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acidtears

:: 2010 20 September :: 10.01pm

Wooo! Got my Marilyn Monroe dress and shoes!

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acidtears

:: 2010 9 September :: 10.41am

And I wonder
Day to day
I don't like you
Anyway

And I don't need your
Shit today
You're pathetic
In your own way

I feel for you
Better fuckin' go away
I will be here
Better fuckin' go away

And I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
And I'm doing the best I ever did

And I don't need to
Fantasize
You are my pet
All the time

And I don't mind if
You go blind
You get what you get
Until you're through with mine

I fuckin' feel for you
(Better fuckin' go away)
And I will be here
You better go away

I feel for you
(Better fuckin' go away)
I will be here
You better go away

And I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away


acidtears

:: 2010 15 August :: 12.54pm

You're free to leave me, but just don't deceive me, and please... believe me when I say, I love you

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acidtears

:: 2010 15 August :: 12.13am

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you I love you until the end of time
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may come what may
I will love you oh i will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day

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acidtears

:: 2010 3 August :: 11.21pm

A guy called me a bitch at work today. He looked 16, didn't have an ID so I didn't sell him chew. So he called me a bitch. And I don't know why, but I laughed like it was the funniest damn thing I have heard in a long time.

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acidtears

:: 2010 2 August :: 5.05pm




I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

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acidtears

:: 2010 1 August :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: amused

Adam Lambert has been like crack for me the past week.

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acidtears

:: 2010 31 July :: 3.58pm
:: Music: Lily Allen

I could say that I'll always be here for you
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do
I could says that I'll always have feelings for you
But I've got a life ahead of me, I'm only twenty two

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
And now you've gone it as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

You always made it clear that you hated my friends
You made me feel so guilty when I was running around with them
And everything was always about being cool
And now I've come to realize there's nothing cool about you at all
Lily Allen Lyrics on www.lyrics-celebrities.anekatips.com

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
And now you've gone it as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

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acidtears

:: 2010 31 July :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: accomplished

Moving on, and it feels good. :)

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acidtears

:: 2010 27 July :: 11.31am

Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

I'm so stubborn
It's how I got here
So alone
Feels like forever
I wanna swim away
And breath the open air
But I feel so afraid
Then I hear you say

Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

I'm so hungry
How can I stay here?
I'm starving
For what I hold so dear
Like a hurricane
It takes everything
From me
Wake me from this dream

Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

Hang on
When you're barely breathing
Hang on
When your heart's still beating
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

Three days
Or thirty years
So hopeless
It doesn't matter
Don't say it's too late
If you blink your eyes
The sun is rising
The sun is rising

Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

Hang on
When you are barely breathing
Hang on
When your hearts still beating
Hang on
Just don't ever let go

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acidtears

:: 2010 26 July :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: drained

shfxnvmxasjf....i don't even know.
The new job is going good. I am working everyday this week except Thursday. The only bad thing about this job is being on my feet all day. I'm getting used to it though. It never fails, the gas station becomes empty, so I go to sit down, and as soon as my ass touches the chair, there's a customer. I have phrases like "Have a good Day?", "How are you?", and "Credit or Debit?" stuck in my head. I dream in PLU numbers. But, I do not regret starting there. Everyone's friendly, my boss and co workers are awesome and hilarious. It's very laid back. I like it. It's easy. But, first thing I need to get is my driver's license, then GED, then save money for the tattoo job next summer. And eventually, once all is taken care of, start looking at apartments. But, it's going to be a busy week. Luckily tomorrow is going to be very easy. My shortest shit yet will be tomorrow, only 2 hours. Not bad at all. My downtime consists of talking about booty calls and other dirty things with my boss. Love it. But, better get to bed. See ya.

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cjessicapyne

:: 2010 26 July :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: calm

Hey there to my future-self, if you forget how to smile
I have this to tell you,
remember it once in a while:
Ten years ago, your past-self prayed for your happiness.
Please don't lose hope.

Oh.
Oh what a pair me and you, put here to feel joy; not be blue.
Sad times and bad times, see them through.
Soon we will know if it's for real.
What we both feel.

Though I can't know for sure how things worked out for us
no matter how hard it gets, you have to realize.
We weren't put on this earth to suffer and cry.
We were made for being happy.
So be happy.
For me.
For you.
Please.

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acidtears

:: 2010 23 July :: 11.57am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: "Happy" By Leona Lewis

Fucking Doctors
Well, today sucks so far. I kept trying to get a hold of the Gastro office, when I finally got through I learned my Doctor doesn't work there anymore, and they have a note not to schedule me there anymore with anyone. Because I had to reschedule a few times. Excuse the fuck out of me, Life happens. The majority of the time my mom was not feeling well enough to drive me, and I cannot walk to Greenville. Fuck that. Whatever, the nurses and Secretaries there were bitches anyway. So luckily I found 3 highly respected Gastro Doctors that I need to call. I hope they accept my insurance, because I need to see a Gastro Doctor. But, onto another subject. My grandparents are picking me up later and we're going out to dinner, then tomorrow, I start work. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. No, it's not my dream job, but its a job and sure beats the hell out of working at a Fast Food place. I start tomorrow at 2, then end at closing time, 10. So, luckily I don't have to wake up earlier or a anything. Then next week Me and David might hang out, depends on my work schedule and a few other factors. But, I better get going. Bye.

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acidtears

:: 2010 19 July :: 10.52pm

I think I might go nuts before wednesday

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acidtears

:: 2010 12 July :: 5.23pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Ha! Back at square one.

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