the car behind me. I swear they looked like a pack of apes. they were like howling all this shit. Crazy fricken bitches.

Yeah so that was my day yesterday for the most part.

lol

:: 2006 5 April :: 10.43am

EDIT: I meant to post this 3 days ago lol.

Oh , I'M SORRY....SHOULD I HAVE USED THE CUT TAG?!?!!?!!?!?!?! OOPS.

Part One:
Have you ever had a song written about you? yeah my song from roman on guitar....awwwww.lol
What song makes you cry? i duno. anything if i'm in that kind of mood.
What song makes you happy? my humps
What do you like to listen to before bed? i listen to music all night. right now it's elvis and some other cds

Part Two:
HEIGHT: 5'1 i think
HAIR COLOR: dark brown kinda
SKIN COLOR: eh.. i need to go tanning
EYE COLOR: Blue
PIERCINGS: ears and cartilage
TATTOOS: Not yet maybe later

Right Now:
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Gray sweatpants.
WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? blue sweatshirt .
SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO? where'd you go
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: cereal of course
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: 39 degrees
HOW ARE YOU? well lets just say another shitty ass day down..
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Sometimes in cars
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Yeah

Favorite...
CONDITIONER: dove
MAGAZINE: whatever
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: choc milk
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: long islands
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: be with roman
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Too many but rapper = jay z

Have you:
BROKEN THE LAW: yup
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yup
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: too much
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: all the time bitches GOTCHA
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no only when they let me for their own gas or groceeries
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: too much
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: No.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: kinda
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah

Love: roman
Boyfriend: roman bryan garcia-nastally
SEXUALITY: i like boys not girls
CHILDREN: yeah want em
CURRENT CRUSH: roman
BEEN IN LOVE?: am in
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah kevin lol
BEEN HURT?: yeah
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: probably shoplifting
MADE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no

Random:
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yeah . 2
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: a cd i made and then upstairs is elvis and 2 cds i made
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: sparkle
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being away from daily life
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: roman,easily

Have you ever:
CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: no
WANTED SOMEONE YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE: no
BROKEN A BONE: yeah
DRANK ALCOHOL: Yeah
LIED: Yah
CRIED IN SCHOOL? yeah too much

Yes or No:
You keep a diary: yeah
You have a secret journal: i guess.. i dont really share it with anyone.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: dont use one
You bite your fingernails: i justgot acryillics
You believe in love: yah

Do You:
Take a shower everyday: Almost every day.
Want to get married: Yes.
Think you're a health freak?: Definitely not.
Get along with your parents: no

Favorite:
NUMBER: 2
COLOR: pink.
DAY: sunday
MONTH: duno..july?
SONG: Wayyy too many.
FOOD: edy's mint choc. chip ice cream.
SEASON: Summer
SPORT: b ball .
VEGGIE: duno
FRUIT: apples and bannaasss.
FAST FOOD: arbys prob

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
CRIED? yeah
HELPED SOMEONE? Yeah , kiddies i babysit.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yeah
GOTTEN SICK? kinda
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Yes.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No.
TALKED TO AN EX? No.
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? This one.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU "CRUSH" ON? no
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yeah
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

WOULD YOU EVER:
1. Eat a bug? 8th grade crickets
2. Bungee jump? yeah
3. Hang glide? Maybe.
4. Kill someone? no
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? no
7. Parachute from a plane? probalbly not
8. Walk on hot coals? no
9. Go out with someone for their looks? no
10. For their reputation? no
11. Be a vegetarian? Probably not.
12. Wear plaid with stripes? .
13. IM a stranger? Maybe.
14. Sing karaoke? yeah
15. Get drunk? yeah.
16. Shoplift? I have before, but I won't again... so no.
17. Run a red light? try not to.
18. Dye your hair blue? no
19. Be on Survivor? no.
20. Wear makeup in public? Yes.
21. NOT wear makeup in public? hardly
22. Make someone cry? on accident
23. Kick a baby? no , moron
24. Date someone more than ten years older then you? no
25. Stay up all through the night? Probably

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: none
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: be w/ roman and not have to do antyhign

When / What was the last...:
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: no idea
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today
THING YOU PURCHASED: new shoes cuz my other fucking ones got stolen..
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: i'm half watching this obese story
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: um i dont rmember
WHOS THE LAST PERSON(s) YOU'VE THOUGHT ABOUT?: roman

I AM: in a really bad mood
I WANT: money
I HAVE: no money
I WISH: a million tthing
I HATE: how my life is right now
I FEAR: i'm never going to lose this weight
I HEAR: stupid girls and tv
I WONDER: whats gonna go on tomorrow..
I REGRET: spending all the money i've made over the years.
I LOVE: roman
I ACHE:
I ALWAYS: eat.
I SING: loud in my car.
I CRY: all the time.

WHICH IS BETTER:
1. COKE OR PEPSI: diet coke
2. SPRITE OR 7UP:
3. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
4. FLOWERS OR CANDY: Flowers
5. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN:scruffy only on roman
6. QUIET OR LOUD: louder.
7. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes

Just to piss all of you off. even more i suppose.

:: 2006 4 April :: 10.17pm

come on tap those brakes, baby just one time
well roman IS taking me to prom afterall. HOORAY and we're even doing something really fun and cute on that day too. but i'm not telling you what is until after we do it because i dont want you to steal it. I am actually like way excited for prom now. YAY . i just want everything to get on with.....yeah.

and well besides the fact i still don't have any friends and get ditched all the time and my boyfriend won't pick up his phone....

oh wow! life is great! (Oh, how I jest.)

pics. ...... aren't we cute. yeah , i know.

rockford dam. LOVE IT

aren't these glasses so cute. i really wanted them because they made me laugh.

swans!! i love swans!! so much! he is my friend actually.

psycho and my tongue looks weird.

um i love you dani pie so much. Cant wait for anotehr CMU bash together! April 22nd baby!

Brush em brush em brush em....

thanks for looking at those. will someone make me an icon please of the glasses one? or not. whatever. just THROWIN it out there!

...Jessabess

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:: 2006 4 April :: 2.36pm

omg. i seriously CANNOT stop eating!

honestly. its like i am scrounging around for food like a rat or something. i can't stop. okay. i'm gonna go tie my own hands up so i can't eat anymore.

this is scaring me a little. AH!

:: 2006 3 April :: 7.55pm

i cannnnt stannnnnd youuuuu..

learn to appreciate what you have at your fingertips. BITCH!

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:: 2006 1 April :: 10.57pm

Yeah, so...
I'm pregnant. What a suprise right.

Yeah.. well I figure I'll just do the ol' abort-0..

that'll take care of it. It's too much to handle right now. If anyone has a say on this, please speak up...

So anyway, I worked today. we were slow ... didn't make much money, I have 3 jobs right now and I need to quit one. it is way too hard.

I get to see roman tomorrow which is yay big fun. I dont know what we're gonna do but oh well.

I'm still not going to prom but i get a big suprise date which should be fun. And what else... I am just work work a workin...

Oh, and April Fools. I'm not preggy. Silly goose!

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:: 2006 1 April :: 12.53pm

isnt it the greatest fucking feeling when you realize you have no fucking friends at all, your boyfriend is a jerk ,and all you wanna do is fukcing go fucking shoot yourself in the head but you dont have the guts and you have to work at 5

yeah fucking great. go to fucking hell. i swear all of you.

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:: 2006 30 March :: 11.17pm

thank you to everyone who said i did good at the talent show. shannon said i missed 3rd place by like 3 points so that kinda sucks but oh well..

"I was hungry! Where's my dinner?!" lol..

and La Cookaratcha La cookatratcha.... lol

but i got to hang out with roman all night and he came to the show and it was fun and i just miss him. ugh i just hate like not seeing him more than once every other week. RAR.

but yeah, i'm glad i did it because it just makes one feel accomplished and whatnot. so... yup.

omg and roman was driving me home tonight and there was this bright light and i swear.. we were the only ones driving ... it was up in the sky this bright circular light just following us everywhere we drove... even when we turned on my road it was still following us. i was so scared i was like screaming and roman was freaking out to lol all while keeping his 'manly' stature of course. Only when we turned into my driveway did it go away and i think it's only because of that bright light we have up my driveway.. I duno, but it was like the first time I actually thought I believed there was like a ghost or something. AHH freaky! Seriously!

Oh and ONE more thing. that GIRL -*ahem, ahem ahem* Jess and Lindsey know who I'm talking about- has got the biggest head and today I just told her to shut up. Not really but in a nicer way . Like seriously, what the flip. UGH! I hate people like that. Shut up. You're not as cute as you seem to think you are.

-Jess

:: 2006 30 March :: 7.13am

ahhhhhhhhh i'm scared.

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:: 2006 29 March :: 10.18am

oh and seriously... when did 3rd marking period end? hey, dont get me wrong i'm GLAD it did... but i was completely unaware of it. YEAH for your information, I REALLY WAS. jeez you coniving b8****88*8888*.

:: 2006 29 March :: 10.10am

omg what a humongous b itch. seriously! i hate when you ask someone a question... i didn't aruge or complain or anything. just asking an effing question and she acts like i'm the hugest idiot in the world

I SWEAR TO GOD I F UCKING HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH ... I WOULD SAY WHAT I WANT TO DO TO IT BUT YOU KNOW.. I'D GET IN TOO MUCH TROUBLE. SCHOOL, YOU CAN SHOVE IT..

SEVERAL ANNOUNCEMENTS MY A$$..............

UGAH;;LKFJA;SLDKFJS;LDKJFLKJASLKJSA;LKFJAS;LK I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I'M DOING IT.