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2004 5 February :: 8.49pm
*this one's for lindsay*
more later, g2g!
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2004 31 January :: 8.16am
Buenos Diassss..... BUENNOS DIAASS lol
Thinks have been the same lately but alot of new shit has happened that I'm not going to type all out because it would take me forever.. I dont know what to think about it.
Thats all I have to say, like I said before I have a new online journal thingy so I dont know how much I'll type/ even update this thing.
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2004 30 January :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: pleased
:: Music: New Slang [The Shins]
Gold teeth and a curse for this town were all in my mouth.
I'm looking in on the good life I might be doomed never to find.
Without a trust or flaming fields.
Am I too dumb too refine?
And if you'd have took to me...
Well, I'd have danced like the queen of the eyesores and the rest of our lives would have fared well.
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2004 28 January :: 5.22pm
I have a new journal outside of Woohu so I don't know how often I'll be using this one...
We shall see...
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2004 25 January :: 2.24pm
Ugh its sunday...ALREADY?!!!!
NOooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Its sunday! NOOO!!!!!!!
Nooooooo!!
This weekend wen by really fast. I hate school I hope it ends soon lol and IT WILL END SOON GOD DAMNIT!
Today has been interesting for more than one reason. I shall not go into detail because I dont feel like talking about it because I've already went through it in my head...
Tonight i might go to champion. I will go to champion. It will be fun I need champion..for relaxation.
School is going to suck tomorrow but oh well..
Later
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2004 24 January :: 11.31pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Raindrops and Sunshowers [Smashing Pumpkin faces with great big heads and even greater brains]
...I'll save a prayer for you.
Take a load off.
Play a board game.
Cry (If the movie is sad.)
Repeat untill contentment.
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2004 24 January :: 4.46pm
" I know I was wrong.."
But what' that going to do? It's not going to fix anything. What happened, happened and you can't take it back. You shouldn't have done it in the first place. Look at me...look at my life...look at what has happened because of what you did. I can't just go back to how everything use to be, I can't..it's impossible.
I can't even be left alone in my own house because they "dont trust me alone". I hate what you've done...I hate it..
I can't forgive..no matter how much I wish to, I can't.
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2004 23 January :: 4.26pm
I'm at valley view because I had to finish my powerpoint for dentons class..wow..
Today was ok. I still hate my classes. I like Design 1 the best though with me, carinna, and samara. Its fun...we color..and paint.. lol
I was sitting here thinking of what to do on the interent and i saw this piece of paper by the school phone and it has a bunch of Dr. names and phone numbers...and a cirle around "Pine Rest Clinic Beltline" ...... If this is supose to me for me fuck my mom. Fuck her. Stupid bitch can go to hell for all I care ..I'm not going to a shirink i'm not going to fucking pine rest. I'm not a fucking alcoholic or a druggy. She just doesn't want to have to "deal" with me. What a lovely mother.
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2004 22 January :: 7.29pm
The last couple of days have been pretty shity... I don't know if I should give a shit anymore and I try not to but it's too hard.
I heard my mom talking about some other shrink in rockford again. I'm not going. Just because this guy let me go doesn't mean you send me to someone else. Don't waste your money on something I'm not going to go to anyways. God stupid assholes...seriously...just so stupid. My mom can go to hell for all I care, everyone in this god damn family can.
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2004 20 January :: 7.51pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle- Outsider
I’ve been so tired this week it’s crazy. I was sleeping but I got rudely awaken to do dishes. I didn’t even eat dinner tonight, nothing sounded good, so I made myself some coffee instead so I can stay up and do my homework later tonight and watch tv. I hope these next few days go by faster. School has been a drag. I really hope this whole semester goes by fast and I’m going to have to work on some stuff. I think I’m going to give up the internet for a while so I can spend more of my time on homework and studying so I can just focus on my grades. I need something structured to focus on..then I don’t think I’ll feel so scrambled and overwhelmed. Then make a new diet consisted of coffee and water lol. This summer is going to be good. I’ll probably hang out with friends here and there but I just kindof want to really take advantage of this summer to appreciate my time off and sleep in, maybe get a job, redo my bedroom, then spend more time in my room writing and what not. I’m doing my room in whites, a deep purple, and silver. I’ll paint my ceiling a periwinkle color so it will tie in with my carpet then my bedspread is going to be dark purple with purple sequin lines on it. Then I’ll paint my furniture a chocolate color and I’ll have like baskets for shelves and I’ll paint those silver. Then I’m painting all the wood work in my room white also like my closet, window, and the inside of my door. I can’t wait to do it its going to be so cool. I’m going to find some art and have like art on the walls and stuff, maybe like black and white pictures and frame them.. Then I’ll get floor pillows. Its really going to be a calming room. I kindof have the next few months planned out in advanced…more like a blueprint of plans if you will… but nothing ever goes as planned. I’ll try to make it go my way though. And even coming sooner than summer, Spring Break! I’m not “exited” to go I just really want to get out of Michigan for a while. A week is not enough though. I’ll probably just do what I did last year, stay in the condo, walk down to the ice cream shop and internet café. I really want to go to the flea market though, last time we went they had some kick ass hats and sunglasses for cheap. You just have to love flea markets….they appreciate thrifty people, and who doesn’t have a thrift side?
“Why can’t you see that I’m drowning in a pool of misery…”- Puddle of Mudd
Ugh I don’t want this night to end.
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