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2004 22 May :: 4.19pm
I need to buff up for summer.... I want to come back to school and have people be like holy shit she looks different.
It could happen...
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2004 20 May :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: distressed
"Had a day again...She said I would not understand. She left a note and said I'm sorry I had a bad day again"
I'm freakin out about this math test seriously. There's always this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I have failed to do good again. I think part of that feeling is just the image of myself that has rubbed of my mom. She can do that to you. I'm very nervous....I can't think about it or I'll cry lol.
I had to ride the bus home today..for like the first time in 6 months I think. I saw this kid who goes to the middle school who lives on the street behind me. He looked different. Everyone looked different. Has time really passed me by? I think it has. Another historical memory that I will not end up looking back on. I just want school to be over with and try to forget freshman year.
"Could it be that I'm fading far away..Straight outtt"
My stomach hurts. erakal;kdfjaksdjfalkj.x....
I need to try to forget about it for a little bit then worry about it tomororw.
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2004 20 May :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Blank Theory- Addicted
Eh...
You find yourself in circumstances
That you can't control
You follow me around everywhere
Everywhere I go
It's the way you want it
(It's the way you want it)
And it's the way I've worked it out
It's the way you want it
(It's the way you want it)
And I'll always let you down
All the things you'll never be
The further down you walk with me
And once I had the things you'd want
Now I have something you need
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
I don't mind pretending I'm someone else
Whoever you want me to be
As long as I'm inside you
You'll never want me to leave
It's the way you want it
(It's the way you want it)
You'll never be alone
It's the way you wanted to trust in me
(It's the way you want it)
And now I have control
All the things you'll never be
The further down you walk with me
And once I had the things you'd want
Now I have something you need
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
Something that no one else can give
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want to give you more
I want to give you more
(I want to give you more)
I want you addicted to me
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2004 19 May :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: bored
Yeah...
School...Eh. I only have homework like every night in my first three classes so that isn't too bad. All the more reason to do my homework at school in the morning. Anyways I have a math test tomrrow that will determine my grade for this semester. I'm going to study mad in my room tonigh or Im basically just going to be...screwed. I'm nervous.
Then Ashley was late at picking me up so I had to politely ask to use someones cell to call home just to make sure she didn't forget me and as soon as she pulled up I gave her the finger lol. Make me wait outside..crazy mofo.
Then my percrastination has caught up with me...I think I'm getting put into thet summer session of drivers training. I should have just done it along time ago erhg...Now I have to take time out of my day to go do that.
But on a lighter note.... My parents are officially going to fly to Denver for a week this summer. You know what that means....house to myself for a week..well sharing it with my sister but still..heh. Maybe that will be the week Carinna has her huge party??????!? Then I could come home hammered and it wouldn't matter. YEAH...
there are only like 10 days of school left...thats a relief.
Later
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2004 18 May :: 9.51pm
:: Music: Watching- Real World
Heh...
Yeah, Not much to say about today because it's just basically like evey other day. Today was the last day of school for Seniors. I'm jealous. I don't think I can last like 2 more weeks....But I will because I have to. -sigh-
Yeah..............
I hope I will do something fun this weekend. I think we're going to do something with Steph. I hope so I haven't hung out with her since we all went and saw Mean Girls...
Later.
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2004 17 May :: 5.34pm
:: Music: Seether- Driven Under
Question, I said Question... anyone?
Hmm...another question to add to the giant carboard box filled of unanswered questions...
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2004 17 May :: 4.54pm
Wow. That was the longest nap I've taken or maybe not but it seemed like it. Today was ok. Eh...not much to say. I felt weird today. I don't know why.
I wish I remembered when Samara was coming back. I think Tuesday? I miss her more than I could have imagined.
Because Kyle threw my English book across the room I discovered 2 other poems that I couldn't find initially. I'll have to type them up and add them to my other 20...or was it 30? I don't know.
Yeah...I would say something about my weekend but there isn't anything interesting to talk about and I'm not in the mood. I feel misrepresented or something.. Is there really only around 14 more days of school left? I know I wait everyday in anticipation for these days to get over with but I have an ungodly feeling that I will quite possibly miss it. I'm too much of a pestamistic person to even be slightly or remotely happy to start drivers training. Just another thing that involves tests....Let me get it over with and just fucking drive. Drive anywhere...to the mall..to Muskegon..just around neighborhoods..anywhere where I can get away from this place.
Later.
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2004 16 May :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Dryer noises
The stairway that used to be headed no where (Stairway-to-no-where) is now headed somewhere. Why? No one really knows, but I guess it was all for the best. All stairways have to grow up sometime, I was just hoping it didn't have to happen so soon.
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2004 15 May :: 9.44pm
:: Music: Finger 11- Drag You Down
Today and other...
Well, I thought I'd sleep in this weekend but I woke up at my usual 8:30. I have a theory. If you wake up late (noonish) the day goes by faster and in this case, I wanted it to go slower.
I lost my train of thought... I'll update later lol
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2004 15 May :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Strange Magic [ELO]
The project de Romeo and Juliet is going well. I'm glad.
Romeo
If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle fine is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.
Juliet
Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this;
For saints have hands that pilgrims' hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers' kiss.
Romeo
Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?
Juliet
Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.
Romeo
O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do;
They pray, grant thou, lest faith turn to despair.
Juliet
Saints do not move, though grant for prayers' sake.
Romeo
Then move not, while my prayer's effect I take.
Thus from my lips, by yours, my sin is purged.
Juliet
Then have my lips the sin that they have took.
Romeo
Sin from thy lips? O trespass sweetly urged!
Give me my sin again.
Juliet
You kiss by the book!
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