today was... different

and i don't really know how i feel about it.
so many things came at me.


i feel happy

i feel.... new



im wearing a big grin.

i feel like no one cares what i say or what i do
or who i am

i feel forgotten

and hated.

i feel judged and i feel like they're all mad at me.




i feel immature and gross.
i feel like a fake.
and i dont want to anymore.

i want to be me
i want to be real.




help.

learn to take a joke.





and stop assuming things about me.
im pretty fucking complicated
and its hard to read me
so dont just go around preaching how i feel
when you dont even fucking know.




but im super excited for thrusday
AHAHAHAHlkdfjslkdfjlskdfjlskd
butterflies
major.

if the answer is no, can i change your mind?



p.s.
Samantha had her freaking baby!
ahahahaha
ima go see it today!
yay!

i'm scared.