Screwing who we screw.

:: 2006 17 January :: 12.57pm

I love YOU freezing rain.

Having the day off is nice, but I am awfully bored. It's quite all right though, I'll take a day of boredom to have a three day week.

When will we sing a new song, a new song? We're all asking the same damn question, POD. You suck and all your music sounds the same.

Bah. I can't wait for this year to be over. One more semester. I can't believe it. I'm a senior! Crazy. I really wish I could figure out what I am doing after High School though.

I'll get it.

Econ better be my only class with exams this week or I'm gonna have to kill a bitch.

:: 2006 16 January :: 2.49pm

Stop doing this. It's getting so annoying. You don't get that.

Everythings about you. It's always about you. You think the world revolves around you. You're selfish and I can't stand it any longer. Maybe you should just listen to yourself. I think we were right.

You just made everything a lot easier for me, so thank you for pretty much proving everything we thought.

My dad and Kelli are coming to see me tonight :)

Aww yesterday I got flowers and then today I got more!!

:: 2006 16 January :: 1.00am
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Hey You

I have decided that Big Nasty is easily the coolest person on this earth.
I mean he fucking turned his room mates room into a bike course and has bike races. How does that not make you cool? I want to live with that kid for the rest of my life. Not because I have some crush on him or any shit like that, I just love to hear him talk, haha.

Anyway, this weekend was awesome, yet incredibly lame at the same time.

The laser light show was cool.

I am sick and I need sleep. I hope it's not the plague.

I miss you, Ashley! Get better soon, my dear.

Night assholes.

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:: 2006 15 January :: 7.40pm

Okay so I'm going to try to make this short because I'm about to fall asleep.

Last night I woke up around 4am and I started crying because I couldn't breathe or swallow any liquids. My mom gave me some kind of medicine to calm me down and it wouldn't help so we went to the hospital. When I got there they told her I was dehydrated and they gave me a breathing mask and they tried putting an IV in my arm, but they couldn't find a good vein so they had to keep trying. I was getting so pissed because it hurt so bad. Finally they found one and they had a huge bag of some kind of liquids connected to my IV. They said it would take over an hour to get it pumped into my IV and into me and then they put Steriods *sp* into my IV to take down the swelling of my glands so I could breathe better and apparently I'm allergic to w/e kind it was and I had a major allergic reaction. I almost passed out and then I got all these weird pains everywhere and it felt like someone was stabbing me with all these tiny needles so I was screaming and crying and I really don't even remember what happend after that because they gave me something and it pretty much knocked me right out. I was so scared though. My machines I was hooked to were beeping and I hated being on a stretcher. I seriously felt like I was going to die. Anyways I don't know if I said it or not, but I do have mono so I probably will be out of school for a while. Who knows what's going to happen. I think when my dad walked into my hospital room it scared the crap out of him. When he seen me he just kept looking at everything I was hooked up to and all the IV's and he was like "God this is awful" and I can tell he felt bad because he isn't going to be here for me since he's leaving for Pittsburg tomorrow morning. Oh well though. My mom has to pretty much force me to eat and drink. I can't even stay awake long enough to eat anything, but the doctors said that I have to because all the medicine I'm on right now will make me sick if I don't. But I'm getting too tired so i'm going to go take a nap.

Thanks Stacy, Dani, and Dustin for coming to visit me today. It was awesome. I <3 you!

ashley

Oh yeah and Stacy I don't know why I was thinking about this, but when you seen me today where did you say I looked like I came from..idk it was some movie or something...haha I don't remember what you said, but it made me laugh at the time when you said it.

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:: 2006 14 January :: 1.12pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

Nothing interesting.
I'm going to Spring Hill. So, let me know if you're going and if you know anyone else that is. It doesn't really matter, I'm just curious.

Anyway.. I am excited for the laser light show tonight. I've never been to one, I hope it's cool.

Edit>> If you got senior pictures, I'd like one pleeeaassee. Even if we're not like really good friends. People tend to forget to give me a picture. *angry face

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:: 2006 13 January :: 10.07pm

Tonight was fun.
I hung out with Sammie, Leah, and Courtany. We met up with a bunch of random guys I didn't know. It was pretty damn awkward, because they were all churchy and the girls there like hated us. But, Tim was cool. Like.. yeah.. I want to get to know Tim.. hahaha. Yeah.. let's just leave it at that. Ok, he's SEXY. I said it. There.

Anyway, I like hanging out with old friends and getting to know new people. It's so crazy how I seem to make new friends every week. I love it. I'm sad that it wasn't like this sooner.

Mishy.. it BETTER have been me. Cross your fingers for me, ahaha. Maybe we can watch Batman Begins and HIYA sometime. :)

Tomorrow is gonna be fun.

I really need to figure myself out.

:: 2006 13 January :: 3.12pm

I missed school again today. I've been sick for the past few days, but this morning it was really bad. I woke up at around 3:30am and I had a fever, I thought I was going to throw up, I couldn't breathe, etc so I just started bawling and this morning I wanted to go to school, but then my mom seen me and she wouldn't let me go. We went to the doctors and at first they tested me for strep throat and it came back negative and the doctor said there is also a differen't kind that I could possiably have that doesn't show up on tests, but since they weren't sure they wanted to test me for mono and draw my blood and get a blood count. So anyways my mom and I are sitting there in the doctors office and then my mom was talking on her phone and they have a sign saying that you have to turn your phone off and we were waiting for the lady to come in to draw my blood and I thought my doctor said her name was Dino, but her name was really Dina and anyways I was being completely serious at this time because I seriously thought it was her name and i'm like "Mom, put your phone away, Dino will be here soon" and my mom just busted out laughing and she's like "Dino? Dino is a dinosaur! Her name is Dina, not Dino" and so then I was laughing because thats what I thought her name was and then all of the sudden she walked in and my mom hurried and put her phone away and she hung up while she was talking to my sister and I was laughing hysterically because I knew "Dina" was going to walk in and so then my mom goes "oh sure you laugh about it now but wait until the needle goes in" and she was trying to cover up and make it sound like I wasn't laughing at the lady and then I kept laughing still at how dumb my mom sounded and how she was lying lol. So I was pretty pissed off that they had to draw my blood because I'm scared of needles and it wasn't as bad as I thought but they don't know what I have until Monday. It really sucks because I'll fall asleep and when I wake up I always feel worse than I did before I fell asleep and I just start bawling again. It hurts so bad. I hate this. I hope that I don't have mono because I'm pretty sure I wont be at school for a long long time....

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:: 2006 12 January :: 3.42pm

Blah, blah, BLAH.
Wow. Talk about egos.

You all need to get over yourselves. Honestly.
It's all highschool politics. Nothing's ever fair.
And that is that.

As for you. I can name at least ten people better than you right off the top of my head. You suck. But, just keep kissing up and being fake, it's cool.

It's so nice outside today. It's like spring.. but, I'm trying not to get too excited. It's supposed to snow Saturday.. :(

I can't wait for this weekend.
Pink Floyd and Big Nasty's. Can't get much better than that, haha.
Oh, and you're a bitch. =)

And JA Titan can go to hell! Actually.. I kind've enjoy it.. *winks

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:: 2006 12 January :: 10.07am

School. I hate school. I don't want to go. It's lame lame lame.

fallenfaces

:: 2006 12 January :: 6.39am
:: Music: Ani Difranco - Not a Pretty Girl

Sorry.
I'm not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere.

Don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down whether or not you ever show up?

:: 2006 11 January :: 9.05pm

Only new classes:
1) Communications-Young
[Fuck yeah. Seeing his perdy face bright and early will make me get up every morning, for sure.]
2)Wars-Hazel

Let me know if you're in either.

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:: 2006 11 January :: 5.22pm

God, you're pathetic.

I'm in a really bad mood today again and just about everyone is bugging the shit out of me.

Why can't people just mind their own fucking business?

Please stop asking me. It's rude and it annoys me since it doesn't concern any of the people who have asked me in the last week.

School sucked today. My grade in english is now a 93% which isn't bad but I can do better than that and the only reason that it's lower is because we are reading a dumb book and I sleep all hour so she gives me zero's but I wasn't aware that I'm not allowed to sleep considering that I do the homework that's due anyways, but Ms. Eilola just love's being a pain in my royal ass and that's all there is to it.

I feel like crap once again......

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:: 2006 11 January :: 3.15pm

You're not funny, you're just an asshole.

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:: 2006 10 January :: 7.35pm

"Well he looks like a douche bag, should we write that down?"

Haha I love you Stacy. We are such bitches. When he was barking i'm like "Ugh, that makes me sick!"

I was only being honest!

...five million more years until the weekend....

Alriiight....

This whole thing is just inside jokes that only a select few people understand.

We all took our bitch pills today...

And I definitely don't feel good right now and half of my family is sick so I'm going to go take some Nyquil and go to bed.

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:: 2006 9 January :: 9.13pm

Yay I'm on the internet on my laptop!! How exciting!! I need to download msn messenger though which is going to take five million years. Oh well I'm happy!

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:: 2006 9 January :: 8.49pm

I'm in a really bad mood tonight and anyone who talks to me pretty much annoys me.

Tonight when my sister and I were on our way home from shopping she was trying to do something to my mirror and I wasn't paying attention since I was driving and she pushed the on*star button because she didn't know what it was and that was a bad idea lol. My radio all of the sudden turned off and then this weird music started playing and then a lady started talking to us and I didn't know what was going on and she was going to send help but then we said it was an acciden't and she said something to us and she turned it off, but it was pretty hilarious.

School is so stupid I just want it to be the weekend again. I always have fun on the weekends.

My sister Danielle dyed her hair dark brown so now we have the same hair color and now all I keep hearing is how we look like twins....

And Stacy was everyone being serious when they said were hanging out with Big Nasty this weekend? Haha I love Ben he's so cute!

I know this is hurting you but it's killing me.

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:: 2006 8 January :: 9.37pm

It's all in good fun, kids.

Read more..

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:: 2006 8 January :: 3.31pm

What did you say...that you only meant well and this is supposed to be for the best.

This isn't what we need..but you decided this.

Well last night..on the way to Stacys house I was in the front seat and Danielle was driving and Sam Foley and I were talking and she was saying what if a bloody guy just walked in the road and we hit them and all of the sudden something ran in the road and I wasn't paying attention and Danielle started swerving all over the road and I just seen this huge shadow and I don't even remember what happend after that but when it was done and over with Sam and Danielle said I was screaming bloody murder but I don't really remember because I was so scared we were going to crash and die. That would probably be unfortunate.

Somehow when I'm with Danielle, we almost always die. One of the days we probably will.

We went to tgi fridays again last night even though I was just there with Em, Logan, and Justin and I had to get the cheesecake again. It's sooo good.

Well I hope everyone had a good weekend but Em just called and wants to hang out tonight so were going to go out with Logan and Justin so I'll ttyl.

Ohh I'm so glad Devin finally skanked for me and Sam lol.

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:: 2006 7 January :: 5.07pm

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't.

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today.

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,

Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today

and I know I'm not ready,
maybe tomorrow

Tomorrow it may change