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2012 6 January :: 1.27am
My newest amigurumi. No pattern. I'm pretty proud :D
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2012 5 January :: 1.51pm
Seeing the doctor today. Hopefully this doesn't turn out to be fucking ridiculous. I really hate doctors.
I'm in a decently bad mood today. Not sure why, most likely a conglomeration of things from this past week. I'm feeling like a failure before even starting.
And my homesickness has been particularly strong these last few days. I saw seagulls flying against a stormy sky and all I could think of was home.
I just want to fly away.
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2011 30 December :: 2.09pm
grr..
So I have decided to do something about my long-term pain (arthritis, slipped disks) so I can start exercising and get this weight off, thus alleviating my pain. Great idea, right?
Well it's been a fucking ordeal. I was looking up "pain management" on the BCBS website, and all I get are mental health proffesionals. O..K..? So I call my insurance provider, after punching in a million numbers and getting my ear talked off by a machine, I finally talk to someone who's like, "just try Rheumetology". Durr. So I look up that, and after being told I need referals (which BCMA doesn't require) and getting multiple anwsering machines, I finally break down and call Dr. Schuester. I just want to say that my one appointment with him made me extremely wary about seeing him again. Like 10 mins into the appointment his cellphone went off and he never came back and his intern finished the appointment. Awesome, right? So I call them and I have to leave a message. Pretty sure I wont' get a call back until Monday. And even though I said don't call before 11am or after 2pm I'm positive I'll get a call at 8am or 4pm, when I can't pick up or am asleep and we'll just keep playing fucking phone tag.
I hate doctors. SO MUCH.
I just want to get some Celebrex, and figure out what the fuck happened to my knee. That's it. Is that really just too much to ask for? Honestly? You're getting paid through the nose, why wouldn't you make yourself more available to people? More patients means more money, right? Self-righteous d-bags.
alkdsjfla;ksjdflkajsdfl so angry.
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2011 27 December :: 1.53am
EEEE!!!
Sus come home tomorrow!! I'm so excited! I'm making sure the house is nice and clean, that he has everything he needs to relax, and his puppy is well rested for playing! And if all goes well I'll get the 2nd half of Tuesday off to spend with him! And then the whole weekend! And then Winter Wobbleland! And and and! I'm just so happy he'll be home.
I had a great day with my family, opened gifts, ate delicious food, watched tv and out together part of a puzzle! Then it snowed lots on the way home! And bjorne was such a pill at my parents house, but SO well behaved on the car ride home!
Now I'm just waiting on the dryer to finish the blankets so I can curl up in bed and rest my wary back.
Ahh!! SO EXCITED!!
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2011 24 December :: 4.06pm
In a horrid mood today. I don't want to be at work. I don't want to be home alone. It was snowing, but turned to rain so the drive home? Icy as fuck.
I'm just ready for it to be the 27th. Or the 31st, but I am so over this holiday season. I'm lucky so far that no one wished me a "merry christmas" yet. Blah.
On the bright side I finished my presents for my family. Hopefully they like them.. Sometimes I feel like what I make is just like.. "meh" to them, even tho I put a lot of time into it.
Sigh
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2011 22 December :: 6.29pm
I'm so angry. And lonely. I just want it to be next week.
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2011 21 December :: 1.52pm
It's pretty lonely here :/
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2011 8 December :: 3.09pm
Bjorne seems to be all better, vet said he looks fine, they are doing some tests to check for parasites. He's vaccinated! And yeah.. Crisis averted! :)
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2011 6 December :: 2.14pm
Bjorne is sick :( I haven't seen him eat or drink for at least a day and he threw up bile 3 times this morning.. Going to the vet on Thursday. I hope he's ok. :(
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2011 3 December :: 2.34pm
Girls don't like boys
I haven't spent any real intimate time with a woman since me and Liv broke up. I miss being around girls a whole bunch and I find it next to impossible to meet anyone or find someone who I make a connection with. I don't know what it is, but it's hella annoying.
I'm trying to find a cocktiel pattern to make for my sister. I found a really good one, but I'm not sure if I want to buy it. It's not very expensive, I'm just trying to figure out if I'll use it again. Tho, it could be easily adapted to turn into other birds.. So maybe I will!
Bjorne is so cute :3 he just makes my life with his cuteness! I love him to pieces <3
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2011 28 November :: 2.53am
I've started crocheting amigurumi things. It makes me so happy and I feel so accomplished when I finish a piece and it doesnt look like amature night :)
Samie is a new girl at work. She's so happy and bubbly and positive. It helps me feel better about the stupid crap. I know we aren't technically friends, and probably never will be, but it's nice to have an upbeat influence in my life.
Really not looking forward to Xmas. Sus will be gone and all my friends live too far away.. It'll mostly be me n Bjorne and that makes me sad. I'll miss Sus :(
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2011 19 November :: 4.52pm
Really? Sometimes all I can do is shake my head.
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2011 17 November :: 8.50pm
Fuck me red
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2011 15 November :: 2.26am
After a horrible start, my day turned out pretty good! I cried on the way to work and by the time I left I was laughing and feeling optimistic.
I'm going to work on doing things for me. Like doing my hair and make up. The little things that make me feel better when I take the time to do it. :)
I can do this
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2011 13 November :: 11.04pm
Going home early from work because I just can't sit here anymore.
The more I look at other people the more inadequate I feel.
I'm ashamed to be me. I'm so boring. Uneventful. Plain.
Feel like icky plain yogurt with no sprinkles or anything.
I feel ugly and obese.
TSUMARANAI.
I'm just so disappointed and disillusioned.
I'm tired and depressed.
All these people at work. They love purses, make up, babies, getting their nails done, etc. And I'm such an outcast. I feel so pressured to be something I'm not. It's a mindfuck. Everyone thinks I should have a baby. Or get a new boyfriend who will want a baby. Or get married. And I don't want any of those things.
I'm so exhausted by all of it.
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