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:: 2014 1 December :: 5.52pm

Grandpa's funeral
I attend my grandpa's funeral on Saturday and Sunday. It was a buddhist ceremony, but I'm not buddhist though. Last day was Sunday. Before they put him into the oven, they open up his coffin and my relatives and I saw his corpse. Before they took him out, they put him in the coffin freezer. I touched his dead body and it felt hard and cold. I don't know him as much as my cousins, but he's still my grandpa. Most of the ceremony was a drag and was slow. The weather was hot with no wind or breeze. The house felt different without him. He was 90 years old when he died, which was like 3 days ago. My grandma is pretty old too about 86 years old.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 29 November :: 1.27pm

I wish I was an extrovert

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godessalthena

:: 2014 28 November :: 7.41am
:: Mood: enraged

what is it about thanksgiving that makes every ass hole I ever slept with and admitted feeling for feel the need to try and contact me again?

please, call me a cunt for not sleeping with you. I really, really love that. especially when you choose to do this at 2 AM after calling me while I'm still drunk from my family celebration. that is the quickest way into my pooter don't ya know?

now, this aside, I reeeeeeally want revenge. I really want to inflict some pain somehow. but I'm not sure how I would accomplish it. I'm just a fat warm hole for which pleasure can be derived, just like a million other stupid girls out there. I have no real power in the situation, and unfortunately I'm not entirely sure how to generate power at this stage in the game.

what I really need is a mentor. a man eater who is accomplished and has her skills honed to a fine and deadly point.

but where do you find them?

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godessalthena

:: 2014 27 November :: 9.54am

I dreamt about my grandpa last night...

i miss him so much..

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labyrinth

:: 2014 27 November :: 3.36pm

Funeral on Saturday and Sunday
My grandfather passed away this morning. My dad received the phone call from my mom. I was sleeping and had to wake up. I'm going to attend his funeral on Saturday and Sunday. I work on Friday and get off at 4pm. I'm going right after I get off from work. I like to take off from work when I get the chance because work has been boring and unfulfilling.

Today is my day off. I feel that it's too short. My day is almost coming to an end. I didn't get enough rest. *Sigh* I don't enjoy my job at all. I used to look forward to going to work all the time back when I was at Phuket. I loved my job and could stay there for over 10 hours. But here, when it's 4, I quickly leave and change off of my uniform right away.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 24 November :: 4.53pm

you start a band and suddenly everyone wants to join!

auditioning zoe and myself as lead singer (zoe will probably win hahaha)

i am up to 3 chords now! D A and E!! I'm feeling pretty awesome! My fingers are getting tougher. Soon I will be LORD OF THE AX!!

I'm just psyched that this is really happening. it gives me a reason to wake up in the morning. and to not smoke so much when i get home.

i am so jazzed.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 20 November :: 5.29am

Does it make you nervous
When you hear my bones
Animate my body
Without my soul?

I swear every time I listen to silversun pick ups I fall even more in love with them.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 19 November :: 5.01pm

I bet I could teach jackie chan a thing or two.....

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goodbye

:: 2014 18 November :: 10.57pm

Cause life is just a slew of throwback Thursdays and flashback Fridays.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 18 November :: 9.12pm

today has been quite a roller coaster

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godessalthena

:: 2014 16 November :: 10.57am

GWAR has been hands down my favorite concert I've ever been to.

and now the fire in me to start a band has grown to a raging inferno.

TOTAL DOMINATION

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goodbye

:: 2014 14 November :: 10.22pm

Well the jerk store called - they're running out of you.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 13 November :: 9.29am

my growing pains are always from growing apart.

I don't even know what to do. should I do anything? when is it right to fight for something and when isn't it?

I suppose these answers are all inside me. I just need to try and find them.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 12 November :: 7.33am

sometimes you just need a reminder that there are still racist fucks in the world.

damn that guy was fucking creepy.

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labyrinth

:: 2014 9 November :: 6.41pm

I'm working at Novotel. I first started as a cook, now I switched in being a waitress. I didn't keep track of how many days I've been working in this section, but I'll count about 10 days or so. It's a boring position but I can't move now. I move so many times. This is my last stop.

Anyways, I wonder what life after death is like. When I was hospitalized and was recovering from being poisoned with drugs, I thought I slept in bed for a year, was rotting to death, was dying, a demon was messing with me and was on my way to hell. I don't remember clearly what really happened. Was it drugs or did I experienced going into the afterlife? I had my blanket covered my face and head. I was ready to die, but my mom pulled the blanket down from my face. It was really weird. I thought I was going to hell. I was hearing voices even when I was taking a shower like someone was speaking to me. It's likely that it's meth. I can't die and come back to life. It's impossible.

Eversince I moved to Rayong, I don't hear voices anymore. I'm still on medication and it's really helping me. The pills I took are for people with bipolar disorder, but somehow it works on me. I'm not bipolar.

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