"I have been noticing a generation of young Kuwaitis that seem very eccentric and don't quite realise it. The type of people who at the age of fourteen skip classes in their (american or "bilingual school") and try to attend a parliamentary session regarding the questioning of minister Nouriah Alsubih... Thats eccentrism, thats nonesense and silly.
I am worried that this type of argument is coming from this generation of "kuwaitis" more and more. Its very nice to think, the thought nonetheless has to be relevant or else its one of an infinite number of useless thoughts."
Yeah, that's right, mothefucker. We're coming, so watch your back.
jay: what were you doing?
me: nothing
watching tv
greys anatomy came on
jay: oh yuck
you like it bubi?
me: no
i dont get it
jay: hahaha
girly girls love it
i dont know either
me: everyone sleeps with everyone else
and then meredith gets pissed off at someone
jay: hahahha
me: and then the angry little black woman is mean to someone
and soemone learns a valuable lesson
jay: its like a german orgy in the garden, with everyone blindfolded, and one girl married to all the guys
me: LMAO
oh my God
i think that'll go in my blog
i've been working 12hrs/day and saturdays and this weekend i am working saturday AND sunday. i was also without internet for the first couple of weeks in this new place.
will update after april 15.
just kidding.
have some things to bitch about.
i know everyone's going through hard shit... i'm sorry. i wish plante & moran wasn't raping me, otherwise i'd be a good friend.
It's time for another list of things I've realized about myself...
1- I am not nearly as strong as I thought I was. I am weak and full of insecurity. I fail almost everyone I care for and constantly pass around advice and trash talk which makes me a hypocrite.
2- I am so over everyone who wants to make my life harder than it needs to be. I know who I love and what I want out of that love, and everyone else, anyone holding their breath for an apology or some kind of reward for accepting me after I've run away, is very welcome to go to hell.
3- I can accept the bullshit situation I've put myself in, and I can even be happy in it, but I'm lonely and I need my friends, my real friends, to support me. Like I said, I'm weak.
4- I miss the closeness I used to have with people so I spend a lot of time reading through old emails from '04 and remembering what it was like to come home everyday from school to an email waiting to be read, full of love and support, sometimes pain and the need for comfort, and I miss it so much I try to grasp at it like some kind of faded washed out dream that wouldn't survive a serious breath. I am filled with dread that I might never have that closeness again with those people I love.
