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2003 8 December :: 3.42 pm
:: Mood: crappy
pricks
They are pricks. Why do I stay w/ them? No idea. They can be evil. VERY evil. I'm tired of their ways w/ things. It's gay. What can I do?? Nothin that's what. They will never change. It's the inability to change thing.
Wont give people a chance. Don't wanna give it a chance. Refuse ppl right away if they don't like what they see. Gay. Gay gay gay gay and more gay.
It's them, the way they are. Better except it, or it's screwed. Yes, exceptance is what is needed.
EXCEPTED!!!!
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2003 4 December :: 5.04 pm
:: Mood: awake
Thought this was funny and soo true!
Finally, the guys side of the story. I must admit, it's pretty good.
We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules
from the male side. These are our rules! They're ALL important and not
in priority order.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a grown woman. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
2. Sunday = sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be, just accept it.
3. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
4. Crying is blackmail.
5. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
6. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
7. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what
we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
8. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
9. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.
10. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.
11. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
12. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
13. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
14. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during
commercials.
15. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.
16. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
17. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
18. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's
wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
19. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
20. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine
...Really.
21. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.
22. You have enough clothes.
23. You have too many shoes.
24. I am in shape. Round is a shape.
Thank you for reading this; Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight,
but did you know men really don't mind that, it's like camping.
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2003 2 December :: 8.42 pm
:: Mood: Scum
:: Music: Cry me a River
Scum!!!!!!
Who am I? I am scum. Scum I am. I did it. I broke up w/ him. I regret soo damn much right now. I do not deserve to have nice guys. I should do the world a favor and just not date...EVER! I'm less than scum I am the fungus on the scum..no I am the parisite that eats on the fungus that lives on the scum. I hurt that kid soo damn much. It sucks. I wrote him a letter and he burned it! But that's not all he had his friends give it back to me and he wrote "fuck it then" on the back. I say that's immature, but he has the right. I just want someone to tell me that I did the right thing and that it wouldn't have worked out neways in the long run. I don't think anyone can tell me that though. I wanna call him soo bad right now. I can't, I shouldn't. He wont pick up anyways.
It's just that I don't want to fall in love. We were going in the path that I didn't want to take. He wants a more intamit and serious relationship and I just want fun and have some seriousness to it, but not l-o-v-e. Love as a friend or as a close friend, but not the serious love. I'm too young for that and besides he would be going to college in a year and I would be left behind, if we lasted that long. It would of been more dreadful and confusing by the end right????? In some ways I am glad that we broke up, but why do I feel hurt and also feel that I lost someone close to me and that I wanna cry? It's like someone died. I'm soo confused about this. I've never felt soo confused about a break up before. It feels wrong sometimes that we broke up. It's sux totally. OK I have to go now. Just...I need help on this...
TA TA
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2003 1 December :: 5.50 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
_him_
Ok I did it. I told him how I feel. I kinda regret it, but I am glad that I got it off my chest. Ok. I think that is all I have to say now. I'm gonna go call Jared.
I didn' t know that sea-turtle wears emo glasses..it's um....funny!
AndI
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2003 25 November :: 3.34 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
badada!
I know what I am doing now. I am pushing him away. I want to push him away. I want to get mad, so I have a reason to break up w/ him. I do it self-consciencely )(however u spell it)( Why am I doin this? Probably b/c it got more serious then i want it right now. Plus, he loves me waaaaay more then I love him. I feel pressure too. Not good.
He keeps telling me that he loves me and all that. I don't need to know it all the damn time. Once in a while is good enough for me.
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I still have feelings for this other guy. I dunno what's about it though. I don't think he even likes me, i guess that's why i'm not pursuing it.
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I like leppy a lot, just not LOVE. I care for the guy a lot, but just like a close friend. Closest buddy, friend love. I'm not IN love and I don't wanna be right now. I'm too young. I dunno what's going on w/ me right now. Grrr..it's sooo aggravateing.
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2003 24 November :: 6.49 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Def Lepord
My weekend
I went to the Miami Football game. I was surounded by the Redskin's cheerleaders in the stands. Yea, sorry guys. I know you wish you were me. Sorry again. They were doin their dances and what-not. They kept me entertained.
I went to Fort Lauderdale beach. Neato place dawg. Nice surf shop they have there. I bought a Volcum beanie. yoo-hoo.
So I traveled back today, so I skipped school. O well. What are u gonna do?
This Thanksgiving I am not looking forward to. Gr. I don't want to travel. I wanna stay here and have friends come over and just be lazy, but noooo I can't even do that. I must go to Georgia w/ my grandparent's in their motor home and then go to a theme park and be drope 200 and something feet. Fine! So be it! lol. I only like the theme park part.
I wanna c alan. I haven't seen that kid in such a long time. I wanna c nick. I'll c him tomorrow though, if he's at school.
I'm a loser and I don't deserve the guy that I have now b/c at this moment i don't desire him and that's terrible. There's times that I do desire him soo very much so, but when I'm w/ or talking to certain ppl I feel ashamed for having him and just wanting to make out w/ those ppl and stuff. Nick and Alan put me to shame and it sux. I'll just turn Morman and go out w/ all of 'em. There my problem i solved!
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2003 22 November :: 12.50 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: 3 days grace- I hate everything
_Anne's Party_
Soooo it was fun. For the most part ne ways. It was uncomfortable between Jeremy and I and Jon and I. Jon still likes me which sux monkey balls that have blue bum and that are french (wee). Never the right time...
Jeremy and I got over the uncomfortable state sorta maybe.
Bre--- I HATE her!!! I've tried to be nice and at leat like her a lil tiny bit but nope, can't do it. Sh'es gona to far. She's in my territory w/ stuff and she's a bigger poser than I knew. Grrr!!! She made me soo damn pissed.
NIck---I'm starting to like him again and that's bad. I have a b/f. Not good!! He makes me feel guilty for having a b/f.
I dunno what to do at all!!!!
I really didn't want Leppy there, I was glad when he left. Thta's bad too.
Ok..well I'm gonna go now. ta ta.
AndI
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2003 18 November :: 10.19 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: It's my party I can Cry if i want to...You would to if it hapened to you!
_*_My Birthday_*_
Today is November 18th, my B-day. OH what a wonderful day for me. Well Lets see.... This morning on the bus Anne gave me her gift to me. It was a Gift card to FYE. Thanks hun! Dick threw "thing 2" at me. Thanks for that LDM! Kyle gave me a big B-day hug. Yum Yum! LOL. J/k.
I went to go open my locker and I got a big surprise! Amanda gave me a browine cake thing w/ a small clown balloon. Yay! That surprised me a lot! I bet the brownies are gonna be gone by the end of the day b/c of lunch. Thanks Mandy!
Leppy got me a green carebears hoodie. It's an inside joke w/ a bear and lepercons stuff. I'm wearing it now. I love it a lot. I feel special. It's soo damn soft!
That's all I got so far. It's actually more than I thought.
The weekend after Turkey weekend I think I may have a sleep over w/ the "Klan" at my house. I'll c if i can do it. Don't worry we're not a "Klan", I just call us that when I'm refering to the main gang bang. Believe me we do bang. LOL!!! Sorry...
I'm in school now, still, n e ways. Ok, well I'll write l8r.
AndI
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2003 17 November :: 8.49 am
:: Mood: Thinking again
:: Music: Relient K- what am i getting into?
In the Zone
It's weird. This feeling inside. Don't understand it. Confused. Puzzled. Maybe it's a missing feeling of something or someone. But what can I possibly miss or who from this god-forsaken place that I call home and cherish and love? There's nuttin here for me to stay, but yet I still hang around waiting. Waiting for something to discover to prove myself that my belief is wrong and that there is something here for me. I'm sure many people feel like this in their "Cape Coma". I'm not alone. It feels like it though over half the time. To escape, to be gone, to be free from this dead place all seems like a dream. A dream that will never come true. Maybe it's not true. Maybe I will be free, I will escape, I will be gone from here. But yet, the feeling is still there. Empty?? No clue. I think I am missing someone who I cherish and love. May I say myself that is a damn miricle!
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2003 13 November :: 8.17 am
:: Mood: Open Minded
Just thinking....
"Pain is a necessary reminder of what happiness truly is. Without pain joy would die. This is a circular paradox that represents itself in every important aspect of the human philosophy. Without such ideals we would not exist as we are today."
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2003 11 November :: 5.49 pm
:: Mood: snory and grateful
:: Music: Jets: Would you be my girl?
_Last Night_ToDay!
*DicK* came home w/ me and we played drums. My drum set that is..lol. Ahh..then we walked to his dad's house. Long walk! Amanda and Anne came over a lil bit after us from Anne's mom's house by bike. That's kinda far. Poor amanda couldn't really handle it though. :(. We watched T.v and played PS2.
Then ahh....Nick, Jordan, Jenna, Mike, and that other dude that Jordan and Jenna r crazy about. He's no that great. He's a fag. Yep, a fag. At least Nick and I think so. Jordan and Jenna left. We skated and watched and sk8ed some more. Nick flirted w/ everyone. It bugged me.
Then we went inside and played PS2. fun fun fun. Then Amanda went home. I decided to sleep over. Nick had to go home at like 11. I took a shower in Dick's room. Nick and Kyle wouldn't leave me alone. Nick saw me in my bra b/c I opened the door to kick them out. I was scared *shiver* that they would come in the bathroom. Nick was trying to get me to flash him b/c I owe him.
He left a while later and when we were outside waiting for his dad to come a lil dog came in anne's yard. It was soo cute. Kyle and Dick thought it was called something else then it really was. They couldn't read the tag very well. We found the owner though and we played w/ the dog. Nick left and Anne and I went back to get some shut eye.
_ToDay_
Anne and I went to the beach w/ Brandon. It was fun. Brandon is a big big big big HUge I mean HUGE DORK! Worse than me. That's pretty bad. We layed out & went in the cold freezing water and stuff. Yeah..then he dropped us off at Anne's.
Anne and I went in the pool, the spa and then her dad's bathtub. Poor Dick. He had to do yard work all day. He was pissed about it. I would be too.
Then I came home and got ready to go to drum practice. I'm wiped out yo. A guy from the pest control came over to do his thang, he was sooo friggin wierd dude. I was scared. *more shivers* As it turns out we were too late to go to drum practice. hallaluja!! My God has helped me today. WOO! but n e ways, I have to go practice now in my roomthough. So lata Cats!
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2003 9 November :: 4.50 pm
:: Mood: mellow
*_My_weekend_*
Friday
It was ok. I went across the street and Nick, Jordan, Jenna, Anne, Rich, Anthony, and Jared ( :) ) were there. It was fun, we just skated, Well not the girls though. I went over Rich's dad's house. It's huge!!! I love it.
Then I went home and was bored for the rest of the night.
Saturday
I slept in. I cut the whole dang lot!! Not just the front..the sides and fron and back. It was sucky. I did it w/out being asked. I feel special *shrug*. Then....I got ready to go to Gaby's and Amber's b-day parties. Gaby's was ok. I felt outta place b/c i'm not really friends w/ her friends b/c their from the eagles. Anne and I felt like loners, but we weren't. I took the cake and smashed it into gaby's face. It was funny. Michelle and Jordan did it to eachother too.
After that I went to Amber's. We went to beatniks, the greatest place ever. Then Jalapanos..it was ok..then the movies. We saw love actually. It was too long. We go there at 10:45 and we left at 1:30 am. It was a britsih movie, a lil wierd. We went back to amber's and stayed up till like 4. It was soo much fun. yeah great times...I left her house at 3 pm. I stayed longer then i wanna but it was fine.
Sunday
Today is blah... that's all i have to say about that. Blah...blah blah blah...and blah.
Happy B-day Amber!!!
AndI
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2003 7 November :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: loved
*HIM*
He is soooo damn perfect. I don't deserve him one bit, but yet he's mine. He has similar insites as me.. we talked about love and how ppl abuse it. He writes poetry and has a soft and gentle side...no one ever sees it though...but *me*.
He's thoughful and nice and respects me so well.. He has only had one g/f before and I can't really believe it.
The bad thing is that he's opened sooooo damn much to me and trusts me a lot...great right? But the bad thing is i can't really do the same in return. Y is that? B/c I'm not use to it. I'm a ball that can never be popped, i'm a lock that can never be broken, i'm a combination that can never be figured, i'm a deer that never be...well u got it. It's hard for me to open up this quik..we only have been goin out for a week! I believe that if i don't open up soon or in like 2 weeks he's gonna get tired of me and break up w/ me..eek!
He thinks i don't really tell him n e thing is b/c i don't trust him, but i do to the extent. The extent w/ chicks. C he was a "player" when we were "friends" but he's not now, but it's hard for me to trust him about that.
)(sigh)(...
Tell me what u think about this...
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2003 5 November :: 5.25 pm
:: Mood: tired
I'm sooo tired. I've been all day. I slept in English..eekk! Bad thing to do, bad, bad Andi, BAD!
Nick wants me to teach him drums..yay! I don't think i'm gonna have him pay even though he asked. But if i do charge then like......I get money, dur! But i dunno what i'm gonna do. no pay most likely.
I think i'm drooling, i can't tell. lol
I got finding nemo. I watched it too many times. I have to go and um...do homework. So i'll write l8r when I have something more interesting to talk about. L8r!
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2003 31 October :: 11.08 pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Blink182: First Date
Halloween Night!!
So Brandan drove me home...woo! We actually went to his house and um...had a fun time.... Then we went to my house to wait for my ma and sis to come back from the doctors. We had a great time waiting....
Then we went to Beatniks. Great place! Then we went to anothe rcafe but it was closed. We just drove all around Fort Myers to kill time before the movies. We got lost lol. ... I loved it.
We went to the movies and someones weren't there cough:Amanda Cough:Mike Cough: who ever else. So Brandan and I had a great time in the theatre n e ways.
Coral wood is soo damn cool inside, the seats go lean back!
Then we went to where ever our hearts desired. We went to Four Freedoms park and layed there talking and looking up in the sky...so damn pretty. He asked me out there too.... Then we frolicked our way to the car and went driving again to where ever. We stopped at some lot and um...yeah..so n e ways, I was like lets go to the Yaught Club, so we went and saw Drew (the freak/punk kid) and his weirdo friends. We walked the beach and layed down and um..yeah again.... Then he drove me home...
So here I am at home.... Halloween night is the best dawg! Lol!
I made a new friend, Nick. He is sooo TubuLAR, I can already tell! I have a feeling that he's gonna be gay sooner or lata. lol.
Well I'm gonna go now, if u want to know the details then call me or someone get the hold of me that is not aol b/c i don't wanna type it.
AndI
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