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2005 11 September :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: accomplished
9/10/05 - Randoms
You know me, I will never, EVER post a "mood" as "depressed"... but if I would, it wouldn't be 'blah'. I've been feeling 'blah' since last night... I don't know why, just blah. I don't want to talk, and I don't want to move. Typical scene, it'll end in a few days. I just need to get out of here. Holy crap, Jim just IMed me and that made me really happy for like 2.7 seconds. It's weird that I'm saying I need to get out of here when I "got out of here" last week when I stayed at Laura's for 5 days. I don't know, it's just that sick emptiness... that void that can never be filled unless I'm with my horses or out west on the bulls. Even if it's fear of falling or anger of not making an 8 second ride, it's still filling that emptiness, and that's what I want, and what I need. It's the only thing I can think of that will fill it... nothing else comes close... normally people would choose people relations... I choose animal. Is that insane? Maybe I'm just gifted. I just can't ever replace the feeling of dancing with Cowboy's emotions, even if they conflict, it's still pure beauty every time I'm on his back. Sure there's that connection with all my other horses, but Cowboy and I go way back. We've been together for 10 years and have been through some bumpy shit but we still find a way to make pure bliss out of him throwing a hissy fit and me throwing one back. We're partners and companions and nothing but fate can seperate that. I swear to God, if that horse leaves my side, I'm going with him. We're best friends and he fills that void. He thinks with my mind and I think with his. Sometimes I let him use his own, occasionally he loans me mine... but to put it short, we both live as one, and if one of us goes, the other one's going too, just to fill that emptiness, like he always has for the past 10 years.
Currently listening:
Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Bodycount
By From First to Last
Release date: By 29 June, 2004
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2005 2 September :: 11.23am
ahh, the joys of moving all my pictures to my laptop.
grr.
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2005 29 August :: 2.47pm
---BASiCS--
[x] Full Name: Casey Noelle Schwind
[x] Nick names: Cas/Cfly/Caseyfly
[x] First Breath: June 27, 1989, 7:01PM
[x] Age: 16
[x] Girl or Boy: Girl
[x] Height: 5' 8" (Laura says 5' 9")
[x] Hair color: brown/red/blonde/whatev.
[x] Eye color: brown
[x] Glasses/Contacts: I want colored contacts
[x] Braces: No
[x] Where were you born: I dunno.
[x] Current Location: Blairstown, NJ
[x] Today's Date: ah... August................ er... 2... 9? yeah. 29th.
[x] Time: 2:49 in the afternoon.
--FAMiLY--
[x] Mother's name: Marti
[x] Father's name: Dave
[x] Brother's name: Trevor, Brad
[x] Sister's name: Bridget
[x] Favorite aunt: I don't have an aunt, but I guess... uh.. Aunt Frannie. (my grandmas sister)
[x] Favorite uncle: I don't have an uncle either, but I guess... uncle chris (my moms cousin) or my uncle dick (yes dick, cause he's a hottie.)
[x] Favorite cousin: don't have one dammit. My mom's best friends kids I always called my cousins, so I guess Lauren.
[x] Favorite grandpa: I didn't know either of them.
[x] Favorite grandma: I have no idea. The only one I know is the one that's living with us.
--SCHOOL--
[x] What school do you go to: My house... but it used to be Belvidere, then right before that, North Warren.
[x] What grade are you in: going into 11th, if I went to public I'd be going in 10th
[x] Current G.P.A: I dunno.
[x] Favorite grade: Who knows. This one.
[x] Least favorite grade: 7th
[x] Favorite teacher: Mr. Ben, Mr. Freidermann, Mr. Free, Mrs. Fasano
[x] Least favorite teacher: Mr. McCentyre, Mrs. Rivero
[x] Favorite subject: Math and Fine arts
[x] Least favorite subject: Anything history/social studies
[x] Do you play sports/ extracurricular activites: bull riding, rodeo, horseback riding, driving
--FAVORiTES--
[x] Number: 27
[x] Letter: Y
[x] Toy: Walkman?
[x] Movie: napoleon dynamite, SAW. waynes world, life of brian
[x] T.V show: ER
[x] Shoes: work boots
[x] Clothing: socks?
[x] Cologne/Perfume: berry sprays from bath and body
[x] Song: currently, NIN - "Only" and uh... MJ - "Billie Jean"
[x] Candy: peanut butter m&ms or butterfinger. Heck yez.
[x] Food: I dunno. Chicken Caesar Salad
[x] Group: Circa Survive, Coheed and Cambria
[x] Fastfood Restaurant: Friendly's, Blairstown Inn
[x] Season: Autumn, Early spring
[x] Day: Sunday?
[x] Weekday: ...
[x] Month: October-December
[x] Deodorant: Dove
[x] Country: this one?
[x] State: Colorado
[x] Boy's name: Sonny, Colt, Lyle, Lane,
[x] Girl's name: I'll kill myself if I have a girl.
--WHATS THE FiRST THiNG YOU OF WHEN YOU HEAR--
[x] George Bush: NoFX War on Errorism
[x] Laguna Beach: Sunset
[x] Jessica Simpson: jessica simpson
[x] Hilary Duff: sucked in cheeks
[x] Love: bear
--FRiENDS--
[x] Best friend(s): Brielle, Laura, Josh Miller
[x] Known the longest: sara or Rachel I guess
[x] Most likely to get lost: lmfao, brielle.
[x] Tallest: Josh or Jimmy ... WAIT NO, KEITH.
[x] Shortest: poor lil brielle.
[x] Always there when you need them: brielle, keith
[x] Loudest: Myself..
[x] Funniest: rachel, myself.
--WHAT DiD YOU DO--
[x] last birthday: uhh.. that was like 3 months ago... I think we did absolutely nothing on my birthday. My mom was working.
[x] today: did lots of classwork, rode cowboy bareback, watched tv
[x] Christmas: hung out at home, brother and brothers fiance came over and chilled, opened presents, got my new bull riding chaps.
[x] Thanksgiving: I have no idea.
[x] Easter: I dunno.
[x] Valentine's Day: josh picked me up for school and gave me a rose and a beanie baby and. something else... and that was weird and cute and WEIRD... and then went to school and brandon gave me my current favorite stuffed animal... a GIANT pink teddy bear.
[x] Yesterday: recovered from the day before.
[x] Last weekend: this past, showed at the state championships, won like everything.......... the weekend before that........ state fair show, won everything. grand champion of the show for the third year in a row.
--YES OR NO--
[x] Are you straight: Yes
[x] Are you Asian: No. I fear.
[x] Are you Caucasian: Yeah
[x] Are you Mexican: Nope
[x] Are you non of the above: ........
[x] Do you like eggs: sometimes.
[x] What about candy: Yurse
[x] Girls: sure
[x] Guys: sure
[x] You: sure
[x] Still friends with your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend: he's one of my best friends
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2005 29 August :: 2.37pm
--UNIQUE --
1. Nervous Habits? biting my nails until they bleed.
2. Are you double jointed? neh.
3. Can you roll your tongue? like a hotdog bun, baby.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yeah
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? yes. and I do often.
6. Can you cross your eyes? yeah.
7. Tattoos?: it's like so old and almost gone.
8. Piercings and where? 13? ears? had thirteen, now i have... 10? I don't know, I don't count.
9. Do you make your bed daily? neg.
-- CLOTHES --
10. Which shoe goes on first? normally my right.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? yeah, my brother and it almost broke his spine.
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: I'm poor.
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? just a beaded necklace and all of my earrings.
14. Favorite piece of clothing? work boots?
-- FOOD --
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? cut it, shovel it, stuff it.
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? ugh no.
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? 6?
19. What's your favourite beverage? flavored water or chocolate milk
20. What's your favorite restaurant? friendly's... uh.. whatever. Blairstown Inn.
21. Do you cook? not hardly.
-- GROOMING --
22. How often do you brush your teeth? once a day if I'm lucky.
23. Hair drying method? whatever. never blowdry.
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? I'm totally fake. I'm a natural blonde.
-- MANNERS --
25. Do you swear? often
26. Do you ever spit? lmao yes, and it grosses Brielle out.
-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --
27. Animal? cow
28. Food? burritos
29. Month? Ah... October I suppose.. then november, and december.
30. Day? hm. Whatever. I like sundays.
31. Cartoon? bleh, ed, edd, n eddy.
32. Shoe Brand? uh. anything thats comfortable as hell. right now i'm wearing like some bullshit "earth wind" from walmart. So comfy.
33. Subject in school? er, fine arts, cause all I have to do is ride my horse and document it.
34. Color? gray
35. Sport? bull riding, rodeo, horseback riding
36. TV show? uhrrr... ER?
37. Thing to do in the spring? early spring training for horse shows, show horses
38. Thing to do in the summer? show horses
39. Thing to do in the fall? show horses
40. Thing to do in the winter? lay in the snow, ride in the snow
-- IN AND AROUND --
41. The CD player? hanson, coheed and cambria, circa survive
42. Person you talk most on the phone with? my mother/laura
43. Ever taken a cab? once.
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? yeah
45. What color is your bedroom? brown
46. Do you use an alarm clock? yeah
47. Window seat or aisle? uh... aisle.
-- LA LA LAND --
48. What's your sleeping position? it varies. Normally in fetal position. Once in a while I'll sleep on my tummy.
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Well, something. I always have to be covered.
50. Do you snore? nah, I twitch though.
51. Do you sleepwalk? nah
52. Do you talk in your sleep? i may have...
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore :(
54. How about with the light on? no, I can't stand light. It has to be pitchass black or I can't sleep.
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? never
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2005 25 August :: 10.20am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: [Rascall Flats] - [Fast Cars & Freedom]
State championships are this friday and saturday... In other words... TOMORROW...
I'm the representative for 3 EVENTS... go us! I'm so excited... So I won't be online Friday afternoon/night or Saturday all day... Don't wish us luck, cause we sure as hell won't need it. xD Cocky? yes. Have my reasons? Absofuckinloutly. Me and Dylan are going to ROCK you. Watch the fuck out. :D
Off to pack-
-Cas
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