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2004 17 November :: 10.05 pm
I've been so tired lately.
Every day for about a week, I've been waking up at 4:20 exactly. Then I roll over and fall asleep.
I'm so tired though.
Today was our first anime club meeting without the president, Taco-san. He's in wrestling and won't be back until mid-February or March. It was kind of scary doing it all on my own but the kid who ran anime club last year showed up so it was all okay.
Minus the fact that Michelle/Punkin pie can get so annoying that I want to stab her.
Nothing else. Watched an interesting movie in Psychology. Went downtown for Rockford's open house Christmas thing with my mom and my sister.
Tired.
It's supposed to snow next week. I can't wait.
I love you all.
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2004 16 November :: 6.28 pm
Nothing happened today in school so I'll talk about yesterday.
Yesterday, Nick wanted to take me out on a "date". He said we would do anything I wanted to do and it was all up to me. He suggested a movie.
There weren't any movies I wanted to see but I wanted to go to the bookstore.
So we did.
It was nice. Really really nice.
Nick came over at some time and we hung out at my house until 6:30/7 then we went to the bookstore.
We were there forever. I got home at 9:45ish.
It was nice hanging out with him. It was really awesome. I really loved it.
It felt natural. Like I really belonged there. With Nick. Just hanging out and talking like it happened everyday.
I think my parents are warming up to him too. Before, they'd sort of be distant and standoffish. Apprehensive. But last night it seemed like they really liked him.
It's about time.
I love you all.
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2004 14 November :: 2.42 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Mrs. Robinson/Needle in the Hay/These Days
Jesus loves you more than you will know
Not much going on in my life right now.
Friday was five months for Nick and me.
I need to do laundry.
I crave ramen.
That's it really.
It's really hot in my house right now. It's turning into winter outside. I can't wait until it snows.
I gave this kid in my Japanese class/Psychology class (Mike Hayataka) my cool scarf because I mentioned I had one like this girl was letting him wear. And because I felt like it. He asked me to burn him a techno CD with the panda song (Panda Panda Panda) on it but I don't have any techno songs so he's going to get indie music and like it.
I've realized via Ben that I listen to emo music. And I don't really care that much because all music could be "emo".
I can't remember what homework I have.
I don't care about math anymore. Ever since Mr. Hess left, I don't really try as much as I used to on my homework.
I'm going to try my hardest not to slack off.
Friday I'm going to Aquinas with my mommy. Day off of school, free lunch, get home early. On a Friday too.
I got something like a $7,500 scholarship to Aquinas. And my MEAP money.
Aquinas still costs too much.
I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow after school. I'm going to grow it out a little through winter and then cut it shorter come spring.
Can you believe that six months from now we graduate?
I love you all.
P.S.
You say you know what he did
But you idiot kid
You don't have a clue
Sometimes they just get caught in the eye
You're pulling him through
Needle in the hay
P.P.S.
I've been out walking
I don't do too much talking
These days, these days
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to
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2004 12 November :: 4.20 pm
My kind of game. Halo, yo.
Read more..
I have the Halo font. I made these with it.
Read more..
I love you all.
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2004 12 November :: 3.23 pm
Five months.
And I feel horrible.
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2004 11 November :: 10.04 pm
I love you.
Always and forever and a day.
Love is perfect.
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2004 9 November :: 11.27 am
Hey.
I stayed home from school today.
Sorry.
I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted.
I needed a break.
So here I am. I can't go anywhere, even once school gets out.
I like this break though.
I love you all and I'll see you on the morrow.
P.S. Plus I'm happier than anything because right now I'm missing Physics Concepts. w00t!
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2004 8 November :: 9.48 pm
Happy birthday for the bajillionth time, lover. I hope it was nice and you and Nick have a fun Halo 2 time.
Kyle found this. I don't know where or how.
I love you all.
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2004 8 November :: 9.20 pm
I'm sorry.
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2004 7 November :: 1.20 am
My sexy desktop yo.
Loves.
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2004 6 November :: 11.53 pm
:: Mood: it's debatable
:: Music: Everything Will Be Alright by The Killers
Dreaming 'bout those dreamy eyes
So got accepted to Aquinas.
Tomorrow looks like college application day for me. Yay.
73h 3nd.
I love you all.
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2004 6 November :: 5.55 pm
I'll show you overdramatic.
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2004 6 November :: 2.37 pm
:: Music: Panda Panda Panda by Deerhoof
Tell me what you think
You know what's an awesome song? Panda Panda Panda by Deerhoof. Here it is live. That's pretty very good quality and not different from the actual song minus the live vibe to it and it's not quite as strong.
Download it. Download and tell me what you think.
I'm going to have this song stuck in my head forever.
I love you all.
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2004 6 November :: 12.27 pm
:: Music: TSO
I'm taking the ACT on December 11th again. I'll do better than last time.
I'm going to visit Aquinas on the 19th. That's not this Friday but the next. You all should sign up to visit too. You get to miss school, sleep in for an hour or so and get a free lunch. Come with me pleases.
My parents are away at some football game all day.
They bought the new Trans-Siberian Orchestra CD last night.
TSO always makes me want snow tens times more than I already want it. That's like a bajillion times of wanting.
They have a lot of piano on this CD compared to their other ones.
I cannot wait until the concert. We're going this year again like we have since we discovered TSO. December 19th. I cannot wait.
I think that's it.
Oh yeah. Mogwai, Explosions in the Sky, Broken Social Scene and Namelessnumberheadman all rock hard. I love indie rock bands. Mogwai is especially awesome.
Right.
I love you all.
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2004 5 November :: 11.23 pm
:: Music: Explosions in the Sky
Things you might not know
I'm really bored.
I can't understand why anyone would want to come back to high school or have these four years be the best of their entire life.
I have a hard time talking to Brett Bretterson on the phone.
I dislike the fact that some people thought I broke up with Ben.
I hate people.
Sometimes I can't help but get involved.
Even though you say it's none of my business, I always feel better when I tell the person what's up.
I can't remember when I remembered my last dream.
I hate the dreams in which I can't talk. I feel so helpless.
I can get out of dreams and wake up if I try.
There was a period of time not too long ago when I was getting maybe two hours of sleep a night because I thought that there was someone in the house or just couldn't sleep.
I survive best on three hours of sleep. Four makes me feel exhausted and I usually get five.
I almost cried at school today.
I can read people.
I don't mention things that I feel shouldn't be mentioned.
I'm lonely even when I'm not alone.
I love to be by myself but sometimes I need a hug or a shoulder to cry on or just someone to cuddle with.
My throat hurts.
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2004 5 November :: 9.22 pm
:: Music: Midnight Show by The Killers
Drive faster, boy
Just got back from the play.
It was good and funny. Wish I could've sat by Ben and Kelly but that was a brain slip-up on my part.
Saw Mr. Hess. Had a convo with Kelly beforehand that left me feeling old.
I've been tired since forever.
I need to stop.
I love you all.
P.S.
So take your suitcase, cuz I don't mind
And baby doll, I meant it every time
You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew
I never knew
But it's alright...
Everything will be alright...
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2004 5 November :: 5.00 pm
(I like The Killers)
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss...
I just can't look, its killing me and taking control. Jealousy: turning saints into the sea, swimming through sick lullabies, choking on your alibis but it's just the price I pay. Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes, I'm Mr. Brightside.
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2004 5 November :: 4.03 pm
:: Music: Completely Miserable by Lit
I love the things that we should fear
All castles made of sand fall into the sea eventually.
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2004 5 November :: 3.28 pm
PA on Killzone (that "Halo Killer")
I was there when they announced it as well, and it seemed at the time like a good vessel for the hopes of that system. But Halo Killer? Be serious. There's only one Halo killer, and I'll tell you this much: it's not on the PS2.
The nicest thing you can say about Killzone is that it flies real good when you throw it.
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2004 5 November :: 6.14 am
So today I have 6 pages for AP Lit due.
And I'd turn them in if I had more than 2 done.
But last night as I finished my second page and thought about what I had written, I fell asleep.
And I woke up with my alarm as usual.
Tons of points down the drain.
I am not going to slack off again. I've said that a thousand times and I never don't procrastinate.
I'd stay home and finish it if I wasn't going to the play tonight.
Ug. I feel so bad about not finishing it. I can't believe I fell asleep.
I love you all.
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