amajules

amajules

:: 2003 17 November :: 11.41 am
:: Mood: smiley

loved your reaction to my hair hehe. and sorry for the many ppppppps's :)
Hey there Amanda
i sooo wish you could see my hair tooo - as soon as i get my digital camera fixed
(yea, i broke it, AH) i will be sending you a picture...
sounds like an awesome day with your Randy was planned - i still can't wait to meet
him, sigh..
hmm so i am trying to think of new things to tell you and can't think of ANY!!
so sad

i tried calling you on Friday night, got that fax machine thing again, and then i left
a message on your cell phone, i'm not sure if you got it
we'll have to keep trying!
and alritey, i guess i should go eat some lunch now, my stomach is disrupting the
library lol.
i'll talk to you soon love, sorry to make this so short!
MWAH!
Jules
P.S. - i have definitely noticed the happiness/sadness times have coincided. i think
it's pretty cool
p.p.s. - - the sunflower seeds - definitely ring a bell, but not clearly enough to fully remember
ppps - remember the pink and purple flower rings we got when we were out with
the girls for sara's (NO H! hehe) bachelorette party? i wore it this weekend :) got many
many compliments...
pppps. - glad to hear about the teacher. :)

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:: 2003 14 November :: 10.21 am
:: Mood: surprised

OMG!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! I'M SOOOO EXCITED!!!!! I WANNA SEE I WANNA SEE I WANNA SEE!!!!!!! OMG Julie i wanna be w/ you so badly!!!! i miss you soo much. and yes baby you deserve that compliment more than any other grl i know! so what'd ya do w/ the hair? i'm so happy! My Julie-grl is steppin' out of her comfort zone and i'm not there!!!!!
omg i'm just so ecstatic! lol 'bout the kiss on the cheek to my teach...#1 he's a nice guy..not nasty, and #2, he's what we would say..on the OTHER ;) side of the fence. get my drift?! anyways....i wish you went shopping w/ me too! also, i'm extremely hyper today b/c my baby-boy is coming to my 3rd block chorus class, and is spending lunch w/ me (just b/c) and is taking me home and spending the evening w/ me! oh happy days are here again! lol and my tantrum wasn't like screaming and kicking, i just dropped to the floor on my hands and knees and wouldn't move! lol
yeah im'ma gunna go over to the chorus room like @ 11:00 but i gotta do some work b/4 i go so let me finish this up babe! i miss you soooo much and i'm sooo happy and excited for you! also i love how we always seem to have our spells of good and bad at the same time..ever notice that!?! lol i love you babe!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
~*Amanda*~

P.S.> Miss Amanda is ALWAYS right lol lol lol j/k

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:: 2003 14 November :: 9.44 am
:: Music: the tuba (i'm in the band room hehe)

AAAHHH
MY HAIR IS GONE!!!!
AAAAHHH IT'S GONE!!!
LOL. MY HAIR IS SHORT. AND WHEN I SAY SHORT, I MEAN SHORT.
HOW FUN!!!
oh my goodness amanda, last night me and my mom drove an hour north to a hair salon and i told them i wanted something drastic, kind of explained what i wanted - and okay, the lady braided my hair (one big braid) took the scissors, and cut it off by my neck, and handed me the hair!! my mouth was wide open!
and then she continued to style it and cut it even SHORTER. yes, boy short. but CUTE! i wasn't crying when they were done - i was laughing. i find it the funniest thing ever, because even if people think it looks bad, i'm just having fun with it! haha... of course the first thing i thought was how i needed you here so that you could see it and help style it and everything! i had tried to find a friend all week who would've been available to go with me just for ~emotional support~ and none of my friends could make it. sigh. but it was so fun. and the other women there, had been there when they wet my hair and so they saw how long and thick it was. it was a very personal place to be, very comfortable - - but anyway so yea i'm sitting in the chair getting my hair cut and some of the customers actually stayed longer because they couldn't believe it and wanted to see the end product! one of the ladies couldn't get over it, she was like, "see - - - i LOVE this - [turns to her customer] you have to have such high self confidence in order to do what she's doing. i love that, that's awesome." what a compliment! and it's true, because at first i was tentative about the style bc i really feel like a boy from the 80's or something lol.. but either way i was like, "it's a bad hair cut, but i can't stop smiling! it's so fun! i love it." haha, and i'm just laughing about it. the consensus? my girl friends love it... the guys - of course like long hair (although they haven't really said anything to me yet haha.) everyone was shocked. and i know i know, you told me to go through with it! Miss Amanda is right again. :) i love you. :)
okay, ANYWAY enough about my hair. i'm so happy for you amanda! we're both happy! (although i wish i could go shopping with you hehe) and that whole throw yourself on the floor kid tantrum thing? i could totally picture you doing that lol. and hmm... kissing a teacher on the cheek - not sure what to think! i want to see that teacher!
alritey, well as usual, there's so much more to say, and absolutely no more time to say it!
but before i go - thanks for praying for my cousins amanda, it really means so much. and um, we have to make plans. to get together. yes. sounds good.
okay well i will talk to you sooooon and hey - i'll try calling you tonite! i think i'll be around...
okay well good bye my dear.
i love you and can't wait to see you.
mwah
Jules

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:: 2003 13 November :: 10.54 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Boyz II Men-Your Love

~~~~~~~I'm happy, I'm in love w/ Randy, i get to see and hang w/ him Friday and Saturday.............AND..........I WENT SHOPPING!~~~~~~~

~*~*~*~*~*~*LIFE IS GOOD*~*~*~*~*~

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:: 2003 12 November :: 10.21 am
:: Mood: x-cited & for the 1st time, happy w/ my life

hey!
~~~yeah hey, remember me?!? lol nice to hear from ya! lol omg first and formost i'm soooooooo happy for you and your luck w/ the solo! Second glad to know Scott's home safe....i've been thinking about both your cousins lately and praying for them...probably the whole Vets program that got me thinking about it. and third....I MISS YOU!!!! lol
anyways yeah the 6 shows were only 5 and as much fun as it was especially w/ Randy there playing in the band and me singin on stage....my body is having other thoughts right now...like, "owwww my back, legs, arms, and neck." lol not to mention my voice is somewhat squeaky and raspy...you know the voice. lol Yeah Mr. McBroom told us he was going to switch the soloists around for sake of our voices getting tired, but i sang the solo 4 times. then @ the end of the day he was like, i didn't hear a thank you for letting me let you sing all the of those solos....and i said sorry i'll kiss the ground you walk on...he goes no....i said i'll kiss the seat of your office chair.....and he goes no but a kiss on my cheek will do....so i looked @ Randy and kissed McBroom and he goes you sounded pretty up there. ! i was so happy, my drama teacher Mr. Canady said i souded pretty up there too! so i told him he looked pretty! lol
yeah Randy got asked to play the tuba for our shows b/c this kid Tyler got expelled along w/ the grl he had "relations" w/ on the back of the bus on the band trip. lol sorry...i think it's funny. there are some stupid people down here.
after the show Randy and i went home and relaxed...him watching "Buffy" his favorite show, and me on the phone w/ Deanna, then when his show was over and i was off the phone we cudled until he had to leave which i takled him b/c i didn't want him to go....Julie, i like pitched a fit. cute fit though. You know how little kids will do something if they don't get what they want? like hold their breath or go limp and through themselves on the floor? well i threw myself on the floor. lol when Randy was little he used to hold his breath. lol anyways
OMG Julie i LOVE him SOOOO much
HE'S THE ONE, HE'S THE ONE, HE'S THE ONE!!!!!!! I'm so excited! i can't wait for you and your family to meet him! i just can't wait to bring him home to you guys. knowing your parents they'll probably grill him while you, me and Renne are upstairs gossiping! lol. isn't that a great mental picture?!
Julie i NEVER thought my life could be so complete, so happy, so full. and now....~*huge wave of Gods peace.*~
anyways...i tried calling you again the next day and nobody picked up. i'm eating sunflower seed and typing and i'm having a memory of them w/ you but, i don't know what that memory is exactly...any clue? lol
anyways babe....let me go on to class i love you sooooo much and i miss you.
best wishes in everything you're doing and accomplishing
babe!
~*Amanda*~

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:: 2003 12 November :: 9.58 am

forgot to mention these!
the Finding Nemo movie - - definitely HAVEN'T seen it yet!!! as soon as i had seen
the preview, i had wanted to see it. but have i gottena chance to, of course not!
altho my brother and everyone else around me has!
and what else...
my cousin Scott - who was in Iraq - is now home! YAY!

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:: 2003 10 November :: 10.14 am
:: Mood: content

mwah
i called you last night a bunch of times w/ just a busy signal as my answer.... :( then i got online thinking that's were you'd be. i actually wound up talking to your sister for awhile. that was cool. she said she tried calling you up too and got the same thing...where were you last night huh? lol
i got a Vet's Show tonight @ 7:30 wish you could see it...i have a solo! woohoo! then tomorrow, we have 6 shows for the school to perform throughout the day! Double Woohoo! lol anyways, i'm waiting for your response darling...i miss you and i'm thinkin of you always...i luv you!
~*Amanda*~

P.S.> Have you seen the Finding Nemo movie!

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:: 2003 4 November :: 10.35 am

~~~hey pook-i-ness! i have to admit you kinda had me scared there while you were talking about all that friend stuff but i got it...is'aight.
halloween was awesome, we didn't have a contest but i was sitting next to Adriane when i read your entry and she said we would of won...we have pics, so i'll try and send you some in a couple of days. there was a little drinking Lauren's (the grl who house the party was @) parents didn't mind tho, they said they would rather us drink and even get drunk in thier house than at some party w/ freaky guys and stuff, i had some spiked punch nothing big, didn't get a buzz just had a glass, Randy...of course didn't drink he was driving...he's sucha good boy! lol
i have to send you prom pics, i could of sworn i sent you some over aim. ah well. later i guess.
ummmm....today Deanna, Lauren, Adriane and myself are going to get our nails did after school for the Veterans day concert on Tues. FUN! i wish you were here.
babe, by the way, just to let you know, i may have friends, close friends, maybe even best friends, but no one is my Julie-grl. People can have more than 1 best friend b/c they relate to different people in more than 1 way. like, how Adriane is my best friend, doesn't compare to how you're my best friend....but you're both still close enough to me to BE my best friend. And yes Julie, i love you very much, and i like you very much lol
personally i think that expression "You can love someone, but you don't have to like them" only fits when relating to blood family. b/c i don't love anybody i don't like. whereas i don't like my parents, but i do love them. Babe MY saying i love you, is just a bigger extensions of "i really like you, i really like hanging out w/ you, talking to you, being stupid w/ you." lol. Now you can question whoever you want on your friendship w/ them ...but Julie DeLuca i'd better NEVER hear or read, for that matter, any thought of doubt about OUR friendship in that curly little head of yours again! lol lol lol
if you start to tho...read this again.! lol
anyways....
do you like what i've done w/ the place?!? lol i didn't like that green looking screen so i changed it Fri. lol
i saw a billboard today driving to school and it had Kermit the Frog on it and it said,

"Eats flies, Dates a pigs
Hollywood star"

Live Your Dreams

isn't that brilliant(<-- my new word which i have vowed to use once a day till it becomes part of my every day dialouge) i thought of you smiling and laughing w/ me if we saw that together! lol
About Sara...no "h" at the end she hates that... she always goes, "my names Sara...not Sara-ah" lol as of Sun she was still throwing up, missed church and all, but i visited her yesterday and she said she was alright. other than that i'll be most definitely praying for Renne. poor thing.
i totally agree w/ the whole, i miss you but it's good we're as apart as we are. and for all the same reasons you think it's good too.
as far as Dan goes....i read that and was like, "crap" just make sure he doesn't "get in your way" of things Jules...DO NOT let your gaurd down. and don't let him talk sh*t about Amber either. one thing i've learned about Dan is that he is manipulative. personally i think he's asking you to write to vent -like he already did- about Amber -who is your closest cousin-whom you know everything about -which maybe Dan is trying to get some info from you about her or insight to some stuff...which probably won't end good if he gets his hands on it. or maybe I'M overanalyzing and he's changed and i know nothing! lol just be careful is all i'm saying, and protect your family. i know you will .
Well babe, let me get going, i have to go to chorus a little early today so i'll ttyl!
luv (and like) you bunches...
~*Amanda*~

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:: 2003 1 November :: 11.21 pm
:: Mood: assured
:: Music: ~free worship~

a friend is someone who sees right through you and still enjoys the view
Hey Amanda!

you are right - - things have been going extremely well, - and there's no doubt in my heart and mind that it's because of the GRACE of God.. phew. i'm in the middle of reading the book that my mom gave me, and i'm not sure quite how to explain it, but in a way it's been refining me... at the same time tho, i haven't fully been letting it do so (meaning: thinking, praying, working on what this book has been pointing out to me) and so anyway yeah what's been going on in my head a few of the days this past week:
i'm scared. you haven't written to me, oh no, i'm no longer your closest friend... i'm scared and that's just it. you are my closest friend, and i don't ever have to refrain myself from telling you what's on my mind. if i say something wrong in front of you, that's okay. and if i fart in front of you (lol remember that!?) that's okay too. haha... anyway so yea. it's very scary to be vunerable - especially with someone you care so much about - - without the security of knowing i'm loved in spite of every ugly thing about me. i know it's awful to think that way - because goodness, i know better - not just because i know our friendship is solid - but because even if it wasn't - even if you were to decide one day that you no longer like me (and yea, there's a difference between like and love - you can love me - but do you LIKE who i am?) i should know that my stability, my WORTH comes from God only...so yea, i'm working on that. it was one of my weaker more depressing days i guess - things with my friend John had been pretty quiet - - and lauren: i said maybe 2 words to her in the midst of two days, because i just needed to not talk to her for a while... and so yea there's pretty much my explanation. selfish pity...
speaking of which - two of my friends are needing my help - one is suicidal (yes i've gotten other help) but goodness, it's hard for me not to think "what is God thinking?" putting these people into my path - i'm not strong enough to lift someone else up, and i'm certainly not the greatest at encouraging anyone... ESPECIALLY if they are not Christian - this girl just doesn't have any faith that God can help her. so i'm not going to shove God down her throat - - but when she cries out to me for help, or is like, "yea, i didn't eat today." what am i supposed to say? ugh, i don't even think about it because i get annoyed.
but back to the first topic -- one of the good things about you being in SC and me being here - is letting Him work in me, because of the fact that i don't have a best friend to constantly rely on. you know? i mean you're always here, but you're not HERE. and God is - therefore there's more of a reason for me to allow Him to take that place in my life.
but okay, next.
how did halloween go? i could so picture you as cleopatra haha - did you win? oh, and NO i haven't seen ANY pictures from prom!!! i have no idea what this randy man looks like. tsk tsk.
and of course, let me know how sarah is doing... renee is also not doing too too well. she puts up a good front. but she is really struggling. if you somehow end up talking to her, don't mention anything about me mentioning that. just keep her in prayer. its as if she sees her work load as insurmountable and never ending - - barely has time for herself, rarely has a break - she's very very overwhelmed, and i'm not sure how well she's handling it all. aw, ~wave of love for my sis~
alrite. one more thing and then i'm gonna go. dan has been asking me to email him. and so, due to his persistance, one day i did. he emailed me back, i emailed him back... and then his second email to me he decided to vent. about amber. and so now i have to write back, i've already been putting it off for too long... but i've been extremely careful since this whole email thing - there's no longer a connection for me there with dan - but if i ever let my guard down, who knows? where it stands right now, is that we're friends. i don't understand why he wanted me to email him so badly. but why overanalyze?
okay, well i'm done. time for bed; i've been extremely exhausted -- on thursday night i was so tired that i didn't even do any homework - i came home from swimming, ate dinner, and was sleeping by 8pm. totally dead asleep. ha.
okay well, good night my love
thanks so much for being you. i love you. :) (and like you too! hehe)
nighty night.
Julie xo

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:: 2003 30 October :: 10.59 am
:: Mood: I LOVE YOU!!!

memories, all alone in the moonlight.....CATS (the musical)
omg i read our intrests and i started crying Jules...at first it was a chuckle, a giggle, a laugh, a roar, that developed into tears w/ "i miss you" in each one. i forgot about that Jerry Springer show one... and also, i thought we broke the table at your house remember w/ Amber....hey do you remember Bianca the Beautician?!?! ha ha!
anyways, so this Fri is a costume/Halloween party and Randy and i are going as Cleopatra and Marck Anthony...cute huh? we're shooting for the "Cutest Couple" award! lol o God Julie i can't wait for you to meet him. have i shown you pics, i think you saw our prom pic right?
anyways...what's up babe? i know i haven't been on lately, but i've been sooooo busy and then on top of that this computer in my 2nd block class...where i always type you at...was on the fritz for a loooong time
but, what's w/ that recent message huh? what's going on in that Curly head of yours?everything seemed like it was going so well, and if it's cuz I'VE been distant ...which i have, but i couldn't help it...i'm sorry. actually i was about to call you last night, but Josh called and asked if i could watch Matty for him..P.S. pray for Sara she's been sick since Sat (25th..i think) and still is sick, the doctors think it started as a bug, but developed into a bladder infection, i'm fighting a nasty cold that's got me snezzy everwhere i go. lol..i sneezed while i was talking. it just sneaked up on me, i looked like i had a seizure!!! hahaha.....ahhhh man. <--lol
anyways, i'm bout to go to the chorus room....i don't think i'll get a chance to call you this weekend but i'll try tonight, but Josh might need to watch Matthew, and i need to put some finishing touches on me and Randy's costumes...he's picking me from school today so he can come home and try on some stuff...but anyways
i love you Julie-grl and you've been in my prayers especially since we haven't been talking as much... i love you!
~*Amanda*~

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:: 2003 29 October :: 10.37 pm

i feel so distant from the people i'm normally close to.

it's hard. all relationships are a risk.

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:: 2003 26 October :: 11.15 pm

Hey Manda - -
Sooo much has happened, i'm not sure what i want to tell you and what i should leave out because (take a wild guess: ) i don't have a lot of time!!
so i'll give you a briefing
but first off - about the car accident - i don't think i realized the reality of the danger you were in at all ... i can't imagine that experience ever happening - - i read what you wrote to my mom, and she got goosebumps when i got to the end - wow, from Africa he called... that's amazing Amanda
thank God nothing happened to you... - any idea what condition the guy is in? did he survive? i can't believe the car landed on the ROOF..
sigh so anyway i want to tell you some things...
things have been relievingly good, i have been living and praying and just... being alive. it's such a relief to do so.. to be able to live with my mistakes, and take them, place them into God's hands, learn from them, and have peace and assurance as a result.. you know? ah, it's such a blessing and relief.. to let myself be human..
alrite so here goes..
first, the most exciting thing for me - -
was my swimming championships on saturday ... oh my goodness amanda, it was such an exciting day, i had been so anxious and nervous that i wouldn't accomplish my goals for the times that i wanted to swim - i wanted to cut off a certain amount of seconds off of my times - - i outdid my expectations! i improved sooo much and swam so amazingly well and omg i wish you could've been there to see me i still can't get over how exciting it was for me... and it was the first time that krista was able to see me swim, and my team mates were so supportive and my coaches were jumping up and down for me and wow... all my work paid off, it's the best feeling in the world, i never want to forget.. God helped me to care about my swimming, to care about reaching my goals, giving me something to strive for and achieving it.. it's been so long since i've actually felt accomplished...
what else..
i am trying out for drama - - we're doing the play Oliver, and i'm hoping to get one of the roles - Bet - - if i get her, i'm also the understudy for the lead role... i know i'm capable, it's just a matter of actually getting up in front of the directors, center stage, and showing them what i can do... i hope i have the confidence to do that - - if you get this on time, pray for me about that! auditions are either monday or wednesday
but anyway there's more but i gotta go...
i will write to you again soon!
i love you and miss you!
gnite
Jules xoxoxoxo

p.s. check out the profile hehehe

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:: 2003 22 October :: 8.56 am
:: Mood: life is precious, and God remains awesome

Jules, i witnessed the worst car accident i've ever seen in my life. the guy was right in front of me, clipped the car in front of him, went fying off the road, flipped three times, over a ditch, took out a tree, into the parking of the Wachovia bank, landed on the roof,...at this point i watched in horror saying O my God, a gazillion times, the guy came flying out of the PASSENGER side window hit the pavement and rolled off the sidewalk! the car then rolled to its tires and all of it happened in about 10 seconds.
Julie, the awesome thing is, i got home and dad was at the mens bible study meeting, and when he got home he said that Pastor Peter from Africa had called FROM AFRICA to tell Pastor Dick and the church to pray for car accidents. Dad said they started praying at like 8:45 and the accident happened @ 9:00. God was truely w/ me last night Jules, b/c that car could of hit the ditch and bounced right back into the road into my car.
But yeah let me get going i got work to do. but Jules i love you and i miss you ! ttyl babe
luv ya Julie-grl
~*Amanda*~

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:: 2003 21 October :: 10.40 am

soooooo sorry
~~~* i'm soooo sorry for not writing you sooner....the computer in my calss is all screwy and i can't get on to anything.....but, i don't know where all my pictures are. Sorry. um...what else...uh CUT YOUR HAIR ALREADY!!!! and if it's bad....hair grows back.
besides that i got an offer to move out and live w/ three girls and rent a house in Carolina Forest after graduation and then rent it for 3 yrs. after that the 2 girls will be transferring out and Randy and i will most likely be either already married, or just married. and he'll move in there and that'll be our house! Wow, everything's moving so fast. kinda freaky. yeah but i gotta get to chorus and sing LA LA LA! lol but tell Mike i said Happy b-day, and the noise you heard when you calleed is the fax machine if no one's home and the answering machine is off the fax will pick it up. sorry about that. anyways...Sorry So Short darling stuff has been hectic around here. but i've been thinkin' about you constantly. i miss you........*(sigh)* g2g babe
luv you Julie-girl,*~~~
~*Amanda*~

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