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yellowchicki

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.49am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: Wonder Boy (Great song hehe!)

My foot itches!!
Today went by really slow and I slept in math. I got my homecoming pictures yesterday, so I was showing everyone those. Omg, everyone was like who is that hot guy whenever they saw John's picture! I talked to the really hot curly hair guy in class and online! I was talking about him breaking up with his G/F. Hehe! I went to the Doctors after school today and I got a Physical, so I got my finger pricked and guess what?? I have a low level of iron, so that why Im always so tired and sleep in class!! Its such a great excuse!! Well, Im gonna go walk the dogs and workout. Byez!! Mwaz!!!

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: amused

B-day
HHHEEELLL YYAAA! Ok im finally gunna be 15! Im excited for saturday, and everyday up untill it cuzz i get lotz o presents!!! Yay! And to ya'll who kno something you shouldnt( it involves noises) shhhhhhhhhhhhh

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andi

:: 2003 5 November :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: tired

I'm sooo tired. I've been all day. I slept in English..eekk! Bad thing to do, bad, bad Andi, BAD!
Nick wants me to teach him drums..yay! I don't think i'm gonna have him pay even though he asked. But if i do charge then like......I get money, dur! But i dunno what i'm gonna do. no pay most likely.
I think i'm drooling, i can't tell. lol
I got finding nemo. I watched it too many times. I have to go and um...do homework. So i'll write l8r when I have something more interesting to talk about. L8r!

AndI

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cali

:: 2003 4 November :: 6.22pm
:: Music: Special Olympics

Halloween
OMG FUN FUN FUN! If only i could tell all. I was frealing out ppl at school cause i accedentally wore one clear contact and one blue one! It was great! Anne and alot of ppl wouldn't look at me when they talked! I was laughing sssssssssssoooooooooo hard!
After school i called all the ppl that
were comin over and then i called Jer and in the end we ended up goin to pick up kelsey t. and went to Jer's at 6:00pm(he has a GNARLY HELLA BIG AMP NOW!) where we were all messing around and having some fun....In his bed (espescially me and Kelsey Rotfl)....... Then later we picked up amber at like 9:00 and went to see scary Movie 3 it was funny thanks to us being a lil' tired which made us hyper too and amber had a lil extra help LOL j/j. O yea Amber did you have fun "talkin" to bradon on the phone!?!?! ll j/j Anyways after the movie we went to blockbuster and then wallmart! It was like 11:30 when we got to wallmart guess who's fine ass we saw when we got there? JASON! OMG HE IS SOOOO CUTE! He had some friends w/ him which one of them was really fine( at least i thought so)! OMG YUMMY anne YUMMY! Kelsey is gunna have Jason and I'll take his friend! But omg yummy! lol they said hey and when they walked by they said we were hot! i was like O yea hey hey hey! lol! whew! Damn! hello! well then we went home and passed out while watching Halloween Reserection, It, and Dream catcher! and dreamt of Jason and his friend!
Whew well i'll talk to you later kk ok later
Um... Dur.............

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yellowchicki

:: 2003 3 November :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: crazy

I wrote in it!!
I know its a miracle I wrote in my journal!! I just wanted to write down another day that I was in England when I meet Edwar(Eddie) He was 16 and very cute. He played guitar and was sOoO nice like he and I were talking about parents getting divorced and he was telling me how sad he was and how he still kinda was. He was playing guitar for me and stuff and he is really good at Bmxing. He was really one of the coolest guys I have meet cuz he was so open and didn't care what other people thought and was a totally sweetheart and I really miss him!! I wanna see him again Sniff Sniff! This is what I hate about making friends who live somewhere else. I Love and miss you my England Gang that includes Lettie, Alice, Olly, Justin, Edward, Danny, Sophie, Clare, my Cuz, my Uncle, Aunt, Nanna, and Grandad, The Duckies, The Horses, and The Dogs!!

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andi

:: 2003 31 October :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Blink182: First Date

Halloween Night!!
So Brandan drove me home...woo! We actually went to his house and um...had a fun time.... Then we went to my house to wait for my ma and sis to come back from the doctors. We had a great time waiting....
Then we went to Beatniks. Great place! Then we went to anothe rcafe but it was closed. We just drove all around Fort Myers to kill time before the movies. We got lost lol. ... I loved it.
We went to the movies and someones weren't there cough:Amanda Cough:Mike Cough: who ever else. So Brandan and I had a great time in the theatre n e ways.
Coral wood is soo damn cool inside, the seats go lean back!
Then we went to where ever our hearts desired. We went to Four Freedoms park and layed there talking and looking up in the sky...so damn pretty. He asked me out there too.... Then we frolicked our way to the car and went driving again to where ever. We stopped at some lot and um...yeah..so n e ways, I was like lets go to the Yaught Club, so we went and saw Drew (the freak/punk kid) and his weirdo friends. We walked the beach and layed down and um..yeah again.... Then he drove me home...
So here I am at home.... Halloween night is the best dawg! Lol!

I made a new friend, Nick. He is sooo TubuLAR, I can already tell! I have a feeling that he's gonna be gay sooner or lata. lol.

Well I'm gonna go now, if u want to know the details then call me or someone get the hold of me that is not aol b/c i don't wanna type it.

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 30 October :: 10.05am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: breathe

Why??? Wed Night..at church
i was ok for the whole day, I talked to Brandan on Anne's cell on the bus for a bit and at home. That made me cheerful. Well Amanda (my sis), David (her b/f) and my ma and me went to wallgreens to pick up the pics of my sister's car and my homecoming and amanda's homecoming. Mother of Pearl! I saw my sister's car for the first time ever!!! I gasped when i saw the site.
Well I was still ok though till I got to Youth Group. In a middle of a song I started to cry and I couldn't stop. L to the ouie (louie) came over and asked what's wrong, which that made me cry more...Levi geeze, he brought his now g/f tonight..the bastard, so he didn't even pay attention to ne thing.
Reason for me crying?? I have no idea, all i know is that it has to do w/ the pics of the car. Like if i was the passenger I would not be here, i would be paralyzed or in a hospital...it's kind of scary. But here me out i'm not upset or aggravated or sad or nething...it's weird. I don't feel nuttin , so i cry... hmmmm....
I was a lil hurt when I saw Levi w/ Holly, but it's all good. I jus thought og him and it made me feel so much better and it made Levi look less hott too. lol. SO um...yeah.
I think that Amanda and I are ok now well we've been ok but i think we are better. Which is Dandy like Candy..I'm gonna make something for her, but i'm not gonna tell u what it is...maybe i'lll make something for Amber too. I'll give them their own indviduality..even though what i make for them will be the same....lol. Why am I gonna maek something for them? cuz..I can and I can do it. woo! Later...

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andi

:: 2003 29 October :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

HIM!!
Dude...he is awesome! I was talking to him on the phone and we got to know eachother soo damn well. It's great, seriously really great. He loves to write like me. He read me some of his poems that he wrote. Holy mother of pearl ! He's a lil shakespeare! lol. I'm soo glad I stayed at FMHS, he makes it more anjoyable expecially in 1st period...Cough, nudge, wink!!! lol. I can talk to him for hours....
He told me something that is soo damn sweet today when we had to go to 3rd period...sigh..it's great

Today I wanted to be a neato kind of gal that I can be, so I went to Economics to get Amanda and Anne outta class. I was just like I have to interview them for like 15 minutes... )(i have newspaper by the way and i get to go n e where)( So BAM they got outta class b/c of me. He came along too.... So we were just talking and stuff. Then Anne had to go to the bathroom to wash her hands and so we walked her to the girls bathrooms and he went in there too! Amanda and I were like ahhhh.... and he just said I do it all the time. lol. It was soo awkward for Anne I bet. I love him, he's soo TubULAR!
Maybe on friday we'll go to the movies at Coralwood. Woo! Finally it opened! It looks kind of cool inside but still korny looking.

Ok, I have to go and do spanish HW..O by the way I failed 2 tests today..o well!

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 26 October :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: Crazii!!!

Saturday_Sunday..my Weekend!!
..:*:..Saturday..:*:..
I woke up at 4:45 in the AM!!! Reason? I self-consiently )(however u spell it)( put on my alarm clock! eh...I went back to sleep till Brandan called me at 8 AM! The doosch! hehe. Well he called to make sure where he is gonna pick me up for homecoming and all that goods. I got up after that and got ready for drum lessons at 10:30 am. After that I went to House of Drums and set up my future lessons there in december. Then I got home around 12:30 and got ready to go the the hair style place. 2 hours it took to do my friggin hair. I looked like goldie locks i swear, but then I messed w/ it myself and changed it to look better....
I left my house and went to Carabba's. Awesome place. Brandan surprised me there. He bought me a corsage!! It was white roses. Well he met all my friends that were there. He was just like blonde 1, blonde 2, burnette 5..lol. Everyone loved him.
He's friend was w/ him too, Phil, our mascot!! lol . Amanda hit it off great w/ him. I teased her about Mike. I was like remember that Asian?? she was like No i don't recall. lol. Later me, her, phil and brandan went in brandan's car to harbor side. It was such a dandy ride. I wanted kelsy to hook up w/ him not amanda but o well...
When we got there we discovered that PHil can't dance for shizznet! lol. He was like a giant sea turtle. Brandan can dance thank goodness. Me and him grinded boy! woo-hoo! Amanda and I switched dance partners for a bit on a salsa dance. Yeah..Phil is hopless.
Brandan and I kept kissing and making out while we danced. great times!! He also like nibbled on my ear and did other stuff to it. Anne was right it does feel great. lol. Brandan and I can't be serious together, one of us always makes us crack up. He sang to me on a slow song..1..2..3..AWWWEE!!! lol.
He said sweet stuff to me at the end of the dance on that last 2 songs...I'm not gonna put in here what he said. ask me and i will tell...maybe..

I called my ma and told her that gaby's mom is gonna drive me home but actually Brandan was driving me and 5 of my friends home instead..shhh don't squeal on me. lol. It was soo fun on the ride home. Brandon got me pissed on the ride home and i wouldn't look at him, so he stopped on top of the CC bridge!!!! I'm like Brandan!!! He's like nope...So we kissed and we made up i guess and he went on.
After Gaby, Jordan, larrissa, and Jessica got dropped off and it was just anne, me and him. Me and him kept singing the songs on the rock stations and anne felt left out but it's all good. Then all of a sudden she was like "Michelle look at Brandan's uniform for work! DOn't u love guys in uniforms?" I was like " o yes!" lol. The she was like " I found his hat!" and Brandan yells, " It's a visor!" and she's like "sorry, a Visor!!". It was soo funny. Earlier Brandan kept choosing the wrong ways to go home and i'm like u make be choices. he's like well I choose u and i was like " like I said, u make bad choices". lol. sigh....I love that night. WHen we got to my house he kissed me good night...

Sunday
I went to church, the mall w/ Ginny, did homework and cleaned my room. It was an ok day. I realized that Levi and I are over, neither of us like eachother....

P.s
Amanda dind't stay w/ phil the whole night, she ditched him and she told him that she has a b/f.

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 25 October :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: calm

Read this, it gave me chills!
> Daddy's Day at School
> >
> > Her hair was up in a ponytail
> > Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
> >
> > Today was Daddy's Day at school,
> > And she couldn't wait to go.
> >
> > But her mommy tried to tell her,
> > That she probably should stay home.
> > Why the kids might not understand,
> > If she went to school alone.
> >
> > But she was not afraid;
> > She knew just what to say.
> > What to tell her classmates
> > Of why he wasn't there today.
> >
> > But still her mother worried,
> > For her to face this day alone.
> > And that was why once again,
> > She tried to keep her daughter home.
> >
> > But the little girl went to school,
> > Eager to tell them all.
> > About a dad she never sees
> > A dad who never calls.
> >
> > There were daddies along the wall in back,
> > For everyone to meet.
> > Children squirming impatiently,
> > Anxious in their seats.
> >
> > One by one the teacher called,
> > A student from the class.
> > To introduce their daddy,
> > As seconds slowly passed.
> >
> > At last the teacher called her name,
> > Every child turned to stare.
> > Each of them was searching,
> > For a man who wasn't there.
> >
> > "Where's her daddy at?"
> > She heard a boy call out.
> > "She probably doesn't have one,"
> > Another student dared to shout.
> >
> > And from somewhere near the back,
> > She heard a daddy say,
> > "Looks like another deadbeat dad,
> > Too busy to waste his day."
> >
> > The words did not offend her,
> > As she smiled up at her Mom.
> > And looked back at her teacher,
> > Who told her to go on.
> >
> > And with hands behind her back,
> > Slowly she began to speak.
> > And out from the mouth of a child,
> > Came words incredibly unique.
> >
> > "My Daddy couldn't be here,
> > Because he lives so far away.
> > But I know he wishes he could be,
> > Since this is such a special day.
> >
> > And though you cannot meet him,
> > I wanted you to know.
> > All about my daddy,
> > And how much he loves me so.
> >
> > He loved to tell me stories
> > He taught me to ride my bike.
> > He surprised me with pink roses,
> > And taught me to fly a kite.
> >
> > We used to share fudge sundaes,
> > And ice cream in a cone.
> > And though you cannot see him,
> > I'm not standing here alone.
> >
> > "Cause my daddy's always with me,
> > Even though we are apart
> > I know because he told me,
> > He'll forever be in my heart"
> >
> > With that, her little hand reached up,
> > And lay across her chest.
> > Feeling her own heartbeat,
> > Beneath her favorite dress.
> >
> > And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
> > Her mother stood in tears.
> > Proudly watching her daughter,
> > Who was wise beyond her years.
> >
> > For she stood up for the love
> > Of a man not in her life..
> > Doing what was best for her,
> > Doing what was right.
> >
> > And when she dropped her hand back down,
> > Staring straight into the crowd.
> > She finished with a voice so soft,
> > But its message clear and loud.
> >
> > "I love my daddy very much,
> > He's my shining star.
> > And if he could, he'd be here,
> > But heaven's just too far.
> >
> > You see he was a fireman
> > And died just this past year
> > When airplanes hit the towers
> > And taught Americans to fear.
> >
> > But sometimes when I close my eyes,
> > It's like he never went away."
> > And then she closed her eyes,
> > And saw him there that day.
> >
> > And to her mother's amazement,
> > She witnessed with surprise.
> > A room full of daddies and children,
> > All starting to close their eyes..
> >
> > Who knows what they saw before them,
> > Who knows what they felt inside.
> > Perhaps for merely a second,
> > They saw him at her side.
> >
> > "I know you're with me Daddy,"
> > To the silence she called out.
> > And what happened next made believers,
> > Of those once filled with doubt.
> >
> > Not one in that room could explain it,
> > For each of their eyes had been closed.
> > But there on the desk beside her,
> > Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
> >
> > And a child was blessed,
> > if only for a moment,
> > By the love of her shining bright star.
> > And given the gift of believing,
> > That heaven is never too far
> >
> > They say it takes a minute to find a
> > special person, an hour to
> > appreciate them, a day to love them, but
> > then an entire life to forget them.
> >
> > Send this phrase to the people you'll never
> > forget and remember to send
> > it also to the person that sent it to you.
> > It's short message to let them know that
> > you'll never forget them.
> >
> > If you don't send it to anyone, it means
> > you're in a hurry and that
> > you've forgot your friends.
> > Take the time...to live and love.
> >
> > Until eternity. God bless
> >

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andi

:: 2003 25 October :: 9.13am
:: Mood: awake

Last night_Today
Ok yesturday I went across the street (that's Publix by the way) and I watched the Sk8rs sk8. I didn't bring my board b/c I was too tired to sk8brd. Later I found Jordan, Anne and richi. We hanged out together w/ Jared too. It was kinda fun. Anne left to go to the Carnivel w/ Amanda and Amber. Later I went home to go talk to my parents about what I was gonna do that night...
SO that night I went over Nick's house. It's sooo gorgeous and he lives in Cape Harbor. Holy mother of PEARL! Nick is soo sweet he's like MIchelle don't say n e thing. He doesn't like to show off that he has a big house or that their kinda rich. But basically their not rich. I guess they spend money on their house thta they have no money for themselves. Well n e ways, We watched Movies and cuddled..ooolalala! lol. Nick's friend was there too, devin, along w/ Jordan. Nick and he friend, who has nice abs by the way, jumped off the 2nd floor balcony into the pool. I wish I did that! But Nick didn't tell me to bring my swim suit! Stupid poopoo poo person! lol. Maybe next weekend eh?? I'm starting to like Nick more and more. I don't really wanna like him b/c he likes michelle. But it'l be alright. she doesn't wanna go out w/ him or no body for that matter.

Today
I have to go to Drum practice in the AM! How stupid! i can't sleep in! O well.
Later I'm getting my hair did. Hate doing hair, hate dresses, hate the heels...
I'm gonna go to Caraba's and meet Amanda and Anne and Kelsy there. Then at 7:00 Brandan is gonna meet me there and pick me up. I love that Kid too death. But u know...if u know how he is like I do, then u don't really wanna go out w/ him...poopoo poopoo poo on a sticky wicky! I have to skidaddle and get ready for drum practice later g!


AndI

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andi

:: 2003 24 October :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: bouncy

Another one from HIM! lol
Top Ten Signs That Your Mother Does Indeed Wishes To Kill You!
By: Brandon Lamb and Dave Johnson

1.) She mixes your chocolate milk with rat poison instead of Nesquik.
2.) Instead of making your sandwiches with lunchmeat, she throws rusty razor blades on your bread.
3.) You know for a fact that she spiked your peanut butter cookies with ammonia.
4.) Instead of Glades Plug-ins, you find random dead animal parts around your electrical sockets.
5.) Every time you go to take a bath, your tub is filled with pig blood.
6.) She sets your dog on fire for the fun of it.
7.) She keyed the message, “You don’t have long now, not too much time now…” on your car door.
8.) Instead of taking your tooth and replacing it with money, like any normal tooth fairy would, your mom took your tooth and made a shrine out of it, and left you her index finger.
9.) She gives you a tombstone describing in vivid detail the ways she would like to destroy you and your soul, for your birthday.
10.) Instead of tucking you in at night, she dumps buckets full of flesh eating insects into your bed at night.

Okay. Here's the thing about this, I don't know how acceptable this would be. You guys can make the call and whatever, it's just... I 'unno, it freaks me out, just a little.
I'm sure you understand... I hope.

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andi

:: 2003 22 October :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: realization

_My sister_(gone??)
I was on the bus today and I called me mom b/c I wanted to know if I can go tonight to FMHS for this thing w/ Nick. Well...my mom was like I dunno, I'm heading to the Emergancy room. Right then and there my heart sank and my eyes got big. I'm like why?? She said my sister got in a car accident. I'm ok..I didn't know what to think or ne thing. So i hanged up...hoping that everything is fine.

Later my mom finally came home w/ my sister...there was no other car to c except for my mom's car. I'm like where is her car? A dump truck ran into the front end of my sister's car. The whole front is totally smashed. It's totaled. She should of been dead. I'm still in shock. I'm shaky and everything that goes w/ it.

Word to everyone (from me to u): Every damn minute of ur life is a blessing, don't waste it at being mad at someone or being evil. Enjoy every friggin secound of it.

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 21 October :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: pissed off

What the fuck?
Okay, I go through ALOT of trouble to do this tubular trip to Orlando seeing Alkaline trio,staying in REALLY nice resort,screwing around in Dinsey, and eating at really nice places. I had to go thu alot of shit w/ my parents(who were awesome about this). This all originated from a friend of mine saying that he was mad that I havent been a fan as long as him and that he would be very displeased if i went(not in those words). So i was like ok, ill take you to, but its his best friends b-day that day and him who really loves the band to so i agreed to TAKE HIS FRIEND on this trip.Well then I wanted to take a chick friend cuz it would blow w/out her, but it turns out she cant go. So he is acting all bitchy to me when i am doing HIM this huge favor and i pretty much tell him its not worth it. He gets all pissed and weirded out and i was like bye. So i talk to another friend and i find out that he thinks this is like some kind of DATE OR SOMETHING! OMG What a freak! What on gods green earth would make him think that? I liked him 2 years ago! He has a gf! I DO NOT LIKE HIM,I WILL NEVER LIKE HIM! and he blew me off on something that was really important to me earlier apparently for the exact same reason.(To the person that told me this info, im sorry but i had to get advise). I need help and advice ppl, am i in the wrong? Im so sick of this shit, i am honestly done w/ it!GRRRRR and ps, to whom this goes out to FUCK YOU,YOU ARE NOT WORTH JACK SHIT

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andi

:: 2003 19 October :: 12.32am
:: Mood: peaceful (goddly like)
:: Music: Relient K

To the only one who understands me...
I am Understood?

sometimes it's embarassing to talk to you
to hold a conversation w/ the only one who sees right through
this version of myself i try to hide behind
i'll bury my face b/c my disgrace will leave me terrified & sometimes i'm so thankful for your loyalty
your love regardless of the mistakes i make will spoil me
my confindence is, in a sense, a gift you've given me
and i'm satisfied to realize u're all i'll ever need
you look into my life and never stopped and ur thinking all my thoughts are so simple but so beautiful and u recite my words right back to me
before i speak you let me know i am understood and sometimes i spend my time trying to escape
I work so hard so desperatly in an attempt to create space cause i want distance from the utmost important thing i know
i see your love then turn my back and beg you to go.
you're the only one who understands completely. u're the only one who knows me but still loves (me) completely and sometimes the place i'm at is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy i know that it's already yours
and through the times i've faded and you've outlined me again you've just patiently waited to bring me back and then the noise has broken my defense.
let me embrace salvatioin
your voice has broken my defense

let me embrace slavation
________________________________________________________________________
This is to the one, the only one who understands me and accepts me for who i am regardless of everything that i do and say. None of my friends know him, at least i think....

AndI

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