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2004 29 July :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Fuck it
Ummm mad
A word of advice to all men, dont go drinking to the point that you cant drive your damn date! It kinda pisses us off!
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2004 29 July :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: calm
_My day_
So ahhh....today, yea. fun???
Went to work as a secertary. Answered phones, did paper work. When out to lunch w/ my mom and boss...joy! Did more work.
Maybe when I get home I'll clean and practice drums. Change cloths though is what i will do first. Then watch 2 t.v shows i've ben waiting for. Yup, sounds like a boring plan, but I love it. :- )
Call me if you wish.
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2004 29 July :: 12.57am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Twisted
Im back and tonight
Im back in town, yay! if you wanna know about my night....go to www.woohu.com/~and its easier than me retyping it again. L8r
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2004 28 July :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: cheery
:: Music: Rush
Tonight
Well so I guess I need to update this lil journal here. So here I am. Updating it. Fun!!
So ahhh...today went a lil crazy w/ the planning to go to Beatniks and whose coming whose not. It was crazy fo.
So I got there before n e one else and then I saw Kelsey and Amanda and Amber coming to me in the back room. Woo. Then shortly after Jon and Joe showed up. Then Anne showed up w/ Chris and Matt.
I was a lil aggrevated with Anne. But w/e it doesn't matter now.
So I brought the ahh..Friends Trivia game. Yea, we soo did not play it. I knew that was gonna happen. I had to carry it around the whole night. It sucked.
Amber and I got ditched by Anne and that posse, so we hung out w/ Jon and Joe. It was cool though. I think it was best that they left.
Amber and Jon started to talk about business and what Jon is gonna do and shizz. Yea, I had no clue what they were talking about. lol. Joe and I just layed on the couch and were just lost w/ Jon and Amber's convo. At least I was.
Then we couldn't make up our minds like should ww stay should we go? I dunno we left came back and left. so pointless. lol. Amber and I got freaked out by this weird laugh when we were in the back ally. We were like ooo shit! Amber and I grabed hands dude. I swear it was right next to me. We scrambled to open the back door but Amber couldn't do it. I pushed her outta the way and opened it w/ my big muscle (yea right). Joe and Jon were like WTF? We started to laugh and was like out there and pointing and we just couldn't talk. Jon and Joe went out to check out what is was. Our heros!! Hahaha.
so ahh...yea...I'm gonna go. Lata.
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2004 26 July :: 8.48pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: screw coheed and cambria
screw him...i came to a conclusion
I hate joe. I hate him. He's soo ignorant.
Soo many ppl are being ignorant to me lately. i hate it!
I figured out why i haven't been happy. It really isn't all Alan's fault like i thought. Its b/c i don't feel appreciated or loved anymore. i feel neglected. For instance, I clean my house everyday (no lie) and my family doesn't appreciate it or recongnize it. They just mess it up again and my parents ask me to do everything and don't ask my sisters. My friends even make me feel unappreciated and neglected. I don't feel like we're close n e more. I feel like I'm an outsider. I want friends that don't make me feel like that. I just want more. I'm not content w/ what i have n e more. I'm just not happy.
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2004 26 July :: 12.19am
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: cold play
eh
So ahh..I want new friends. I'm gonna keep the old ones (don't worry). I just want to branch out more b/c yea...so is the water w/ me on this or am i alone? People are soo ignorant these days and it just sets me off,.
Yes amber I am irritated again by the fire. i want you home!!!
Ali if you can read this which I don't think you can, but I want you home too!
I don't like being alone.
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2004 24 July :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: Peachy
:: Music: Country!!!
Family/Reno
Few days ago I hung out w/ the group and that was ok, ya'll were there so there is no use in getting into it. I flew into San Fran like 2 days ago, hung around and had an amazing dinner. San Fran has changed alot! Then yesterday we drove to Reno which wasnt so bad because I was reading a damn good book, Lance Amstrog's 1st book which is actually making me think aboutdoing a triatholon! Shocker i kno! Today was our memorial/family reunion where we basically sat around, told some stories, ate alot, no fights, a lil bordem but thats excpected, i went on a harly, fun stuff! Tomarrow we are hanging around here and then we are going back to San Fran to catch a flight! By the way, if you guys think floridas hot, THINK AGAIN! It scorching out here! Miss ya xoxoxoxo byes (if spelling and shit is wrong its this weird computer thingy, ill explain later) Byes!!
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2004 22 July :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: awakened
:: Music: story of the year: anthem of our dieing day"
Today, in the rain.
It rained today for a while. It was a nice constent rain that had no thunder or lightening.
I opened the garage door and it sent a warm breeze to me and a welcome feeling, so I went out in the rain. I just sat there on my drive way just thinking as the rain came down...It was a nice feeling. I feel like I got washed or something.
Well I know what I should do now...to make me happy. I have to loose the one thing that I love most and then gain another thing that I know will make me very happy someday...
I go on unnoticed.
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2004 21 July :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: scared and hopeless
i'm scared and hopelss
yea so today was ok w/ anne and them. the fire and water..hehe. well ahhh...now i am home and its terrible. parents are fighting and screaming and shit and ahh....i have no clue what to do. so tonight sucks...a lot...
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2004 21 July :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Bright Eyes
Last Night
Hello all !!! Last night included Ali, Michelle, Ginny, Nick (Ginny's cousin), and I. We all went out to this uber fun place that Michelle and Ginny had previouly found. The "dark room" is the most kickass place I've ever been, I love it there! I'm going to like recreate it in my room! It started out w/ Michelle, Ali, I, and some Senior. The Senior ended up leaving and ginny came in. LoL Michelle and I, and I'm sure Ali was hungry so we convinced them(Michelle and Ginny) to go get us food (that was a mistake!!!) Anyway Nick came him and we talked w/ him for a while, he seemed to be a pretty neato guy. :-) Anyway they returned w/ our food and we were "ready" to go so we went down and ate.
There was damn tomatos on my burger so that alone w/ many other items that were placed on Ali's and my bugers were splattered around us lol! Ginny had uber problems w/ that and walked all the way around the other side of the car to get her drink! lmao! Not to mention I was left w/out ice after attempting to throw it all down Ali's shirt, it was just too tempting! At this point Michelle and Nick read my lil...."story" for the first time which leads to a conversation about clits lol. Nontheless, it was getting late because our parents were being weird so we dropped off Ali and when I went in to use the restroom they drove around the block and didn't come back to pick me up for like 2 minutes, lol I just stood there, I don't know what they were doing! Anyways Michelle was the next to be dropped off and Ginny was probably happy because Michelle was the ringleader of yelling at her about how slow she was going and changing lanes, which obviously got me started! LoL we love you Ginny! I was then dropped off and Ginny spent the night at her grandma's house w/ Nick. That was just about it......xoxoxo love ya byes mwah!
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2004 21 July :: 11.47am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: my own tune
I'll carry my own tune on this one...
I feel like I can tell you anything.
So I took a risk to get closer, now I have made your heart sting.
Oh, I'm so sure that you'll be leaving in the end.
I've burned you so much more than the sun.
Oh, look now, I'm here without hope again.
After today I'm not sure my secret is safe.
I didn't want to conceal my lie.
Oh, I'm sure your feelings have changed.
You'll move on and I'll be old news.
It's a price that I will pay and it's going to bring me down.
I dug a hole and I dug it well.
It's so deep you can't see the light.
I deserve to be in there and be excluded from your life.
Oh, look now, I'm here without hope again.
After today I'm not sure my secret is safe.
I didn't want to conceal my lie.
We had a special attraction.
so I thought I could tell and you could understand.
But now after I told its done so much action.
I can't bare it any longer.
I've made cuts and I let them bleed.
I'm not sure if they'll be scars.
Oh, look now, I'm here without hope again.
After today I'm not sure my secret is safe.
I didn't want to conceal my lie.
Just let me be your friend again.
I wish I could take away my decesion from the past.
I'll do anything just tell me where to begin.
I love you and I care for you.
I just didn't want to conceal my lie.
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2004 20 July :: 10.15pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Linkin Park: Breaking the Habit
Tonight
So ahhh..tonight Amber, Ali, Ginny, and Nick, and I (of course me!) went to the Neato place that Ginny and I found thanks to map quest. Yea we all had a blast.
I wont mention where this place is or what it is. Its just neato...
Well we got hungry so Ginny and I went to Juicy Lucy's to get foos for everyone b/c we can eat at this Neato place. Well Ginny spilt a drink. Woo! Then the guy messed up our order like millions of times, so I ahh..got pissed. I mean I'm on my period so this isn't goin down w/ me at all. We were there for like 30 minutes trying to get our damn food.
Well we get back to the neato place and ahh...eat. We had like 2 napkins for all 5 of us..great! It was funny though. Amber was trying to throw ice in ali's shirt. hahaha...nick almost made it in!
Then after a while we left the Neato place. then we took Ali home. That was just fun and fast! LOL. There is such a thing as slow and too slow if u ask me. But its all good Ginny. Your just use to ur mom yelling at u w/ ur speed, but don't worry we wont yell at u unless ur goin too slow like tonight. U just have to break that habit but be careful b/c u have to make u sure u don't speed w/ ur mama. You know?
Ok well I'm gonna go now. Amber is leaving day after tomorrow! How sad!?
I had a blast tonight...
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2004 19 July :: 11.45pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: 311: one of those songs..lol
Havin a laugh
My annual Freaking out Casey:
missladydrummer: hey you
missladydrummer: :-*
Atomic1988: heyy
missladydrummer: how u doin big boy/
Atomic1988: =\ ok....
missladydrummer: thats nice....real nice.
missladydrummer: what are u wearing?
Atomic1988: u been smokin shit and not callin me over?
Atomic1988: lol
missladydrummer: i can bring it over and a lil more baby
Atomic1988: nice ok bring it
missladydrummer: and i'll ah bring a lil more less something over too if u get my drift sexy
Atomic1988: ok cmon
missladydrummer: hows work? working those sexy arms?
missladydrummer: u havent been callin me..i wann ahear ur voice.
Atomic1988: ok now its just getting fucking weird hearing u talk like this stop
missladydrummer: but i don't wanna.
missladydrummer: i want you
Atomic1988: then come over and prove it
missladydrummer: do u want to know what i am wearing?
missladydrummer: or not wearing?
missladydrummer: Oh My!
missladydrummer: casey darling?
Atomic1988: ?
missladydrummer: do u like grapes?
Atomic1988: yah sure
missladydrummer: they are sex fruit
missladydrummer: i'll feed ur sexy mouth some.
missladydrummer: ur can grab onto it real rough and pull hard
missladydrummer: sexy..
missladydrummer: baby?
missladydrummer: muffin?
Atomic1988: dude quit
missladydrummer: u don't want me?
Atomic1988 signed off at 11:31:13 PM.
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2004 19 July :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: Confused damn it
:: Music: dashboard Confessional
my sitaution (sp)
ok so I'm screwed. I let myself get screwed over. I know I should of resisted but I couldn't. I can't. I think its b/c I feel vonerable and just want to get close w/ someone...a guy to be exact b/c the guy that I have isn't exactly there for my needs.
I'm not really sure if my feelings are really true or its b/c i'm vonderable. I want to know so bad if my feelings are true.
If they are true then i have some work to do. If they are not then i am screwed a lil more i think.
I'm confused and i want to talk about it to a person, but i shouldn't. so i am not.
I'm torn in 2 ways. I don't want to be. i want to find out my answer. but there is no way i will know until like maybe 2 weeks after school starts.
I know i am vunerable like if a hot guy wanted to make out w/ me I am afraid I would do it. I shouldn't but I would.
U know what I would like right now? i want to be in a guy's arms. It can just be a friend. Just the feelin of bein held and loved even if its just in a friend way, its a great feeling. I miss that feeling of bein held and all of the jazz that comes w/ it. I haven't had that in soo long and it sucks....a lot.
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