i am so tired
and sore

and i dont know why

and im really pissed off.
lets go punch infants.

so i guess i'm grounded for another five weeks.
which is pure shit.

so what, i failed english but im doing it again. im not giving up.
jesus christ, this wont fuck up my future forever.
let me go.

to get ungrounded i have to have a B average.
so i have a B in math and a B in american studies
and i have proof of those grades.
but they want me to wait until winter quarter grades are posted to unground me.
winter quarter just started.

that seems unfair.
or am i just crazy?

maybe im just crazy.

ahahahahaha its not like i dont learn from my mistakes.

i have a quiz in logic today.
and i hope seeing beau wont be akward.
it wont be.
i just have to tell myself that.


i want to see nicole
and katie
and ksanka
and a whole bunch of other people.
and brookelynn :)

so last night, my dad had the "what are you going to do when you grow up" talk with me. im getting kind of sick of these.
so now i have to make a list of colleges i want to go to
and i have to find scholarships and i have to make a plan
and i dont want to.

its a scary feeling not knowing what you're going to be doing for the rest of your life..
and its just starting to sink in i think.

sd uggh

sldjfslj
i want to get away from here
just drive away
get on that highway and never look back.
i want to see it all, i just want to soak everything in and admire the beauty thats around me. see all the things that everyone else is too busy to notice.

and i want to be listening to amazing music while i do.
like elliot smith.

and i know who i want to go with.




[edit]

you have to accept people for who they are
and they decisions they make
you cannot control them
if they have their heart set on doing something, they're gonna do it

its their life, let them live it.

ukhkjhkj

mmm pot stickers

im so glad i dont have english this week.
ahahaha
and i should be ungrounded by tomorrow

yay