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2006 17 November :: 12.00 pm
:: Music: Under the Bridge - RHCP
Being apart b.r.e.a.k.s. me ..
It never seems to amaze me at how much i miss you more and more every single day. I feel like we have been apart for the longest time, like i havent seen you in years when its been not even more than a week. I love you more than these words could ever explain, and thats something that you will never understand ..
I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Being with you .. |
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2006 10 November :: 1.00 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: hinder - Better than me.
To the only holder of my heart ..
I’ve got to give up. A heart can only be broken, be toyed with, be manipulated so many times before it just stops beating. Before it burst of such a deep pain not even the darkest power could even describe it. So before I fall to my knees so broken; ill crawl out of this. I can’t let this happen to me. My heart deserves more. My heart is so torn around your finger that it is most definitely not strong enough to take anymore of these undesirable games.
^^First paragraph to a letter that i wrote someone * not current boyfriend * is it something i should give em? =(
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
Being with you .. |
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2006 3 November :: 1.12 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: get stoned - hinder..
Killing me would be the sweeter sin ..
So im sitting at school making up hours because i missed so much, bored out of my mind thinking about shit. Im going to call off work today, Jamee already did and were going to spend the day together doing god knows what. But im excited for not having to work, its been the longest week of my life, everyday going to school at 6 30 leavin at 4 45 and working from 5 til 10 ish every single day but mon and wed when i have to work at 3! Urgh ..
But i guess i cant complain, my court date is monday and besides the stress life is giong pretty good right now . Tyler and i had a long ass talk last night while we were in bed, and we both got a lot off our chest, i feel good about that. I feel secure with the fact that i want to be with him forever ♥
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that
I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
Being with you .. |
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2006 2 November :: 4.23 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
My biggest fear isnt losing you ..
So randomly i write in this often, things are beyond point break on the stress level. But everything is going well. Im good at overwhelming myself but hey thats a part of growing up right.
Best things about my life right now are my boyfriend ; whom which i love and cant wait to spend forever with. And cant wait to get that promise ring rock from. And my friends, life is so beautiful when you have those two things, ex mine. I wouldnt trade anything right now !
Being with you .. |
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2006 31 May :: 8.29 am
:: Mood: exhausted
There are times when im perfectly content with my life and my friends. There are other times when i feel as though i have nothing or nobody. And even though those times come rarely compared to before .. they still come by every now and then.
I look at my friends, and i look at my friends a year or so ago and i sometimes wonder when was i better off. I had some of the best friends in the entire world, when i needed them. Do not get me wrong there are a lot of people in my life right now that are truely amazing friends/people .. but nothing compared to what i didnt know i had back then.
I guess that is how life goes though, when you need someone most they are there, and when you feel you dont ; you lose them. I just wish i would have known what i had back then .. i seriously would have changed my ways and held onto everything i had =/
Let me be the one you call,
If you jump i'll break your fall,
Lift you up and fly away into the night.
If you need to fall apart,
I can mend a broken heart,
If you need to crash then crash and burn,
You're not alone.
2 makes me believe ♥s |
Being with you .. |
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