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- What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I realized that I’m not deprived, and that I’m probably the luckiest human being on the entire east coast… Also that my family, more specifically my mother loves me more than anything in the world.

- Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never made any.

- Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not… that I can recall.

- Did anyone close to you die?
I don’t believe so.

- What countries did you visit?
Hi, I don’t travel.

- What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
I think I wouldn’t mind having someone there for me on a relationship type level… someone who will care for me and be there for me, and someone that I can call mine, and care about as much as they care about me.

- What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 23, 24, 25 and September 24, 25, 26. Also the day I met Josh Belverio… I love him so much!

- What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting on that longhorn bull, just cause he scared the shiz out of me. I got on him and overcame my fear. He’s a real dickface in the chute, but I got it done.

- What was your biggest failure?
Not taking advantages of some opportunities.

- Did you suffer illness or injury?
Strained a ligament in my right wrist, crushed the cartilage connecting my jawbones to the skull, I broke my foot in May, almost broke my lower leg in September. I actually just ended up with a grapefruit size swell on my leg. The foot was from my 3 year old colt who was being an idiot and stepped on me. The leg was from a bull riding accident. The jawbone injury was also from a bull riding accident. The wrist was also a bull riding thing.

- What was the best thing you bought?
I don’t know. I don’t buy many things for myself.

- Whose behavior merited celebration?
No ones.

- Whose behavior made you mad and ill willed?
Robert Novack.

- Where did most of your money go?
School.

- What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Riding the longhorn. Bull riding period.

- What song will always remind you of 2004?
“Fever” and “Rodeo” both by Garth Brooks.

- Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?
A tremendous amount happier. Last year I was so God damn miserable, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I’m doing a lot better this year, but as I get into Winter, I’m starting to slip.

- What do you wish you'd done more of?
Been a little more outgoing, a little more forgiving, a little more gentle, a little more loving, and a little more understanding.

- What do you wish you'd done less of?
I wish I was a little less arrogant.

- How will you be spending Christmas?
Or… how did I spend it? With my family. It was nice, really a pleasant experience. I loved it.

- How will you be spending New Years?
Dunno.

- Did you fall in love in 2004?
Yeah, my first time being in true love. God, it gets me all giddy.

- How many one-night stands?
Oh God, none!

- What was your favorite TV program?
Degrassi, PBR, Cowboy U, ER

- Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah… I don’t generally hate people. I can say that I absolutely hate Robert.

- What was the best book you read?
Romeo and Juliet. I find it funny however that he stole a whole bunch of shit from Povero. (sp?)

- What was your greatest musical discovery?
That I have absolutely no musical talent?

- What did you want and got?
A decent pair of chaps and some understanding. I got them both.

- What was your favorite film of this year?
Definitely Saw.

- What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned fifteen and… I… was… at 4H camp? And… people… threw me a party.

- Whats one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not being so scared. It makes things so un-delightful.

- How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
I don’t really have a fashion style? I wear stuff that kind of covers me up and is comfortable. Sweatshirt, jeans, comfy sneakers or work boots.

- What kept you sane?
Knowing.

- Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Fancy… uhm… Oh I don’t know.

- What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage rights, for sure.

– Who did you miss?
Brielle, Lyle, Ed, Cliff.

- Who was the best new person you met?
JOSH! Oh my God Josh I love him so much!

- Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Dig a little deeper. You’re not as alone as you think you are. With every bad comes a little good, with every tug comes a little slack. Open your eyes a little more and stop being a fucking crybaby. Don’t lean on people with your issues… bring yourself to them and conquer them. Ah, what else… Show a little more love for the people you say you love. If you love them that much, you’ll be there for them. Remember that anything can happen at any time, and when you’re not ready for it, it’ll crush you. Love and be loved in return. Love everyone, regardless of your feelings towards them… “My only love sprung from my only hate.” Love your enemies. Love. Love. Love. Confusing? One day you’ll understand. :sigh: What else… Attack your dreams now, because for every second you delay, your goal or dream is that much further away. Wow, I learned that one the hard way… and… last but not least… Emo chicks suck every man’s dick. Don’t be their shoulder to cry on, they’re full of shit. If they try to pull you in, deny them. Thank you and goodnight.

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