hmm.... contemplative maybe
I updated my *new* journal like 6 times... in about 4 hours...

I miss someone very much...
Well, this site has changed a bit. Justin's sick again/still whichever one you want to choose. I started curves... excersizing everyday. Hopefully I loose a couple inches. You know bathing suit season is coming up...EeEk! I need to finish all my homework. I have a test tomorrow and I have to finish my NHS thing so that when I go to the breakfast friday I can turn it in. Well, hopefully I get to see Justin a lot this weekend. I miss him a lot. *I miss you *

Oh~No
I feel sick... I think it might be the CHEESE.

I hate this...
I hate it that Rachel gets to go to Justin's and I have to stay here. MOTHER FUCKERS!!! why in the hell do we have parents anyways. They are just restrictors. Damn them, They piss me the hell off. I just want to be with you and I can't. Have you ever wanted something so bad that your friend had and you never got? Well this is ten fucking times worse. I am not jealous of like the fact that Rachel is with Justin, It's just that she gets to be with him and I don't. I just I wish my parents would care about my feelings.

October 26th 2002
Hello, let's see here. School has started. I don't like it. Ruthie is back. Her wedding renewal was today. I didn't go. I wasted my time on other things. Tongith I cryed. It felt great, well needed and held in.

I sit here wondering to myself why guys see me soo differently. To girls I am pretty, funny and skinny, but to guys I am the complete opposite. I am everything that they don't like. I get none of those looks from guys that read your amazing. I get sit down UGLY. I am a loser when it comes to guys. Nothing that i say or do will be to their pleasing. I should be shot.

At times I think of all the time I waste, washing my face and thinking about how I should present myself. If I did or didn't they wouldn't like me either way.

I believe that I was meant to be alone. And also think that I shouldn't date because I don't believe in love. and the only reason you date is to find someone to love, a companion. I believe there is no one out there for me. I did something foolish yesturday. I told someone how I felt and I completely ruined everything. I wasnt sure if I liked him enough. If there is such a thing. I didn't know and I iwll never tell anyone I like them again. It was worthless. I am worthless. Last night was horrible. And so was LUDINGTON.

Ha, I am sure that I am not sure

You're unsure whether you really want to smile or
not.You just curl your lips up at the corners a
bit and let that get you through your day.You
don't have all the answers,and you certainly
don't feel like going out to look for them.Stop
being so indecisive.


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These are so funny. Tell me what you guys get.

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


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This is scary, and true...happened today.
A guy down the street shot and killed him self today. First, he shot his dog...then went to the shed and shot him self in the head.

TOO BAD I'M NOT HOTT!

J-Lo
U love getting attention from the opposite sex
which comes as a natural talent to u!!


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THESE DON'T LOOK MEDIUM TO ME... WHAT ABOUT YOU??

MEDIUM


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Ha...
you are straight but close to the border of being
gay. you are comfortable with who you are


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I am funny...

You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


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