The names Brielle, bitch

The names Brielle, bitch

:: 2005 25 January :: 10.07am
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: [Hawthorne Heights] - [Niki FM]

So yeah, It�s 9:50 and I�m sitting at home. It�s bullshit. The school. Last night into this morning the school was closed today, then last minute they decide: 2 Hour delay. Who the fuck does that? Go die. So I�m being miss rebellious and sitting home.

I�m uh, making a blunt truth survey, so I suggest you take it. I�ll be uber appreciative.
Blunt Truth
Be honest. ;D

I�m seriously obsessing over this kid and I can�t stop talking to him and he�s so funny and� SO funny� and SO FUNNY� and so sweet. And so nice, and if I didn�t know better I�d think I was falling in love with him but holycrap what do I do?! I just need to say �fuck it.� And lay off. He doesn�t like me, which is totally understandable, I mean, I wouldn't like me if I was a guy with the taddest bit of intelligence, unless of course I was a fucking dumbass. Whatever. I just want him. Really� bad.

I can�t wait until my bull�s big enough to ride. He�s so cute. His horns are coming in and they�re probably� an inch long by now. He�s turning into a real ass hole though. Oh well. Born and raised. ;D

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greyXmatter

:: 2005 24 January :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: [The Killers] - [Mr. Brightside]

Put an X between the parenthesis for "yes".

Would you...

() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() kiss me?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me?
() take me out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere
() take a shower with me?
() be my boyfriend/girlfriend?
() have a fling with me?
() Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink?
() Would you let me sleep in your bed?
() Sing car karaoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() give me a piggyback ride?
() Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

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greyXmatter

:: 2005 24 January :: 7.24pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: [Straylight Run] - [Existentialism on Prom Night]

Dear the one I love:
I need you now more than ever.
Please reveal yourself.
Thanks.
-Cas

Lol, you know, I'm thinking. What really would happen if she died? Kicked the bucket? Croaked? What have you. Where would I go? Would... I go anywhere? I would never live with that sick fuck I call my father out in the city. Or with that sick fuck I call my step mother. I would never... ever... live with them. If it was my last choice, I'd fucking jump off a 20 story building. (By the way, I know that she's okay now, and theres a really great chance that she's going to make it through all this, but I can't help but think about it.) It's so stupid how I sit here and I'm crying about her, but at the same time, I laugh because I'm in such a fucking pickle if she dies. Fucking pickle. HA! God, what would I do? In reality, I'd have to sell most of our horses and sell most of the things I own to try and live on my own somewhere. The only reason I live where I live is because my horses can stay here and because I'm with my mom. I could move in with Juanita. Yeah, and work my fucking ass off paying for board for Cowboy, Dylan, Doc, and Bliss. That's a flop. I'd die. Fuck it guys. If she's gone, I'm gone. Lets face the facts there, I mean come on now. There's no realistic way for me to survive this if she doesn't.