*oi*
well i'm kinda getting better, my voice sounds better somewhat...i came to the conclusion yesterday that i'm not going to homecoming...it's kinda ghetto this year anyways...but debated w/ myself bout it & decided that as long as i'm w/ joey i'll be fine...besides that's the only reason to go to homecoming->to be w/ the one you love!...joey asked me what i wanted to do that night & i said it really didn't matter...so he want's to hang out in ec...give me "a real date" according to him...to be honest, i don't care if we hang out @ finley...as long as i'm w/ joey, the night can't be bad...usually when i'm w/ him it never is...besides, according to most ppl, i mind as well live w/ him, so i guess i'm set forever...

*whoa*

that's usually not a freaky word for me...forever...hmm...it's kinda different...i like it though...it seems to real...but that's ok...

i have this fear of failure...i think everyone does...(by the way this thought came out of nowhere...sorry)...i'm truely afraid of college, mariage, & other things w/ this...i disapoint others & myself...i turn out to be less of something i truely could be...*(what the fk?)...(i must stop this thought...sorry)*...

in other news...lol...

i posted up another poem on my other site & the poetry site:

www.blurty.com/users/viking_punk/

http://poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=W1023247&BN=999&PN=1

yeah...the blurty one is where i keep poems & songs i've written...the other one is where i enter in those contests...they're kinda neat so i would recomend trying that...

i want my voice back so fucking badly...*ugh*...it's hard to not talk & sing & shit...i really need it for tomorrow's radio show...well, denisse has been doing really good on the show, so she'll take over again...lol...i think we could do so much better w/ it, but i don't think we can put in much...as long as we try though, we'll be ok...

i just noticed this is an unusually long post...DEAL W/ IT!

*back to you in the studios becky*

thanx ;)

jezz, wtf is up w/ me today?...maybe cuz i'm tired & shit...my lordy...

*eek*...danny's online right now...not on msn, but yahoo...i've asked ppl if they thought i should talk to him...i'm kinda scared, but i'm probably not going to...what do i say?...when this started i blocked him cuz i was scared...i unblocked him but i think he blocked me...cuz he hates me...jeez...& some ppl i'm talking to right now are kinda making me feel like shit bout this whole ordeal...whatever...i think i'm getting the balls to say something to him right now...h/o...
damn nothing...fuck it...i tried...*sigh*...

well i think i've taken up enough time from everyone...talk later...

here's something i haven't said in a while...

I LOVE YOU JOEY W/ ALL MY HEART!

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